James I felt kind of disappointed and lonely in bed last night.Ken slept in his room. I like holding Ken in my arms,it feels so right,I love how his body press against mine.I got ready to meet my dad today,he said I should come down for a talk,a huge part of me is saying it's about Ken and a small part saying he just wants to have a conversation with his loving son.........yea it's about Ken. When I went downstairs Ken was sitting at the counter with ash in the kitchen mixing something.I went over to Ken and took a seat beside him. "Morning guys". "Morning Jamie". "Hey bro". "What are you guys making?".i ask "Cookies".ken cheered. "Kenny what's next?".ash ask. Ken held the paper to his face,way too close and started reading. "Half cup of water".he replied. "Ken why do you hold t