Chapter Five
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“ No further questions asked.she's truly rejecting him so we should try again”. Laura says and Parker immediately stops her from spinning the bottle again.
“No, it is not happening. Just calm down Laura. You do know that he is not your boyfriend right? Just Because you too. Swap saliva every so often does not mean he cannot do it to someone else. It's her birthday, let the girl have some fun.” She says and I just shake my head at her
“ No, trust me, I'm good. I actually just want to go to bed”. I say to them and Valeria nudges me again.
“You guys excuse the party girl, she is just not in a mood to be partying. But we can change that. We can make this fun for her. Let's make her realize what she has been missing out on by not having parties with us in the fur at place.” She says. And I really wish I could just smack some sense into right now. I really wish I could just nudge her as hard as she's nudging me and remind her that I am not one to be in love with such acts, that I am not one to want to be involved in such things
. But instead I just keep quiet because that's just what I'm good at doing when there's so many eyes on me, everybody just staring at me, and I really do not know what it means.
“What's the matter? You think I am going to reject you so you want to reject me first?” Logan asks, and I just shake my head immediately trying to block myself out from him.
“Relax, I can be nice. If you ask nicely” He adds and I can just see Laura’s rage from the corner of my eye.
I try to get out of it, But it is too late. Before I know it I am being shoved into that pantry with him and they are close in the door shut. The doors open outwards, so with them standing immediately in front of them there is no way out. I feel my heart pounding hard against my chest as I stare at him. I really do not like the fact that I'm this close to him and I can really sense how weird he's making me feel and I really don't like it.
“Well then I just going to stand there staring at me? Be decisive about whether or not you want your greatest wish to come true” he says with the arrogance I definitely expect out of him..
He looks at me very strangely and I I almost feel like my eyes are sharper than they usually are because I can see much of him in this darkness. He's looking at me so strangely, like he's monitoring something about me. He gets nearer to me, taking a whiff of my scent before pulling away with a bewildered look on his face.
What? Do not tell me that I actually smell horrible?
“What's your name?” He suddenly asks me after a weird silence, and I almost drop my jaw. How could he not know me? Of course he does not know me. He has not noticed me.
“It's Elaine”, I say to him, and I cannot make out what he's thinking in his mind
right now. But I just feel myself getting more and more nervous. I feel my wolf awakening. That's exactly what I remember it feeling like before I learned to master resisting all earth to shift, or resisting anything that made me realize that I was not human like everyone else here. I knew this feeling all too well. This feeling of my wolf trying to take all control.
And I do not know why this was happening right now. Maybe because I had not been this close to a guy that I like. Maybe because I was nervous and when my nerves kicked out then definitely my wolf would want to kick in to protect me. It was a thing that I really did not like. It was meant to keep me safe, but still, right now it was an inconvenience. I did not want to shift right in front of him, and I did not want to make him think I was definitely more weird than he probably already thought I was.
“Elaine, how long have you been going to school with me? How come I have never seen you?” He asks me and I can just tell he really wants me to answer honestly with how he's staring at me. Almost like he's threatening me to be honest.
“What are you two doing in there?”There's a bang on the door.
“ I hear talking. Less talking, more smooching.” I can hear Parker's voice from outside the pantry and it's just making my heart pound even harder against my chest.
“Well, are you going to let an opportunity pass you by? Do you know many girls wish to be in your position right now?” He asks me and I just shake my head.
“ No. I will be good”. I say to him, but I can just tell that my body is giving me away because the minute he gets closer to me, even though he just keeps acting weird, the more and more he gets closer to me, I just get more and more nervous trying to back away from him. Soon enough I have nowhere else to go, he is just that close to me.
“You tell me right now that you're going to let this go to waste and I will leave you be. I will let you make that stupid decision on your own”. He says to me with his voice suddenly so hoarse and I feel like I might just fall to the floor. His lips are too close to me. I can just take in all his scent and it smells so good to me.
It's a very interesting scent right now that I cannot even describe but it just making me feel all too excited and so I tried to get away from him a bit more but the door opens and everyone catches sight of just how close we were..
“Oh you guys! you've ruined it, it was going to happen!” Valeria yells rolling her eyes hard and I get outside of the pantry.
“we are done.” I say.
“ Oh no, no you are not”. Parker says and I can just tell that she is happy that she is pissing Laura off because Laura is not really very happy with what is happening right now. She looks very pissed, in fact she looks like she just wants this to come to an end already.
“Well I think we should end it, it is rather boring. Let's move on to someone else, shall we? “ Laura says and Parker shakes her head immediately.
“No need to be acting all jealous now. We are not done with them yet. This is an eighteenth birthday party, we are not seven years anymore, so we're going to do this outside, everybody chant with me.! Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss!”
. She starts and everyone starts starting against the island counter chanting for Logan and me. .
“ Kiss!”
and I can just feel myself shrinking inwardly. I can just feel my body trying to run and I just cannot. I just feel like I'm stuck in this one position even though I really don't want to be stuck in this position right now. I just want to get away from this place and just find a place where I feel safer. But instead I just stay there. I do not know why I choose to stay here but I do.
“Kiss, kiss, kiss!” It’s all so maddening
. The time keeps going on and on and look and just decides to get closer to me. Like way closer than last time. And I don't know what comes over me, but I feel very drawn to him. I feel like I might just devour him whole right now.
It's a very strange sensation and I can tell that it has a lot to do with how I've been feeling around him earlier. What is it about him that makes me feel this way? Soon enough, our lips touch for merely a second. It sends volts of electricity coursing through my entire body.