Alpha's Decision

Harpers Family

Harpers POV:

I drove in early to Golden Sphere pack, I wanted to see my family and tell them about my temporary move to Silver Moon. As I walked in, my mom greeted me with her usual disdain. I could never understand her feelings towards me, they were so different from the way she acted towards my sister.

I watched my sister as she walked in, barely greeting me. I nodded towards her and said a small hallo as my sister took a seat at our kitchen table.

She gave me a disgusted look and I had to give myself a mental shake before I was able to speak again. They always had this way of making me feel small. "I just came to..." before I could go on my sister interupted me.

“Oh, my Goddess Harper, would you stop embarrassing us, throwing yourself at the Alpha like that it is disgusting. Everyone is talking about it.”

I looked at my sister Rene. “What do you mean?”

My sister was everything I was not. She was small and perky with dark hair and eyes, she was everything I wanted to be but never could be. When my father was still alive, he would say ‘your beautiful and talented Harper, no need to compete with Rene; but he died a long time ago, before I could believe what he said.

“What I mean is, you keep ogling Alpha Leo and you’re embarrassing me and mom, we are trying to establish a ranking within this pack, but your behavior puts that in jeopardy. Please just stop.”

“You should listen to your sister Harper, she’s right, it’s making all of us uncomfortable, especially the Luna.”

“He’s my mate mom, I can’t help it.”

“Well dear, he has a beautiful, accomplished wife, something you will never be, with your boyish body and interests. He clearly doesn’t need or want the unwanted attention you’re throwing his way, you’ll never live up to his standards. Why don’t you try and settle down with that warrior friend of yours, Jake, right”?

“ He's not my friend, mom. We are on duty together, sometimes, but he has a mate.”

“Of course, I expected too much from you. If only Rene hadn’t already settled on having Beta Luke as her mate, you could have settled on him” she started laughing. “What am I saying, the beta ranking is still a little out of your league, I’m sure you’ll find a nice warrior or become a spinster.” My mom laughed at her own joke and I saw the smile on my sisters face.

“Or what about a farmer? With those big hands, you are much better suited to be a farmer’s wife.”

Both my mother and sister laughed as I got up to leave. “If only you looked more like your sister, small and petit and very beautiful.”

I so wanted my mom to love me as she loved my sister, but she never could. I turned to them just before I exited completely.

“I actually came here because I have made a decision, and wanted to let you know.”

My mom smirked when she looked at me, “And what is that dear?”

“I am leaving this pack to join Alpha Joshua and Luna Emma at Silver Moon; they want me there. Currently it is just temporary, but I hope that will change.”

My sister clapped her hands together. “Wonderful news, now mother and I can climb the social ladder without you restricting us. I turned to leave and heard the snickering and laughing behind me.

I saw Leo leave the pack house with his Beta and other warriors. I tried hard not to notice him, but I knew he saw me. I rushed to the car that Emma had provided for me. Before I could get in, Leo was there, opening the door for me. “Going somewhere.”

I turned to see my mother and Rene watching from the door. They both looked furious.

“Yeah, back to Silver Moon, and you, going out.”

“NO, just grabbing some dinner with the guys”

“Sounds like fun”

“Harper, how long are you going to stay at Silver Moon?” I saw the frown between his eyes. “Your obligation to Emma is done, I need you here.”

I frowned back at him. “We’ve spoken about this, Leo, and she is still my friend, Leo, and a very good one, and honestly, I feel more at home there than here, and as I told you, I am staying until Emilia-Rose’s anointment.”

I got in and he closed the door. I watched as Serena started walking over to us and I heard Leo utter a curse. As she reached him, she plastered herself against his body, molding herself to him. He looked down at her and I could feel his irritation, but that didn’t stop Serena flashing him a smile and kissing him on the cheek. “Do you need something, Serena?”

“Yes, you”

He extracted himself from her. “Fine, I’ll meet you in the kitchen. Just give me 5 minutes”

She gave me a hard look, then turned around and swayed away. I followed her progress to the pack house. I looked away when I realized Leo was staring at me.

Leo kept looking at me. I saw his fists clench and un-clench a couple of times “Make sure you don’t stay to long, we need you here”

I shook my head and started the car. I drove away from him and my home, but I couldn’t help but watch him in my mirror. He kept staring after the car, long after he should have. I then watched him turn and start toward the pack house.

My thoughts turned back to my sister and mother. I looked in the car mirror then quickly looked away. I felt a tear treacle down my cheek, I knew I wasn’t my sister or mother for that matter, and I honestly wished I was. If I looked at everything I have accomplished on the battlefield and then look in the mirror, it was like two different people. I knew I was an accomplished warrior, but when it came to the way I looked I had always felt insecure, very insecure. I mean if my own mother didn’t think of me as beautiful, I had no hope right. As always, Eveline my wolf came to my rescue,

‘You’re not who you think Harper. You are letting them determine who you are and that is not right, you are a strong, beautiful, capable warrior, and never forget that. It’s time you left your sister and mother behind with their petty jealousies and looked after yourself.

‘I don’t think their jealous Eveline’

‘That’s because you’re not looking.’

On my way to Silver Moon, I thought of what had to be done. I was going to have to approach Joshua and ask him if I can join his pack. I didn’t foresee any problems. I was there when they needed me, I now needed them.

I drove to Silver Moon, thinking of Leo and how hard these last couple of years have been. Eveline was right, I needed to take care of myself for once or just think of myself first. Even saying that made me feel like an asshole, I had always put my pack and family first. It just felt wrong, but I was determined to try.