Her name was Hania

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Hania was sleeping. It was 4:00 a.m. Suddenly her mobile’s alarm ringing out. She woke up from her sleep. Her phone was beside her pillow. She took her phone and stopped the alarm. She got down from the bed. It was prayer time. She directly went to the washroom.

At 4:50 a.m. Hania's mother Fatima entered into Hania's bedroom. She saw that Hania was reciting Quran. She was looking at her daughter with love full eyes. Hania didn’t notice her mother. After few minutes, Hania completed her Quran recitation. She noticed that her mother was standing near her. Hania gave her a smile. Hania said with smile, “ As-salamu alaykum, Ammi.” [Hania called her mother as Ammi.] Fatima said out with smile, “ Wa alaykumu s-salam. Do you want to drink tea? I am making tea.” Hania shook her head in negative. Hania said, “ No, Ammi. Did you already pray salah?” Fatima said out, “ Hmm. I already prayed salah. I am now just making tea. So I thought maybe you want some.” Fatima was looking hesitate. She wanted to say something to Hania. Hania noticed that. Hania said out, “ Ammi! Do you want to say something?” Fatima said with hesitation tone, “ Hania! I want to talk with you about Farhad. Feroz bhai came in our home yesterday. Your Feroz uncle talked with Farhad yesterday. Farhad doesn’t want to come in India this year. I think Farhad isn’t the right guy for you. Hania, you should make a decision soon.” Hania instantly said out, “ Ammi! What you want to say? Don’t tell me to do any nonsense. I am matured enough to make my own decision. You are my mother. You know about my feelings very well. I don’t want to do any kinds of stupid thing. Ammi, I don’t want to talk anymore. I have lot of works to do. Can you please go now, Ammi?” Fatima said with low tone, “ I know about your feelings Hania. I am also a women. But I cannot see you like this. I cannot see my daughter in pain. You have no future with him. Cannot you see that Hania?” Hania said with painful expression, “ Ammi, please! Don’t talk like that. There is just misunderstanding between us. I want to make everything alright. Soon he will understand me.” Fatima released a deep breath. She said out, “ I hope he will understand you. But I don’t know why I am feeling that he doesn’t want to understand you. I never thought that Farhad would do that with you. He should trust you. How could he leave you like that? I am just worried about your future.” Hania said out, “ Ammi, I believe in Allah. Allah will definitely help me. Allah will show me the right path. Farhad have to trust me. I didn’t do anything wrong.”

Hania was inside the factory of their fashion's brand. She was checking some dresses design. At that moment Flora came there. Flora said out, “ Hi, Hania. When you came?” Hania said with smile, “ Hello, Flora. Few moments ago.” Flora said with little smile, “ I thought you wouldn’t come here today. How you manage the time? You also went our two showrooms to check. You are really fast!” Hania said with smile, “ I am just like you. You also like to do works with speedy mood.” Flora said out, “ Is everything okay in the showrooms?” Hania said, “ Yea, everything is fine. You don’t need to worry. By the way, Ammi invited you for tomorrow’s dinner. You have to come tomorrow at our home. Ammi told me to tell you that.” Flora said with smile, “ Obviously, I will go. Aunty's handmade foods are really tasty.”

Hania and Flora were inside the Hania's bedroom. Few moments ago they ate the dinner with Fatima. After that both of them directly came in Hania's bedroom. Flora said out, “ Hania, I forgot to tell you that I am going back to Thailand next week. I already booked my plane's ticket. Dad wanted to see me, he is missing me. I can also check our showroom's situation in Bangkok.” Hania said out, “ Uncle is missing you or your fiance is missing you. Aren’t you ready to marry him now? Why you are delaying your marriage Flora?” Flora said out, “ I am still not ready. I need sometime. Maybe soon I will marry him. Now just stop talking about my fiance. Talk about your husband. Did you hear any news about Farhad? Did he call you? [Hania remained silent.] So, he didn’t call you. It’s really long time! How could he do that? Look Hania, I am always ready to help you. If you want then I can meet with him. I can talk with him for you. This problem should be end. Why cannot he just trust you?” Hania said out, “ You don’t need to meet with him. Do you think he will listen to you? By the way, Feroz uncle just told me that he is now in Bangkok. But I don’t know where he lives in Bangkok. Feroz uncle also doesn’t know where he is living in Bangkok. Few days ago, he just told uncle that he is now in Bangkok. His company transferred him from Turkey to Thailand. He is now staying in Bangkok, that’s all. Because of me he doesn’t want to talk with Feroz uncle like before. He only calls Feroz uncle once in a week. You cannot find him in Bangkok so easily. Even if you find him it will be no use. He will not listen to your words. I think I should go to Bangkok soon. I was thinking about go to Bangkok from few days. It will be good for me. I need to meet with him. He have to listen to me. I didn’t betray him. I am not a disloyal person. I am not a disloyal wife. How he could just misunderstood me? I really love him, Flora. Do you think that I am that types of girl?” Flora said out, “ I trust you Hania. I know very well which types of girl you are. Be brave! I know soon Farhad will realise his mistake. You are a good women. Cannot he just see your modesty and piousness? You never show any kinds of interest in any man. You always stay away from man. We all know about your character. I believe you Hania. You never would do any kinds of disrespectful and improper thing. You wouldn’t do anything against your religious thoughts. I know you very well. But Farhad should trust you not me. He is your husband. I think you should meet with him. It will be good if you go to Thailand. You could find him there. Even you could check our showroom. You still didn't go there to check our showroom. You only went to Malaysia and stayed there for two months to check our showrooms activities in there. But you didn’t go Thailand. It’s me who have to check the activities in our Bangkok's showroom.” Hania said out, “ Thailand is your own country. That’s why I didn’t go there to check the showroom's activities. I know you could handle that showroom. By the way, you know very well Ammi wouldn’t allow me to go there. Ammi allowed me to go in Malaysia because Osman lives there. That’s why Ammi let me go there. I also didn’t want to go Bangkok. But now I have to go to there. I cannot sit here. He is my husband. He have to understand me. I have to win his heart. I love him. He have to love me back. He just cannot leave me like that.” Flora nodded her head.

Hania was sitting in the lounge room with her mother Fatima, Feroz uncle and grandmother Rehana Parvin. Hania invited her uncle and grandmother for lunch. Few moments ago they ate lunch. Now they sat in the lounge room. They were talking. Suddenly Hania said out, “ Ammi, Feroz uncle, Nani. [Hania called her grandmother as Nani. Everyone looks at her.] I want to go to Thailand. I need to go there to check our showroom and to meet with Farhad.” They were looking at her with tensed expression. Fatima instantly said out, “ What are you saying Hania. I cannot let you go there. How you could go there alone?” Hania said with low tone, “ But Ammi, shouldn’t I go there? He is my husband. He is just misunderstanding me. I cannot sit here for many years. I have to make him realise that I didn’t do any improper thing. I didn’t betray him. I know very well he want to leave me. But I cannot leave him and I don’t want to leave him. He is my husband. I have rights on him and he has rights on me. I have to go Thailand.” Rehana Parvin said out, “ So, it’s the main reason. That’s why today you invited me and Feroz. Don’t act like immature Hania. Where you will find him in Bangkok? Even your uncle don’t know about his address. Do you think he will give his address to Feroz? He is angry on us. Actually it’s my fault. I thought that my two grandchildren would be happy if they married. I wanted to make you Farhad's wife. You are a good and pious girl. Farhad also a good man. But I never thought that things would be turned out like that. Hania, we trust you. I know believe that you cannot betray with Farhad. But Farhad don't want to trust you. I think you should wait for few more days. Maybe soon he will come back in India.” Hania said out, “ When? When he will come back? It’s more than three years. He left me three years ago. Nani, cannot you understand me? Cannot you understand my feelings? I cannot sit here without doing anything.” Fatima said with hard tone, “ Stop, Hania. I cannot let you go alone. [Fatima looked at Feroz] Feroz bhai, you are my own brother. I think you don’t want to see me in pain. 2 years ago I told you that it would be better for Hania if Farhad come here and give her divorce. I cannot let her destroy her future. She deserves a good life. She deserves a good husband and good life partner. It’s painful for me to see her like that.” Hania instantly said out, “ Ammi! How could you say like that? I told you many times I don’t want to separate from him. He cannot give me divorce. You know very well I love him Ammi. He is my husband. Because of misunderstanding I cannot separate from him. Stop talking about divorce. Feroz uncle, cannot you just tell your sister that she wants a wrong thing? I cannot be happy without Farhad. Ammi, you should stop thinking about our divorce.” Fatima stood up from the couch. She said out with hard expression, “ Stop acting like a child. You are not a child anymore. You are a mature person. Try to think with your brain. Farhad doesn’t want you. He wants to divorce you. Before he left from India he wanted to divorce you. Because of Feroz bhai he couldn’t divorce you. He doesn’t love you anymore Hania. Stop thinking about him. You shouldn’t act like a foolish women. Are you a fool? He still doesn’t want to come in India because of you. Before he left from here he said that he will come in India if he can divorce you. He doesn’t love you Hania. Open your eyes, Hania. He will never trust you. I am your mother. I want your wellness. I want to see you happy. Farhad wanted to give you talaq. [Talaq means divorce. In Islam divorce means talaq.] He didn’t do that only because of Feroz bhai. Because Feroz bhai told him that if he do that then he would cut all the ties with Farhad, he wouldn’t accept him as his son. That’s why Farhad couldn’t give you Talaq. Everything happened in front of your eyes. How you could be so fool! I remained silent for many days. But now I cannot remain silent. You should leave him.” Tears started falling from Hania's eyes. She was looking at her mother with hurtful eyes. She stood up from the couch. She said out, “ Ammi! How could you say all those things? Okay, if I let him to give me Talaq then tell me who will going to marry me, Ammi? Do you think any pious and good man wants to marry me? Can I find a good man as my husband? Obviously not. Everyone knows that why Farhad left me. He left me because he thought that I cheated on him. I had affairs behind his back. I had a boyfriend behind his back. You know Ammi, it is so hurtful for me, it is so painful. I never had any kinds of relationship with any guy. I always keeps myself away from man. Because I know it’s improper thing. Allah knows me and my heart. I never thought about any man. Even still I am not thinking about any man except my husband. I am only thinking about Farhad. I love him Ammi. I started love him when I accepted him as my husband. After our nikah [Marriage means Nikah in Islam.] I started love him. I always want his happiness. I always want his wellness. He is my husband. I love him, I respect him. I know he couldn’t trust me in that situation. Still he cannot trust me. But I can make him realise that I wasn’t disloyal. I didn’t cheat on him. I had no boyfriend. How could I thought about other man when I am his wife?” Fatima said out, “ So, you are thinking that you cannot find a good man as your husband. Only Farhad is a good man in this world. Hania, I know very well you love him. But I cannot let you destroy your future. There is still a good man who wants to marry you. And you know him and his name.” Hania instantly said out, “ Ammi! You know very well I don’t want to marry him. I cannot accept him as my husband. Stop talking about him, please.” Fatima said, “ Stop talking like a stubborn child. I am your mother. I know very well what is good for you.” Feroz said with low tone, “ Fatima. I think you shouldn’t pressurize Hania. It's her life. She loves Farhad. We should give her a chance. Maybe she could win Farhad's love soon.” Fatima said out, “ Feroz bhai, please. Stop giving hope to her. You know very well Farhad will never accept her as his wife. It’s more than 3 years he left India. He still doesn’t want to come here. He doesn’t like to talk with you like before. Because you always like to tell him to come in India. Even he doesn’t want to give you his address. Because he thinks that maybe you will go there to meet with him and talk with him about Hania. He calls you once a week. He talks with you only for one minute. After asking your well beings he instantly cut the call. If you call at his number he doesn’t pick up your call. Why he is doing all this? Because he wants to give Talaq to Hania. I think you should convince Hania. You shouldn’t convince me. I am your sister Feroz bhai. Do you want to see me in pain? [Fatima looked at her mother Rehana Parvin.] Ammi, please, tell Hania to leave Farhad. It is good for her. I was so happy when you and Feroz bhai came to me to ask Hania's hand for Farhad. I thought that Farhad was the right guy for my daughter. But now everything changed. I cannot see my daughter like that. Farhad will never accept her as his wife.” Hania instantly said, “ Ammi, please stop. I am not going to leave Farhad. I love him. Soon he will accept me as his wife. He will respect me as his wife. I want to go to Bangkok only to find him. He have to accept me. He cannot leave me. I am his wife.” Fatima said with anger tone, “ Are you a fool, Hania? Stop you daydreaming. I will not let you go to Bangkok. I think I should call Osman. Now, only your Osman bhai can stop you. He already told you many times to move on with your life. He told you to leave Farhad. But you don’t want to leave him. Stop behaving like a fool, Hania.” Before Hania could say anything Rehana said out, “ Fatima, stop pressuring her. If she wants to go then let her go.” Fatima said with disbelief expression, “ Ammi! How could you say that? I cannot let her go. How she can go there alone? I should think about her safety first. Do you think she can find Farhad there?” Rehana said, “ I will go with her. We cannot let her go alone. But I can go with her. Her friends are in Bangkok. She wouldn’t be alone. Even if I want then Feroz can go there. Hania wouldn’t be alone. I wanted to marry them. That’s why you accepted my proposal. Feroz also wanted Hania as his son's wife. We never thought that things would be turned out like that. We should fix everything. It’s our responsibility to fix everything. We should help Hania. We should give her a chance. Let's see what happen. We don’t know about our future. Only Allah knows about everything. Allah is the best of planners. Maybe Hania could win Farhad's love and trust. Let her go. If she cannot win his love and trust then you can tell her to leave Farhad. And I will tell Farhad to give her Talaq.” Fatima remained silent.