Melissa Spatiatis. I cannot explain what about between us. I cannot explain how it left me. After the experience of something that I have never felt in my life, King Dimitrio swathed me in his arms where I laid my head on his beating chest. It was beating for me. I was hot and cold at the same time. As of last night, I know his scent, I still feel his hands lingering around my body and for this, I hate myself. I hate that even after committing such atrocity with him, I still let myself be in his presence while his hands were on my hips, naked before him. Naked before the man who threatened to cut off my father’s limbs, who ransacked my village…I have lost myself. Just remembering how I took off my clothes before he even asked me to, I baited him and I did it in my freewill. I was tired