Wounded Hearts

Chapter 20: Losing her again

3 Years ago

Narrator's POV

A funeral was held for Melissa's death. There weren't a lot of people there but majority of the people were from Atlas's family, neighbours, Faith's family and Melissa's aunty who was bawling her eyes out. Atlas stood there in black as tears flowed out of his eyes but managed to his face blank and hard. He felt hurt knowing his friend was no more but was still angry at her for everything she did to him and Faith. The only person who was not seen at the Funeral was Faith herself.

Atlas's eyes trailed around the people but saw no sign of his Faith. "Mom....have you seen Faith?" he asked his mother who was silently crying with Leo in her arms. She looked at him in worry and shook her head. "No...in fact I haven't seen her since she left the hospital". Mixed feelings entered his stomach as his heart increased in fear. 

He rushed towards Faith's family and pulled Noah back. "Hey Atlas...what's wrong?" he asked him in worry when he saw Atlas's troubled face. "Fai...have you seen her?...did she come?" he asked with a trembled voice. Noah's eyes widened when he realized his sister was not here. He ran his hand through his hair and mentally cursed. "I'll call her to find out where she is. She must be at home.....I mean she has just lost a friend...the one who betrayed her but I'll call her" Noah said with a blank face as he still hasn't forgot what Melissa and Atlas did to his baby sister. 

He took out his phone and called his sister. After a few rings she finally answered the call causing him to sigh in relief. Atlas also calmed down seeing Noah's reaction. "Fai....princess...are you ok?" Noah asked with a soft tone. He heard a few shuffles and noises in the background but calmed down after hearing her voice. "Yeah I'm fine....why did you call?" she said with a rather low voice. Noah frowned as he knew she was upset and wanted to go home and hug his sister. "I called to check up on you as you didn't attend the funeral. You are at home right?" he asked with suspicion. After a 3 second silence she answered "Yeah...yeah I'm at home and you know why I didn't want to attend" she replied with a quiet voice. 

Atlas kept signing to Noah with his hands and facial expressions wanting to know what Faith was saying. "Yeah I know...Take care princess...we will be home soon" he said and cut the call after he heard her say Bye. "What did she say?....is she fine?....why didn't she attend?" Atlas threw questions at him. "She is fine....and you know why she didn't attend. Just because she died doesn't mean my sister will forget everything" Noah hissed and turned around walking back to his family. Atlas just stood there with a tear dropping out of his eye. He turned and looked at Melissa's grave. "You left us Melissa.....you left alone with many problems....problems that you have caused....how will I get my Fai back again Melissa?....what have you done to us?.....what have you done?" Atlas whispered looking at his wife's grave. 

Back at home, Fai sat in her room filled with darkness, only having a litle light coming from her fairy lights that were hung up on her wall. She flipped through her Photo Album which had her childhood memories with Atlas and Melissa. She would sometimes laugh...chuckle...smile then cry as she remembered her younger times with them. She missed the old them....she missed her past .....the past before the two left her to go to New York. Why did this have to happen....why?.

She stopped at a photo of her and Melissa. Her eyes teared up again as she touched Melissa's smiling face in the picture. The photo was of Faith kissing Melissa's forehead while Melissa was smiling at the camera. She was sad, hurt and dissapointed with how Melissa turned out. She couldn't believe this smiling girl in the picture was the same Melissa who was now dead. 

She then flipped to the next photo which made her heart skip a beat. It was a picture of her and Atlas, where Atlas shocked her and captured her lips while she was taking a selfie of  the two of them. She was caught of guard when he suddenly kissed her and suprisingly the photo came out amazing and was one of her favourite photos she treasured. 

She stroked the photo as her tear drops fell onto the photo. She sniffled and wiped her tears closing the Album. She leaned her head onto the wall and looked up at the ceiling. "I  will let you go Atlas.....I will let you go" she whispered and closed her eyes as another tear drop slid down her cheek. 

Atlas rushed back to Faith's house in his car and jumped out without parking properly. The house door was opened so he quickly went in and ran up to her bedroom. He froze once he reached her door. He was about to knock on her bedroom door but stopped. 

What was stopping him?....Fear?....Fear of seeing hatred and anger for him in her eyes?....fear of getting rejected?.....fear of losing her?. 

What would she do?...Curse at him?.....shout at him?.....hit him?.....or the worst....would she leave him?....No...No she can't leave him. He will beg....he will beg her but he can't live without her....he just can't. He took a deep breath and knocked on her door. "Fai?" he called out with a soft tone. Not even a second later the door opened with Faith standing there with a blank face. His stomach churned in pain seeing her so lifeless even though she was standing in front of him breathing, she wasn't the same anymore and he was the one to blame. He took in her state and saw how thin she had become, clearing showing she wasn't eating properly and that thought hurt him like hell. 

"F-fai...can...can I please talk to you....please" he pleaded. Faith gave him a stiff nodded and moved aside opening the door wider for him to enter. He gave her a small smile and entered her room. He looked around her room and saw flashes of his memories with her in this same very room. Their sleepovers, cuddles and kisses....it made him smile as he looked around. His eyes then froze on their group friend photograph. Atlas was in the front and Fai and Melissa  were on each side of him. He missed the old times and wished he could go back in time and change everything. Seeing the photo in her room gave him some kind of hope. Maybe she still cared?....maybe they both still had a chance.

"What do you want to talk about?" Faith asked in a cold tone that felt like a stab in Atlas's heart. He turned around to face her and sighed. "I....I want to....want to apologise for everything I have done to you.....I was an asshole.....an asshole to believe in her lies. I know I have no excuse but when I saw those pictures of you at the club I-" he stopped, as a tear dropped out of his eye. "I was furious and jealous. I couldn't tolerate seeing you with someone else who wasn't me....I .....I swear down I didn't believe in the photos at first but when I heard your recording with my dad I lost my mind" he confessed. 

Faith frowned in confusion "What recording?" she asked. "It was a recording of you telling my dad that you wanted me because of my money as I was a successful businessman" he said in disgust and guilt. He couldn't believe he thought so low of her. He felt disgusted with himself for thinking that his angel would want him for money. How disgusting of him.

"Oh" she muttered. "but I know it was fake...dad told me everything....he told me how you two were having a laugh and that you were imitating a girl from school who once had a crush on me. Kailey the school slut" he said. No wonder her voice seemed so different during the record, it was like a pitch higher and also Melissa stopped the recording, preventing him to listen further which was her and his father laughing together completing showing that the two were just joking. Faith kept her expression the same and hmmed. "hmmm" she said now looking down.

Atlas looked at his lover in hurt. Seeing her so blank and expressionless...it was as if she had nothing to live for now. He took a step forward and cupped her cheek with his palm causing her to close her eyes wanting to feel his warmth again. 

"I was such a dickhead wasn't I?....I hurt you so much yet you never said anything....you continued to still love me and I'm so sorry my badass angel....I'm so f*****g sorry. I'm just a f*****g bad luck to everyone....I mess everything up....I'm such a f*****g asshole....I don't even deserve an angel like you" his wet lips trembled as he tried controlling his tears. Faith opened her eyes that were filled with unshed tears and stared at his lips wanting to feel his touch again but she had to let him go. She wanted all the pain to go...to vanish....she wanted to move on....to live in peace....live for herself. 

"It's not your fault Atlas....Melissa manipulated you, in fact we all had a fault in this, so it's not all your fault. Let's just let the past go Atlas....I'm tired....I'm tired of all this" she spoke weakly. Atlas cupped her cheeks with both palms and leaned his forehead against hers and  took a deep breath. "You mean the f*****g world to me Fai....the f*****g world....I will spend my entire life-time for you to forgive me....for you to give me a last chance....I love you so f*****g much" he whispered. Faith's heart beat increased by hearing his words but she felt pain...pain for she was going to let him go. 

She moved her head to the side breaking their forehead connection and moved back a little making Atlas feel cold. "I'm moving out" she spoke which made Atlas freeze in shock. Her words made him feel like his life was over. "W-what?" he asked shocked. "What...what do you mean Fai?..." his voice shook. Fai gave him a blank look "In other words I'm leaving" she replied back with a empty look. 

Atlas grabbed her shoulders and shook her "NO... you can't leave Fai.....you can't leave me....everyone has left me....I can't lose you, I just can't.....I know what I did was a sin....fuck I deserve all your punishments, I will take them....but please....please-" he cupped her cheeks, giving her a pleading look "Please don't leave me Fai...please....I beg you Fai-" he fell to his knees and pleaded, "Please Fai....please don't leave me.....please" he shoulders shook showing that he was crying. 

Faith looked at him in pain. She hated seeing him like this, she felt her heart being torn apart seeing him in this way. She wanted to get rid of her anger and just hug and kiss him all over his face. She wanted to say to him that she forgave him, she wanted to give him a chance, but her ego wouldn't allow her. His words, his actions towards her....his fake love towards Melissa, his and Melissa's moans....his child....it all flashed in front of her eyes making her step back as she looked away wiping her tears. 

"Stop being selfish Atlas....If...if she was still here....alive and healthy....then I'm sure you wouldn't be begging me right now. In fact you would have accepted the reality and moved on with your new family" she said with a sad tone. Atlas looked up at her with red, teary eyes, furiously shaking his head. "No....never.....I would have divorced her straight away....heck I would have also took my child from her after what she did to me....to us.....never would I have stayed with her.....that's a big No" he convinced her. 

Faith shook her head "you are a father now Atlas....I want you to me move on.....become a responsible and loving father. I still can't believe you are a father and I know you will be a great one" she smiled at him. He stood up and walked towards her. "I need you....I need you Fai.....I can't bring him up myself....he....he is a mistake.. he-" Fai cut him off by placing her hand ober his mouth. "No Atlas....that baby isn't a mistake. I don't know if you loved Melissa or not but that baby has no fault in this, so don't say he is a mistake" she told him. He looked at his angel with so much adore and love. He regretted so much for leaving her, for hurting her but fell in love with her all over again seeing how kind and loving her heart was even after being through so much but little did he know that was all going to change as Fai just wanted a new start. 

"Plus it doesn't matter anymore I-"...."YES....IT DOES MATTER-" Atlas yelled cutting her off, "IT MATTERS BECAUSE I LOVE YOU FAITH  ABDELLA.....DID YOU HEAR ME?....I LOVE YOU....I love you so much" he cried at the end and that was her breaking point. She broke down.....broke down in tears falling to the floor. She hid her face behind her hands as she cried letting out her emotions. Atlas moved towards her and hugged her tightly, kissing her head in between. They both stayed in each other's arms, both hurt, both betrayed by their only friend who meant so much for them. They both stayed in each other's arms crying and finding comfort from each other till the sun rose. 

but unfortunately by the time Atlas opened his eyes.....he had lost his angel once again.....