By the time we finally crossed over into California I was so done with the car. Even being with Gabriel didn’t make me hate it any less.
I enjoyed the time spent with him but it felt like a moving jail. And I knew once we finally got here all my fear about what we would have to face came to the forefront of my mind.
All the years without Gabe, all the years that other people got to have with him.
It wasn’t my right to feel like this. It wasn’t fair to either of us.
Of course Gabriel had a life and life moments that didn’t include me. Again I needed to stop worrying about the past and live for now. Live in the now.
I was still nervous to meet people that knew him. We had yet to discuss how I would be introduced or what he had said to his friends when he left to get me.
“How long unti
