SARAH
I got hold of the Jade. Staring at it like it has the answer to my questions or the solution to my problems.
Oh! It has, that was why I had it in the first place, to use it when I needed help.
Jackson’s voice kept repeating and I was convinced that the only way to help myself was to do as instructed.
“If you ever need help and have none. Place it in your heart and I will be there.”
I got it closer, and closer, and closer, and closer, only an inch away from my heart. Then I stopped.
What was I doing? Does this even work? Even if it does, how will I call the source of my problem to comfort me?
Jackson is the reason I feel this way. His rejection is what is making me sober like this. So why should I run to him for comfort?
He said clearly in his letter that he wanted me to stay
