I woke up to Kenzie playing happily in her crib. I rolled over to climb out of my bed when everything from last night hit me. How am I still in love with him? He was ashamed to be with me. I knew this, and yet I kept going back to him. I vowed when he left, I would never live like that again, then when I found out I was carrying his child, I vowed to myself to never let him near my child. Children need consistency, and one thing Ryan Miller is terrible about is consistency with what he wants. I don’t know if I can trust him. I needed someone to help me protect my child. As I changed Kenzie’s diaper and got her dressed for the day, she was extra Scoochie today. I tickled her to get her to lay still enough to put her diaper back on; her little laugh erupted and m