Prologue
Asher's POV
I stare at the bright moon. The stars. The darkness. It is at that odd hour of the night where the silence speaks if only one has the senses to hear. And I do. Or maybe I think so. Tonight, the silence is whispering to me nothing. Or maybe I think so.
People have been telling me that I am slowly going insane. How do I tell them that I went insane long ago and I don't have the energy to hide it anymore?
People have been telling me that I am a walking mess. How do I tell them that I am numb and I don't even know if I am walking or crawling?
My life was like a movie just a year ago. And now so much has changed. I loved a girl and wanted to marry her. Got engaged. She found her mate. I had to let her go. She got married to the one she loves the most. I got married to the one that loves me the most.
And it all ended with a tragedy. People recovered. People moved on. But I couldn't. Because I have yet to hear another news.
The baby monitor beeps, grabbing my entire attention. As soon as I see my baby, I run to her. I open the door to find her crying in her crib and I scoop her up in my arms.
"Shhh! It's okay, love. Dad's here. Dadda is here" I whisper as I hold her in my arms and rock gently.
She presses the side of her face to my chest and slowly stops crying. I walk to the table and grab the formula that I made for her just a few minutes ago before going to my room.
I offer her that and she eagerly chugs all of it. Once she is done, I wipe her mouth and start rocking her as I move from one corner of the room to another.
Despite that, she starts crying again. I place her in the crib again and check if her diaper is leaking. But no sign of it and she did not poop as well.
"I am sorry" I whisper as I take my daughter into my arms again.
I have no idea why she is crying and I don't know how to make her feel better. But I do that one thing that always makes her smile. I start singing the song as I face towards the moon. Slowly I turn around so now she is facing the moon
Moon Goddess, Bless us!
"Twinkle Twinkle little star"
"How I wonder what you are"
I start singing as I rock her again and a few minutes later she falls asleep. I place a tender kiss on her forehead and decide she is going to sleep with me on my bed for the rest of the night.
I take her to my room and place her on my bed. And that night, I slept better than I slept for the past few weeks.
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"You spend most of your time just working, Asher" Ivan tells me and I just give him a look that silently asks him to shut up.
"I am not going to shut up this time. It's been like what? Just months! You don't have to go down into deeper darkness because of that. Get up and get moving!" he says again and now, I am slowly starting to get irritated.
I need my daily dose of silence and he is spoiling it. I am just a minute away from yelling at him and if he still talks back, I am much more ready to dethrone him as the Beta.
But one mindlink. Just one mindlink saves him from that and saves me from the turmoil. It is from the pack doctor and she says ... "Alpha Asher, She woke up" . Just like that, I end the mindlink with tears in my eyes.