Blue's pov
Zander and I haven't talked he ignores me and he refused to shift, I never knew he could do that but apparently he can. I don't understand why he is making a big deal out of this, I didn't care if he wanted a mate, I don't want one and I'm the one in charge so I get to dicide but no, I no longer have access to my wolf side . I tried shifting once by force and I couldn't completely shift, I only shifted half way and it was painful with my bones twisted in weird directions believe me it was weird even by shifting standard. It was a good thing I was alone and I never tried shifting since then. My life is a complete mess and I can't get Hope out of my head, I rejected her and I think she accepted my rejection I'm not sure I was in too much pain to pay attention. I tried to forget h
