I just keep walking in the rain, my head down and my coat soaked. I'm going crazy. I keep replaying that scene in my mind endlessly. That look in Rick's eyes... I feel like I broke his heart. Again. Why the f**k did I have to do that? It was f*****g hard enough the first time!
I suddenly stop walking, my feet planted on the ground. I'm on a bridge above the Thames. The whole city has turned a shitty gray under the downpour. There are a few neons here and there, but it's just gloomy and gloomier. I force myself to take a deep breath I don't need before I realize that what I actually need is a good cry. My heart hurts. My head hurts, everything hurts. I thought things would be better now, but my past is coming back. That weight is climbing back on my shoulders as if I'd just taken that loa
