Still Broken

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

*Ember* 

Sleeping last night was damn near impossible. After what I saw, what I heard. I couldn’t help but be fearful. My babies could be endangered. How am I supposed to explain to Blaze what's going on? I know he can feel this, I can’t hide overbearing emotions not when they consume every piece of me. He was already at my door last night telling me that he was gonna break the door down in the morning if I didn't come out and tell him what was going on. Haze was not far behind him I could tell they were sharing control but I know that if I don't leave this room soon then it will be Haze busting down the door to get to me. He has been trying to keep himself at bay for too long now and my fear is just too much to look past. 

I exhale loudly as I heave myself up and walk to the door. As I guessed he was standing outside the door. One blue eye, one gold letting me know they are merged. I can't help but to sigh and drop my head. They look at me barely in control.

“I know, I know. Can we at least make food while we talk?” I rub my stomach in hopes of calming the hungry twins and settle my own growling stomach.

His face seems to soften just a bit as he takes my hand and leads me to the kitchen. He doesn’t give me much of a choice but to hold his back. His grip is firm but not hurting me. I know it's because he needs the comfort. When we get to the kitchen he pulls out my chair. 

“Sit.”  He tells me trying not to lose full control. I sit but not without making a joke to lighten the mood. 

“I may be a wolf but you don't need to think I'm a dog.” That earned me nothing more than a scowl. 

“Tough crowd.” I say mainly to myself as he pulled out steak and eggs. It was my normal go to during my pregnancy. A long silence fills the air. Once I realize he isn't going to say anything while he cooks, I take a deep breath and start.

“I know I have been distant.” He huffs and rolls his eyes. 

“That is an understatement Ember.” Oh goddess he is back to using my name. This is not good.

“I know but if you will give me a minute, well more like an hour I may be able to explain. I know it is inexcusable but just hear me out please?” The begging i hear in my own voice is plain as day and I surprise myself. He just nods. “Ever since that night” There is no need for me to explain which night when I see they fear he has crossed over his face again. 

“Ever since then, I have known this wasn't over the other shoe was going to drop.” He brings me my food. Then sits beside me. Looking at me with something deep behind his eyes that I can't point. 

True to my word, little over an hour goes by before I am able to get out most of my feelings and how I am thinking all my fears and worries. I let my wall down, let him feel it, all I can tell it hit him like a freight train. By the end of that I am ugly crying . I haven't even touched my food, I am wrapped in my husband's arms on the floor and I still don't know why or how we got there. I am scared because the next part is the worst of it all.

“Last night, I saw something. A darkness outside my window. I watched it, It wasn't that of the new moon, but something more something evil and dangerous. Once I noticed it leave I heard a voice telling me it wouldn't be long now. The shoe has dropped cosanta and it is only a matter of time now. I am scared of losing you, I am scared for our twins. I am just scared.” 

He held me just a little tighter sitting there taking in every word, every emotion. It feels like an eternity. Before he speaks which only brings my more fear, and more tears. 

“I wish you would have let me share this burden with you. To comfort you about these fears before now.” He pulls back to look me in my eyes and wipe away the tears. “No one will ever take you from me again.” Then he kisses me like I am the water he has needed for a long time. Like the breath is finally returning to his lung. This man is everything to me. How could I have ever doubted him.

Blaze

I did the only thing I could do. I kissed her so hard to drive home to her that no one, no way, no how would remover from me again. Never. I took a vow to love and protect her that I will keep till my dying breath.

I cant believe everything she has been going through in her head. I had no idea it was this bad. Once she put the walls down I was flooded with everything she kept from me ever since the night we sent those demons to a whole new place. Ever since the night I had to bring her back from a place I never knew she could go. I know that changed her but I had no idea how bad. 

“We have got through so much, she has been through enough. WE MUST find and eliminate the threat now!” Hazes says to me. He is beyond mad, beyond pissed there is no word for his feelings right now but he is right we do need to find this person. 

“I intend to” I answer him back. then look down at my wife who is still a bundle of tears in my arms. I hate when she cries.

“We will find this person before they can do anything at all. Please promise me to not keep these things from me, promise me you will come back to our bed. I need you my love.” 

“I promise.” she says and I can only hope this time she will keep it.  I send up a quite prayer 

“Goddess please let her keep it. I cant keep losing her like this.”