The Past
"Asia.. Are you sure about this?" bulong sa akin ni Diane my bestfriend."Alam mo naman na masasaktan si Aedan sa gagawin mo.
" I'm sure about this Diane. I know Aedan is very angry about this but this is my dream Diane. Sana someday he will realize it. Kung mahal niya ako alam kong matatanggap at susuporta siya sa desisyon ko!" Mangiyak-ngiyak kong saad sa kanya.
Aedan Calvin Gates is my boyfriend. Three years na kami and plano na naming magpakasal but I asked him for this.Just last one big time contract lang naman sa Paris for three years eh. After it I will be ready to be his wife. I am only twenty two years old and I don't wanna be in a hurry. Mahal ko siya and there's no doubt about it but I want to pursue my career first. Mayaman si Aedan and he is a CEO of his company but I don't wanna use his power to be a popular model.
"Please Dianne... Tulungan mo naman ako. Please explain to him and please assure him that I will return for him."
"Yeah Asia... I will." she said.
Alam kong galit na galit si Aedan sa akin ngayon. He doesn't want to talk to me after our big argument a week ago. He is against this but I really insisted.
I kept on calling and texting him on his number but there's no reply. I know lilipas rin ang sama ng loob niya.
"Thanks Diane.. I will surely miss you bff!"
Nagyakapan kami ulit bago ako pumasok sa boarding area.
I let my tears flow when I am inside the plane already.
I texted him again and told him that I love him and I'll be back for him. But as usual, there's no reply. Pinilit ko na lamang na patatagin ang aking loob.
I will soar high for my dreams.
The Mondragon is so proud of me for reaching my goals. My parents who is in States right now called and congratulate me. My Kuya Adrian Mondragon also called last night and he is so happy for me. Mula pagkabata kasi ay pangarap ko na ang maging isang modela. Actually, me and our youngest Valerie Mondragon is also a model wanna be kaya lang she is still graduating this year.
I smiled remembering the day I met Aedan. I was 18 that time and he was 23.Five years lang naman ang gap namin. At young age ay CEO na siya.
Three years na ang aming relasyon ngayon but we never had s*x. He respect me and both of us agreed that we will do it when we are already married. I am the luckiest woman to have someone as good looking and hot like him. Plenty of girls desire someone like him but he is all eyes on me. For him, I am the only beautiful lady he ever laid his eyes on.
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Dumating ako sa Paris at dahil naninibago pa lamang ako ay hindi ko maiwasang ma-homesick. I miss my family, my bestfriend Diane and of course Aedan.
Next week ay sasabak na ako sa trabaho.And isang napakasikat na modelling agency ang napasukan ko that's why I instantly grab it. Dito nanggaling ang mga sikat na mga modelo.
Isa...dalawa at tatlong buwan na ang lumipas ngunit walang Aedan ang tumawag sa akin.
I opened my social media account and he blocked me instantly. Gumawa ako ng dummy account and used a name of a business woman and he accept my request.
Wala naman pagbabago sa timeline niya. He didn't posted anything since the day I left.
What happened to you Aedan? Tatlong buwan mo na akong tinitiis.
I kept on texting him everyday. Email him everyday for three months now but he is really just ignoring me.
Hindi ko naman magawang tawagan ang pamilya ko o mga pinsan ko because they don't know about our relationship. Strikto si daddy at si Kuya.
I decided to call Diane and luckily she answered. Bihira na rin kasi niya akong sagutin kapag tinatawagan ko siya. Maybe she is really busy too.
"Diane, kumusta? Kumusta na si Aedan? Why is he ignoring me?" nag-aalala kong tanong.
Si Diane lamang kasi ang nakakaalam sa relationship namin ni Aedan.
"Asia.... I think Aedan has move on already. I think he completely forget about you." Prangka niyang saad sa akin.
"W-what? Diane I don't believe you. Hindi magagawa ni Aedan sa akin 'yan! He would never throw me away just like that!" matigas kong saad.
"Please Asia. Tanggapin mo na lang. I tried to convince him not to be mad at you but he is too hard headed. Ang sabi pa niya, the day you left ay tapos na rin daw kayo!"
Napahikbi na ako. " That is not true. He loves me... Aedan loves me. I am his life.. He promised! "
" Asia, people change especially when they are hurt by their love ones. Kaya you need to forget him already... Mas masasaktan ka kapag hindi mo siya bibitawan. He decided to face a new beginning without you. "
Hindi ko na nakayanan at ibinaba ko na ang aking cellphone. Sumubsop ako sa aking unan at doon ko inilabas ang mga hikbi at luhang parang baha na sa oras na ito.
"Aedan...Where is your promise? Paano na ako ngayon? Mali ba 'tong ginawa ko para sa aking pangarap? God..Why can' t I have both? Now that I found my dream, I lost someone I love... Parusa ba'to?" I shouted.
Wala nang mas masakit pa sa narinig ko mula kay Diane. Kaya pala tatlong buwan niya akong tiniis. Dahil wala naman pala talaga siya planong hintayin ako. Why can't he support my dreams? Hindi ba kung mahal mo ang isang tao dapat suportahan mo ang pangarap niya? Mas pinili pa niyang saktan ako.
When I open my social media I received different photos of Aedan dating with random girls. Diane sent it to me.
Sa restaurant. Nagtatawanan habang kumakain.
At marami pang mga photos na ayaw ko nang tingnan dahil mas nasasaktan lamang ako.
Ganoon lamang ba talaga kababaw ang pagmamahal niya para sa akin? Three months pa lang ay nagawa na niya akong palitan,hindi lamang sa isa.
Hindi na ako nakapagdinner dahil nawalan na ako ng gana kaya umiyak na lamang ako buong gabi at umasang gagaan ang aking loob pagsapit ng umaga but nagkamali ako. It just turned worst dahil bawat araw na dumadaan ay mas sumasakit ang aking puso. I love him so much that it really hurts too much.