Chapter Seven
I really did not want to know that, I did not want to know what it means for me. Indeed, it is happening so quickly. It's not even my birthday for an hour since I got to school. But this cannot be happening to me. I really do not want to find my mate and I have talked about that several times. But I guess the universe was listening indeed and decided that instead it would give me the opposite of what I wanted.
The scent gets stronger and so does the urge to Just follow it. And as hard as I try to resist, it is impossible to. And soon I am finding myself walking through the hallways, searching deeply for that scent
. And it's all risen. It smells so enticing to me. I am charmed by it and I just cannot get enough. I really have no idea how on earth this could be happening. Some people wait days, others weeks. Rarely does a wolf find her mate exactly on her birthday. Only the lucky ones do. But I did not want to be part of those lucky ones. I wanted to be part of the unlucky ones.
Or at least the ones that consider themselves unlucky anyway. I would consider myself extremely fortunate to survive even a week without knowing my mate. But it appears I will not be surviving the next hour without knowing. As I start to follow my instincts that are just leading me towards scent, I notice Brock from a distance. And right then and there, my stomach does a backflip. I feel the butterflies filling me up so intensely as I look at him.
No, it cannot be him. There's absolutely no way, I tell myself instantly, I do not even want to get any closer to him. The distance in between us is good. Maybe it is what is protecting me from actually finding what the original that smell is. Maybe I needed him to be there so I could take a turn and decide that I will do this another time. I am not brave enough at all.
“ Wow. Really? Did this have to happen now?” I say to myself out loud before I lean against the wall and take a deep breath. The butterflies were another sign that Stella told me about something that I had to be looking out for. And I already have a feeling that at this point, I know that the day is going to end with me knowing what my doom is. I know that if he is in the school, one way or another, he's going to find me.
Maybe he's already smelling me as well, and it's going to try to find me. I wish I had learned more about masking scents because right now I wish I had done that. I wish I was masking my scent so that he does not find me instead. No, this cannot be happening to me right now. I stare at Brock for a few more seconds before I realize that his eyes are on me. My eyes instantly go wide and I see him lingering for a little bit before walking away, almost in a rush, like he's trying to get away from me and make sure I do not get any closer to him.
He's acting very weird today and I do not know why that is the case. And so I decide that I will not be trying to get on his nerves when he. He's clearly already in such a bad mood. There's no way that he's going to listen to me when I tell him everything that I have written for both of us while he does absolutely no work. And to be honest, maybe it is for the best. Lunch comes around and I am finally happy to get a break from all the learning. I'm just grateful that the inevitable has not happened.
Even though I felt uneasy the entire class, like my wolf was trying to instruct me to follow the scent. She has not spoken to me yet, but I really know what she wants. She wants me to follow that scent. She wants me to find my mate, and I know that is what it takes to wake her up, but I do not even want to get there.
I know that it is not going to be easy whatsoever for me to accept whoever that it is going to be. It is not going to be something that I'm going to take with a grain of salt because there are implications to having a mate and I already know that it means whoever the hell else I will end up with will just not make me as happy. And that is precisely what I hate about this curse.
I will call it a curse for us wolves, knowing that you have absolutely no choice but to desire someone that you did not exactly choose to even desire in the first place, or even slightly. During lunch, I try my hardest to stop thinking about the feeling that I have, but instead it gets worse and so maybe I need to talk about it.
“Something happened already”, I said to Stella and her eyes go wide.
“What are you talking about?” She asks me with excitement in her voice. “Did you find him?” She asks me and I just shake my head.
“I almost did but I did not want to” I say to her and she gasps loudly.
“Are you telling me that you felt all the signs of it? there was a smell and just felt like following it?” She asks me and I nod my head. As much as I hate to actually be in the position to agree with her right now,
“ yes, it happened and I quickly walked away from it. I did not want to find out who it was. I'm nervous about it,” I say to her and she smiles even more widely.
“ You should not be nervous, you should be excited. You need to know who it is and I'm telling you, once you do, it will stop haunting you and if you do not, it is going to seriously haunt you. You are not going to stop thinking about about him. And trust me, your wolf is not going to give you an easy time either. I know that very well. I was anxious about finding my mate too, but when I did, honestly, it was the best time ever.”
“ Oh s**t,” I say out loud. “Please can he just leave the school so I don't have to see him?” I say, but soon enough I know that I will not be able to be sitting in here any longer and so I make an excuse, say that I have to submit the chemistry papers to Stella and she just nods her head.
“ All right, fine, do what you need to do, but promise me that you will follow the scent. Promise me right now”, she says to me and I just nod my head even though I know that I do not mean it, I know that I will probably chicken out again. As I follow the scent, my butterflies and my stomach get more intense. It almost feels like I'm going to throw up, but actually in the best way possible.
It's a good kind of nervous and I don't even know what that means but I feel excited. I try to resist going more and more forward, but it is just too strong my instincts to follow that scent that is so appealing to me. I find myself in one of the old biology labs and I really do not know why I would be led here. I surely hope it is not any of the teachers because that kind of thing happens rarely for your mate to be someone way older than you. And I know that there is no biology teacher that is younger than me by ten years.
I open the doors feeling my heart pounding hard against my chest. I feel the perspiration forming on my forehead and all over my body as I continue to stretch that door open. I take deep breaths in and out trying to calm myself for what I'm about to find. The lab is empty for the most part apart from dark hair that I am able to notice peeking through a denim jacket. I really do not want to believe that it is him but soon enough he turns around and he confirms it.
“Prince Brock.” I say out loud Ruth’s shaky voice. I’m in shock.
“ What the hell are you doing in here?” He asks me. He has a bottle of vodka in his hand and he continues to drink as he looks out the window.
I feel my breath running short. It is getting almost impossible to breathe around him.
“Prince Brock, it's you?” I ask him, my heart pounding hard against my chest.
“It's you!” I say again and he looks at me with that glare before looking away.
“You're my mate” I say to him and his head quickly turns to face me and he does not even waste a single second before walking as quickly as he possibly can and is soon by my side.
“Never say that to me ever again. Do you understand?” He demands with a harsh tone and my eyes just struggle to stay open and facing him because I can just feel it.
“ Mate!”, my wolf says to me. First words. I was told these would be my first words.
“He's our mate!”, she says yet again and that just sends all kinds of nerves coursing through me.