Still Broken

Chapter 3

Chapter 3

*Blaze* 

Ember has been very distant lately, I can't help but feel it's more than just the fact the twins will be here any day now, more than being uncomfortable all time. Just something more. She has somehow blocked me out of a part of her mind. Even Willow me and Haze are in the dark. Which is driving him to a point he hasn't been to since the last time we were shut out. 

Even now as we are cuddling up her back against my chest and my arms wrapped around her stomach, I know something is racing through her mind. Though anyone looking on wouldn't know it she looks so calm just watching the movie, the moving of the babies tell me she mind isn't here. She is worried about something.

I wish she would tell me what it is. It's it the twin? Is it what's coming? Why is she acting like she did when I first found her. Sure she isn't exactly like she was but she is so distant. So withdrawn from everything around her. She is here and she isn't. 

"My Cosanta, please stop stressing. Everything is fine." She tells through the mind link while squeezing my hand but I know everything is not fine. That's like the one lie women say that every man knows is a lie. But still I try to change my emotions to ease her. I dont have the luxury of shutting out my mate the way she can me. I let out a deep breath and felt her sink further into me.

"I'm sorry for my love,just worried." I answer back. 

"The twins and I are doing great no reason to worry" 

It seems like nowadays I'm eternally grateful cuz she cannot read minds. But all the powers that she has and she holds ones that we are still learning about today and we didn't know existed before telekinesis it's not one of them. Thank the goddess for that.

Another 30 minutes into the movie I feel her shifting as if she is very uncomfortable. It doesn't matter how uncomfortable I might be by her new position, I stay still to allow her to get comfortable. After being unable to get in a comfortable position she looks at me and says.

"I'm going to lay in bed." With almost a pained expression on her face. I get up to join her before she motions with her hands for me to stay put.

"I'll be fine to finish the movie with our friends' ' she then looks and gestures to Mark and Angie laying on the opposite couch all I can do is hang my head in reluctant agreement. She then turns to leave no kiss or anything. I watch her waddle away. Missing the wife I married.

The movie finished 45 minutes later, and not a moment to soon. Before Mark and Angie were out the door I was running up the stairs two at a time. The laugh from behind me did not go unheard, but at this moment I didn't care. I rushed into the bedroom just to be with my wife only to find she wasn't in our bed. She locks herself in her old room once again. I can't help but feel personally attacked. She doesn't want to be around me. She is making that clear. I knock on the door. 

"My love, are you awake?" I ask knowing it in vain. I don't believe she would answer either way. 

I only hope that after the birth if our children she will be the woman I married and not the girl I found.

*Ember*

I heard Blaze. But I pretend to be asleep. What else am I supposed to do. I can't answer what he thinks about. He doesn't have to tell me what's on his mind. I already know its written in his face, the way he is always running his finger through his hair in frustration. Even if i couldnt feel what he feels it would take a fool not to know. I know he can tell I'm blocking him out. How can he not the twins make it impossible not to know. It's like they already know something is not right. Like now they are kicking as hard as they can. Guess that is there way of telling me how silly I'm being.

Once I hear that Blaze s walked away and the bedroom door shut I stand  and walk, well more like heave myself up and waddle, to the window rubbing my stomach in an effort to calm them. As I stair out the window I'm meat with darkness. Darkness that seems to think to just be the night of a new moon. Darkness that sends a shiver down my spine and makes me feel as though I am being watched. 

As if on cue the darkness fades away leaving but a whisper as it goes. 

"You will soon know the truth." 

Then it was gone. Leaving the proof the other shoe would drop, and very soon.