HOLT - Her Ruthless Billionaire

Chapter 2

Chapter Two

HOLT“No, don’t jump!”

At first, the numb haze doesn’t lift. There’s only a voice coming from somewhere below, then a dull squeeze pressing into my arm. I glance down to shout at whoever the f**k thinks they can just waltz into my room and onto my balcony and grab me…but when I do…

The world abruptly comes back into focus and I see her: brown worried eyes, a kind, round face. I see her. And instead of feeling like she grabbed hold of my arm, it feels like she grabbed hold of my soul.

“Please, do not jump,” she says, her eyes imploring.

I’m not going to jump. I was never planning to jump. Standing outside my balcony rail is just a thing I do. For shits and giggles. You know…

But there’s a dense fog in my head that won’t let me form words. Or maybe it’s her rendering me speechless? Dark braids circle her head like a halo speared through with a golden comb. Is she a goddess? I want to ask but all I can manage is to shift my eyes to where her warm hands still grasp my arm. Her dark skin offers a sharp contrast to my pale arm.

“Please, don’t,” she says again. There’s noticeable tremble in her voice, but she doesn’t let go.

I can’t…I can’t talk. I shake my head, trying to remember what the f**k I took. Some new designer drug Luca scored on his last trip to Ibiza. He said I’d feel like I was f*****g on a cloud.

But that was a lie. All it did was numb me even more with a side of cottonmouth and an unquenchable thirst. I figured Luca would eventually send some girl in here to suck me off—you know, a gift for the party host.

This girl, she’s definitely a gift—no question about that. But she doesn’t look a thing like anyone Luca would know.

“Who are you?” I want to ask. But between the cotton in my mouth and the fuzz in my brain, my words do not stand a chance.

“Please come back over here,” she says, tugging on my arm.

I give in to the pull even though it feels like my legs are made of f*****g lead. Just to please her. Just to get closer.

“Okay, okay…good…good…” she says as if I have done something award-worthy by climbing back onto my own balcony. “Let’s go inside. I do not think we need to be out here any longer.”

We…she says. Like we’re a team.

I let her lead me into my room, still marveling at the feel of her hands on my arm, somehow firm, warm, and gentle at the same time. I’m pretty sure the f**k Cloud drug was a downer, but my heart is beating as fast as a Formula One engine. And as for my d**k…

Earlier, I wasn’t sure if I would be able to get it up enough to have s*x with one of Luca’s many female friends. But now…

“I wasn’t going to jump.” The words suddenly appear in the air between us, as if the relay between my thoughts and my speech have been delayed by several minutes.

“Oh, okay, then you will not mind if I close this door behind us then.”

She doesn’t believe me. I can tell. And I don’t care, as long as she is still here.

But then she lets go of my arm to close the French doors and I don’t like that. I reach out to her, but all my hand does is kind of knock against her arm as she moves away.

“Who are you?” Another brain delayed question slips out as I watch her slide the door closed and lock it.

“Oh, I am only a plus one,” she answers, her eyes casting about. “As you can probably tell, I was not invited.” She waves a hand in front of herself with a self-deprecating smile. “But I am glad you were not trying to jump, and I am sorry I interrupted you.”

I stare. Wondering about her accent. But this time my response comes a little faster. “I’m not.”

“You’re not…?” she repeats, her cute face screwing up in confusion.

“Not sorry you came in here,” I answer. “I’m glad. You…you make me feel…wanna f**k on a cloud?”

She visibly startles, then squints and tilts her head to the side as if she’s not hearing me correctly.

I clarify, “I’m glad you came in here. Wanna have s*x with me on a cloud? I’ve got another pill I can crush up for you.”

“Um…no thank you,” she answers with a distressed look. “I do not take drugs, and you should lie down.”

“Where are you from? Like your accent,” I watch her walk over to my messy bed and start pulling the bedding straight, like it matters.

“Jamaica,” she answers, turning down the sheets on the bed she just made. “But I’ve lived in Hartford for many years. I have not lost my accent.”

“Hartford. I went to high school near Hartford.” Full seconds tick by as I pick through my brain fuzz for the name of the place. “Beaumont.”

“I know. I went there, too. After you. I was on a scholarship. I just graduated.”

“So that means you’re legal.”

I don’t realize I’ve said this aloud until she throws me another distressed look. “You should…please lie down. I must find my friend but I don’t want to leave you in this room with these bad thoughts in your head.”

I get into the bed. Because she wants me to—not because I am remotely ready for sleep.

But even after she pulls the covers up to my chest, she continues to look down at me, eyes worried. “I will get you some water before I go. Are you okay with tap from the bathroom?”

“Yeah,” I answer, my voice husky for a few reasons. “I’m okay with anything you get me.”

She throws me a disbelieving look before disappearing into the en-suite bathroom. A few minutes later, she returns with some water in a Solo cup that was probably filled with beer before she got to it. My suspicions are confirmed by the faint yeasty taste of the water. But I swear it’s the best f*****g cup of water I’ve ever had. Because she got it for me.

She watches me drink every last drop, then disappears back into the bathroom to get more.

This time I drink it slow. I don’t like the way she’s eyeing the door. Like she plans to bolt as soon as she is sure I’m not going to pass out from dehydration.

“Do you know who I am?” I ask her.

She hesitates, a guilty look passing over her dark face. But then she bends down beside me, like we’re exchanging secrets as she says in a low voice, “Yes, I know who you are. But I will not tell anyone about any of this, okay?”

Her voice is like her eyes: soft…lilting…like a really good song I’ve never heard before.

I reach out to touch her face, wondering if her skin is as soft as her deep brown eyes and melodic voice. But I never find out. Before my fingers can even graze her skin, she jerks back. “You are… very altered right now, Holt. You do not know what you are doing.”

But that’s just it, I do know what I am doing. Despite the drugs, I don’t feel numb at all. Not like I’m looking at another of the dozens of women who’ve come through this apartment since I moved in to attend Yale. I didn’t try to touch her because I’m “altered.” I tried to touch her because of her eyes and her voice and the way she laughed at herself when she admitted she hadn’t actually been invited to my stupid f*****g party.

“Don’t laugh at yourself,” I mumble. “I would have invited you if I’d known you.”

Another disbelieving look is followed by a soft smile. “Get some sleep, please. I must go find my friend.”

“No, stay,” I tell her.

She shakes her head, eyes firm, yet soft and gentle like her touch. “I must find my friend, and I must return home. But truly, I am glad you did not jump. Your life is a blessing and you should treat it as such.”

Your life is a blessing. Seriously, it was like a Jamaican Hallmark card walked into my room. Nevertheless, her words warm me and fill me up with something I vaguely recognize as hope.

“What’s your name?” I ask.

She shakes her head. “It really does not matter. I am only here for a friend.”

“It matters to me.”

“Because you are in an altered state. On drugs.”

This is a frustrating argument that I’m ironically too high to defend myself against. “So, you want me to call you Jamaica? Because that’s what I’ll have to call you if you don’t give me your name and number.”

“You don’t have to call me anything,” she points out.

“No, I don’t, but I want to,” I answer. “I want to f**k you on top of a cloud and feel your skin on mine while I’m calling you by your name.”

I’m not trying to scare her, really, but I can’t help what I’m saying. The drugs push the words out in a thoughtless jumble with no thought to how she might feel about them.

Her eyes widen and her mouth falls open in a way that makes me want to kiss it shut. I start to lean forward. But then a voice calls out, “There you are!”

We both look up to see another black girl in the open doorway. “I’ve been looking all over for…”

She trails off when she sees me on the bed with Jamaica bent down next to the mattress “…you,” she finishes, blinking at both of us.

Now this girl looks like a friend of Luca’s. She has a Jersey accent and she’s tall and thin with her hair pulled back into a slick puff that goes perfectly with her vintage dress. But unlike most of the girls Luca sends in here, she seems more concerned about her friend than the young billionaire on the bed next to her.

“Are you okay?” she asks Jamaica.

“Yes, I was just…” Jamaica rises to her feet. But instead of breaking her promise not to tell anyone what happened here, she asks her tall friend, “Are you okay? You look upset.”

“Yeah, I’m fine, I guess. I just…” Jersey Girl glances around angrily. “Can we go? I really don’t want to be here anymore and I’m your ride home.”

Before Jamaica can respond I say, “Stay here, and I’ll have a car drive you home.”

“No,” Jersey Girl answers before her friend can say a word. “You think I’m just going to leave her with you? She’s coming with me.”

I tilt my head. “Why are you at my party if you’re not comfortable leaving your friend with me?”

“I don’t know,” Jersey Girl answers with an irritated sigh. “I guess because I’m a i***t. A straight up i***t. But whatever…” She turns to Jamaica and says, “Let’s go.”

“No, wait,” I say, sitting up in bed. “You can stay. How about if I—?”

Jamaica cuts me off with an apologetic shake of her head. “I’m so sorry. But of course I must go with her. She is my friend.”

I pause, stymied because I’ve got nothing to counter that with but, “Yeah, she’s your friend, but I’m Holt Calson.”

I don’t realize I have said this aloud until Jamaica’s head jerks back and her friend says, “Oh wow, you did not just say that!”

After a beat of stunned silence Jamaica says, “I know who you are. But I really must go now.”

No, f**k that. This girl has no idea how long it’s been since I felt…well, anything for anyone. I’d been keeping myself more or less permanently numb since graduating from Yale in May. But there was something about this girl. Something that cut through the usual haze like a shot of adrenaline delivered straight to the heart.

“Wait…wait. Just wait,” I say, fighting the covers to get out of the bed.

But it’s too late. Her friend pulls her out of the room, leaving me tangled up in bedsheets that I’m too messed up to get out of.

“f**k!” I yell when the door closes behind them. I have no idea who either of those girls were. Or how to find Jamaica if she leaves before I can stop her.

When I finally disengage myself from the bedding, I stumble out to the party, searching for Jamaica. But I can’t find her or her friend anywhere.

And I must be really gone over this girl because for a minute I forget why I haven’t left this apartment building since graduation. Why I threw this party in the first place instead of just going out.

I make it three steps outside the apartment before the pins and needles attack my body. A piercing wind fills my head and I break out in a sweat so sudden, I can feel it cold and dripping down my head. Choking, I rush back inside, slamming the door closed behind me before my muscles start contracting and eventually give out.

“Heya, Holt. You alright?” someone asks behind me.

I look over my shoulder. It’s Luca, and he’s got some hot blonde with him who he says wants to try out the stuff he brought back from his trip to Ibiza. The trip I was supposed to go on with him and our former suitemates. The trip I opted out of because of this, because of what’s been happening every time I try to leave this apartment.

I can breathe again…but I don’t respond. Instead, I push past them and return to my room where I search for my phone to call down to Javon. But when I do, he tells me the girls are long gone.

“Everything okay?” he asks, voice suspicious. “Did they steal something?”

In a sudden rage, I throw my blackberry against the nearest wall instead of answering. But I don’t get any satisfaction from watching it smash into pieces.

A few minutes later, I’m back on the balcony. Still not planning to jump. I just need some air. And ever since graduation when I turned into the second coming of Howard Hughes, going out on my balcony is the only way I can breathe natural air these days.

But the air doesn’t help. The numbness begins to set in again, pushing at the memory of her like she never happened at all. Time to go back inside, I decide. Go out to the party and invite Luca’s friend to come to my room and suck me off, take my mind off the one who literally got away.

But when I turn around, I see it, lying just inside the open French doors. And it makes me stop. Stop…and grin, because like a Jamaican Cinderella, she’s left something very important behind.