EVER AFTER

Chapter 7

Sebastian

I can't believe I have done that. I don't know what I'm thinking about. f**k, I should not have... I don't have the f*****g right to kiss him..

I pant hard, while I lean on the trunk of the tree. For some unknown reason I feel that I depleted all of my energy. I am so tired, as I've been running ever since I run away from Rafael.

I am so stupid. I know that I can't be with him because he's not my mate. f**k, my dad even want me to marry some girl just to have an alliance with some powerful pack that can help us. And now I'm making some stupid mistake, kissing a guy..and running away.

But is it really a mistake?

I brought my fingers to my lips. I still feel the tingles that came from Rafael's lips as it touches mine. Its different...a good kind..like mind blowing..

And I love it. Every single moment of it.. I even have this urge to do it again. Just thinking about him brought something deep inside of me.. Stirring some kind of emotion and even making my wolf ecstatic and happy.

But now what I need to do? Suddenly, I remember how he look like when he saw me slowly run away from him. The pain, and the rejection on his eyes..

Even as I close my eyes I can still see him as if, his in front of me. And I can't do it. I can't see him get hurt because of me.

I felt my heart clench painfully inside of my chest. Tears suddenly well up from my eyes as it freely flown down on my cheeks.

I started sobbing uncontrollably as I clutch my chest tightly while I leaned down on my knees. The moon is only my witness, as I started to grieve. Not fully knowing why I'm hurting the way I am now.

After a while as I let my head lean down the bark of the tree as I sit down. I let my mind process everything and I know that I can't be like this to him. Knowing that he might hate me, and I dont want that to happen.

I just want him. Yes, I want him. Him and only him..

Fuck that stupid marriage!

I'm not going to choose some girl over him, f**k I know I can't do that.. I guess I like him more than I think...

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I've been a mess. A total complete mess..

I have gone to school today, but unfortunately for me Rafael didn't come.

And I feel guilty that it might be because of me.

"Seb, where did you go yesterday. You just disappeared, I even thought that you ran away.." Seth exclaim as he eye me with concern.

I just shrugged nonchalantly without looking at them directly. I can't actually tell them what really happen to me, but I suddenly whip my head at Kody when I rememeber something.

"Kody, do you know Rafael's number?" I ask.

He stop eating and lift his eyebrow at me. "Yeah, but why?" He ask, as he give me his phone.

"I just need to tell him something.'' I reply, while I save Rafael's number on my phone.

Kody just nod his head at me while he snatch his phone back.

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I'm becoming irritated as I wait for the day to finally end. And become excited that Rafael will meet me after school.

That make me nervous because he didn't go to school but he still want to meet me. So it only added to my earlier notion that he didn't come to school because of me.

As the final bell chime I immediately bolt out of the door and run towards my car. With trembling hands I start the engine and drive.

We agreed to meet in a small park near the mall. And I'm getting anxious as I came near the place.

My inside is churning, and I almost faint when I saw him sitting on one of the wooden benches around the park.

His eyes is close and he looks peaceful. And like a creep, I slowly walk towards him. While looking at his face, which is very beautiful in my eyes.

But his eyes snap open and look at me with fear, and I almost whimper when I thought that he is scared of me.

Without any hesitation I jump the small space between us and kneel in front of him.

"I'm sorry! I'm such a big i***t, and I'm very sorry.." I plead. "I know that you might not want to see me after what I have I done to you. But still I want to let you know that I don't regret kissing you. You might be disgusted by me, but I still want to tell you that I like you.."

My body is shaking from so much emotions that rocks my body, as I patiently wait for him to talk to me. But when he didn't speak after a minute, I become nervous as I fidget uncontrollably while I remain in my position without looking up at him.

God please, even if he shout or yell at me, I just wanted to hear him say anything..

A body suddenly came in front of me, as slightly cold arms wrap around my neck. "You're so silly, you don't have to do this you know. A simple sorry is enough..." A soft voice whisper near my ear.

My heart become lighter as I wound my arms around him, hugging him tightly around me.

It feels blissful. A wide grin broke at my face when I move away from him and look at him straightly in the eyes.

But as always I feel lost in his bright blue eyes, and the emotion inside of me stir up.

I don't hesitate to capture his lips on mine. And I kiss him again...

But now, I'm not uncertain anymore. As I slowly relinquished his taste, while l*****g him entirely... Sparks ignite within me when I plunge my tongue inside of his mouth eliciting a moan from him.

So delicious..

After an hour of heavy make out, with touching and groping, I slowly detach myself from him. I heard him whine a little, and it make me chuckle.

"I do not want to stop too, but we still need to talk Rafael.."

He slowly lift his head and look at me. I felt myself harden when I saw how red his lips are after abusing it for almost an hour. His cheeks is flushed, and his hair is slightly disheveled.

He is so f*****g sexy!!

"What we need to talk about??" He ask hoarsely as he lick my chin slowly while looking at me with michevious eyes.

I let out a soft groan, and I almost c*m when he roll his hips letting my hard shaft brush to his fully clothed bum.

Oh God,..

"Please Rafael, oh god... Hmm, I just want to know if you like me too??'' I rock my hips slowly as he grind his crotch to me..

Shit!

"Hmm, of course I like you.. Sebastian.." He let out a moan when I grip his plump bottom and softly massage it with my hands.

"Then can you wait before I ask you to be officially with me.." He suddenly stop humping me, as he whip his eyes towards me. His eyes start to tear up and he almost succeed in running away from me, if not from my tight hold on his hips.

"No! Let me go!!" He shriek as tears start to flow from his eyes as he thrash in my arms.

"I won't let you go Rafael, I wanted to be with you! Heck, I really do but my dad want me to marry some b***h and I still need to tell him about you. I want him to know that I do not want to be with anyone other than you.." I beg to him as I clasp his cheeks with my hands, while I look at him seriously in the eyes.

"I love you Rafael, even though I just met you.. I can't seem to fight this emotions inside of me while it slowly consume me.. So please bear with me please.."

He suddenly broke down as he throw his arms around me, hugging me tightly as if I'm going to leave him.

"I love you too, Sebby. I'm going to wait for you always, so please hurry.." He murmur through my neck.

Thousands of unexplained emotions exploded inside of me, after he said that words. I feel my wolf stirring inside of me, and for some unknown reason he also feels the same as I do.

Its all amazing.. And I don't want it to end.. I just hope that all will be good after I tell my father about him, and let him know that I can't marry anyone that I don'l love. Rafael is the one I wanted to be with and I am sure that I can't live without him.

But what if he change his mind once I tell him that I'm a werewolf?

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