The lonely wolf (bxb)

(Elias) " Today is the day Elias are you happy?" My mother asked and I nodded my head while smiling. " I'm extremely happy, I finally get to shift into my wolf, I can't wait to meet forest." I replied and she laughed while nodding her head as I finished my favorite peanut butter and jelly sandwich. " well since you're done, let's get going then, no time to waste here." Dad said as I looked at him with adoration. I wanted to be just like him, my father is the alpha of the Green Bay pack located here in California. I was going to take over once I turned eighteen. I'm sixteen years old and now I will be able to meet my wolf and see if I was going to be the next alpha as well. My mother is of beta's blood. Her father was a beta before he died so if I'm not going to be an alpha, then a beta would be my next guess. They told me that either would be fine, that I was their pride and joy and that they will always be here for me. I smiled as I started reminiscing on what had happened back then, the way we were and still are a happy family. They love me a lot and I couldn't be happier. I just want them to be proud of me like I was proud of them. Standing outside with the rays from the sun shining down on us, everyone had gathered to watch my transformation. They were eager too because they respected my parents. " it's time Son, get ready." I nodded my head and closed my eyes as I felt an excruciating pain coursing through my body. It was expected though, first time shifters have to bear the pain that comes with it. My bones started breaking which caused me to scream but I could still hear the comfort of my parents words, even if it was faint. It took a couple of minutes before I was fully transformed into my wolf, I heard gasps of shock coming from the pack members and I was feeling a bit proud, thinking maybe they loved what they saw. " no this can't be, tell me that this is nothing but a sick joke the goddess is playing on us." My dad said and I whimpered as I looked at him, trying to get him to comfort me. " This can't be happening! I'm a beta's daughter, you're an alpha!" Mom shouted and dad turned to her with hatred in his eyes. " it only means one thing, you cheated on me didn't you!?" Everyone started talking at the same time, while I was left there confused as to what was going on. I tried to stand but fell because I wasn't used to walking on four legs. ' mom, dad can you help me please?' I asked through mind link. They stopped and stared at me with so much hatred in their eyes that I felt my heart being broken in two because I didn't know what I did to deserve their hate. All this time I've known nothing but love, I was spoiled by them and now they were looking at me like they want to murder me. Forest was a whimpering mess, I couldn't blame him though because I was the same. He still hasn't said anything to me because this wasn't the welcome he was expecting. He hoped that our parents would praise us, but all that hope went down the drain. " from now on you, Elias Emerson is no son of mine. You are a rogue and will leave this pack immediately. I Desmond Emerson of the Green Bay pack, banish you to live in the wild amongst the animals since you are now one of them. I want you to leave immediately or you'll be sentenced to death if you stay. You are nothing but a disgrace to this pack! Leave! Leave rogue and never come back!" I started trembling from fear after seeing the way my father had just reacted. I looked at my mother for help but she told me to leave as well because she hated me so with all of my efforts, I ran. I didn't know where to go nor did I care. If my parents didn't love me then I didn't love myself. I was nothing without them. ' I'm sorry you have to go through this Elias, it's all my fault.' Forest said but I disagreed with him. ' don't take all of the blame ok? We are in this together. Let's just see how long we can survive before the goddess calls us home.' After reaching the border I stopped and looked back at the place I once called home. ' I Elias Emerson is no longer a part of this pack.' I howled a painful one after I stepped through the border that would make me a rogue. I didn't have any family, I didn't have any friends. This was something I wish I was prepared for but I wasn't. I have to go through this alone for the rest of my life. ' hang in there Elias, this is my fault I know it. Just let me take over from now on. You need rest, I'll do everything so you won't have to worry anymore ok?' Forest said and I debated on whether or not I should allow him to do that. I didn't want to rely on him all the time but I also needed the rest. I was mentally and physically exhausted, not knowing how my life would turn out had left me in a state of madness. I guess it doesn't hurt to try right? So I allowed him to fully take over. From now on it's going to be just about him keeping us safe until I was ready to return. We were going to make a home in the forest, to live as a wild animal like my father had said. I just hope we can get through this, but if we don't make it at least we wouldn't have anything else to worry about from now on.