The Mistress

"UHMM, Louie.. you're so good at this." Puri niya sa lalaking kaniig. He was sucking and nibbling her breast while his hand is making it's way to her core. "Come for me Yngrid." He run his thumb over her clit, making lazy circles around her bundle of nerve. Yngrid arched her back, her mouth form a perfect O shape as unbearable pleasure consume her. She thrash her head from side to side as she scream his name. He lay down beside her and they shift positions. She's now on top of him. Riding him like a cowgirl. The feeling is intoxicating. She held onto his thighs and throw her head back as she dance to the rhythm. She was taken aback when he stand up so she wrap her thighs around his waist and he move to the edge of the bed and pump faster. Taking the lead. "Louie.. Louie.. Ohh god baby!  I love you!!" She scream from the top of her lungs. Startled. Louie stopped. He took a deep breath before he start moving and drive them both to oblivion. ***** "AALIS ka na agad?!" Hindi niya napigilang tanungin ang lalaki nung nagmamadaling itong mag bihis pagkatapos ng nakakayanig na pagsasanib ng kanilang mga katawa. They had s*x. That's how Louie describes their kind of relationship. Pure physical. A relationship that's full of lust. Nothing more, nothing less. "I'm having dinner with my wife." Nakatulala lang si Yngrid at hindi niya na napigilan ang pag uunahan sa pag agos ng luha niya the moment he walk out of her door. Naibato pa niya sa pinto yung unan sa sobrang galit. It's been almost a year now. Isang taon. Isang taon na siyang nagpapakatanga sa isang lalaking hindi kayang suklian ang pagmamahal na ibinibigay niya. Isang taon na siyang nakikiambot ng oras na kaya nitong ibigay sa kanya. Isang taon nang nakikihati sa pagmamahal niya. She was his wildest fantasy come to life but he never give her anything in return. She was his property but Yngrid can never own him. Pumayag siya sa ganitong set up para kahit papaano, kahit bawal, kahit nakaw na sandali lang makasama niya ang lalaki. Na kahit mas short pa sa short time at alam niyang talagang katawan niya lang ang habol nito sa kanya ay hindi siya nagre-reklamo. He never even slept with her. Pero kahit ganun, umaasa parin siyang magbabago ang isip ng lalaki. Na mamahalin din siya ni Louie kagaya ng pagmamahal niya dito. At nagseselos si Yngrid sa asawa nito. Napakaswerte niya for having Louie in her life. Isang bagay na matagal nang pangarap ni Yngrid. She doesn't want to be his temporary fling. She wanted something more, something deep. Something way past being just his favorite past-time. Something impossible. Padabog niyang kinuha ang sira-sira niyang damit at pumasok sa bathroom. Naupo siya sa malamig na tiles at hinayaan niyang umagos ang malamig na tubig sa hubad niyang katawan kasabay ng pag agos ng sarili niyamg mga luha. 'Hanggang kailan?' Tanong niya sa kanyang sarili. 'Hanggang kailan ako magiging ganito? Hanggang kailan ko matatanggap na hanggang ganito lang ang papel ko sa buhay niya? Hanggang kailan ako papayag na gamitin niya lang ang katawan ko? is loving him enough reason para ibaba ko ng ganito yung pagkatao ko?' Pero alam niya na naman ang sagot sa tanung na yun eh. Kase kahit ilang beses niyang sabihin sa sarili niya na tama na, na kahit kailan at kahit anong gawin niya hindi ipagpapalit ni Louie ang pamilya niya para lang sa isang katulad niya, She always finds herself with him on her bed having some sorts of  profanities simply because of love. She loves him. So damn much that it hurts. And yes, hindi niya alam kung hanggang kailan niya gagawin sa sarili niya ito. Alam ni Yngrid na wala namang mali sa ginagawa niya. Nagmahal lang siya. Hindi naman maling magpakatanga dahil lang sa nagmahal ka. Kelan ba naging mali ang pagmamahal? Louie is her kind of right love at the wrong time and at the wrong guy. She's Yngrid  Dela Merced. A mistress. And this is her story.