12 LEVI I puked up my lunch an hour before my planned appointment with Zeke. I’d lied to Lily about why we couldn’t hang out, not wanting her to know that I was meeting with our marriage counselor she had kissed while riding my hand. Twice since that night, I’d brought her pleasure with my mouth and fingers, but nothing she did, nothing she said got my d**k hard enough to give her what she begged for shoved between her thighs even though I’d had him in mind while we made out. I felt sure I was broken beyond repair because I’d made an awful decision to push the threesome idea in order to cover my shame. She’d left in exasperation the night before after my last failed attempt, her annoyance at my inability to get it up creating even more anxiety to twist my insides. Add in the fact I h