Still Broken

*Ember* It's been almost three months since our battle and things have been peaceful, but we don't get too comfortable.  I mean to be fair, I can't get comfortable if my life depended on it. I'm as huge as a house. My pregnancy will end any day now and I'm happy about it.  Blaze has been running around the last few days trying to finish all the preparations for the twins. I never told him what they look like. I want that to be a surprise.  "Blaze" I yell. I need his help. I hear banging and a loud thud. I know he just fell.  "I'm coming my love!! Is it time?" He comes running down the stairs almost falling. "Should I call the doctor? Oh s**t where did I put the bag???"  He is fumbling around looking for his phone. And the bag. I can't help but giggle at him. "Cosanta I just need help getting up. I want to walk around a bit." He looks at me and breathes a sigh of relief before walking over to me and then taking my out reached hand and pulling me to my feet.  I'm grateful for the change in position. He tries to put his arms around my waist to hug me, but again I'm huge. So he settles for resting them on my hips and kissing me. "You are a mess mister." I try to stand on my toes to give him a peck. He smiles at me. "Walk with me?"  "Always." With that we take our leave, going on our typical evening before dinner walk around the pack ground.   The sun is starting to set by the time we reach our water fall. Our spot.  I'm too big to try and swim to be under it, so instead we sit on the bank. Blaze offers me his hand as to help lower me to the ground. With much effort, I safely get seated and comfortable, putting my swollen feet into the cold water. It's hard to believe it's almost been a year now. Hard to believe it's been so little time, yet so much has happened.  I went from being abused and broken by my father, to learning so much of myself, and being loved for it. I lost a father, but gained a new family who truly cared. I am a fae princess, belonging to the fire kingdom and mated to the alpha of one of the strongest packs in the world. Werewolf and fae. I hold so much power. I ,with the help of my pack, allies of my pack and all of the fae kingdoms warriors, I have somehow managed stopped my father from not only claiming me back, but from keeping the God of the Underworld, Hades, from whatever plan my father told him I was capable of completing. I know that I will have to face that sooner or later.  I have learned where I came from and who my mother was. I have learned what love truly is. And yet, I still can't help but wonder if all this is a dream. That scared me beyond belief. I place my hand on my stomach carrying the two most precious things I will ever have, that will truly be mine. I can't stop myself from wondering if once they are older that Blaze will act the same as my father did. Its then his words ring in my ear.   "That's why I ripped her apart. To make sure the thing inside her was gone."  He then turns to me. "The same thing I'm going to do to you, you little whore...Better me then your mate when he finds out you've been w*****g around like your mother."      As a part fae, there was always a chance that I may find another mate. Most have at least two. I know that Blaze is my one true mate, the complete perfect match to me, the yin. Knowing that doesn't stop the worry, if it happens, do I deny the bond? Can fae reject it like wolves? Will Blaze and Haze be understanding or will they be like my father?  I still have so much to learn and so many questions that need to be answered     “They will love us forever. Even if that happens.” Willow tries so hard to be the voice of reason about the situation and calm the fear I dare not speak about to my mate, though it kills me to hide it.        “You really don't know that.” I think back on the other part of what father told us before we killed him.        "Because she truly was a w***e. Wolves mate for life. We don't have many, we have one. Yet the treacherous little b***h had to go back to you. Her true mate."        Wolves mate for life rings in my ear and in Willows, once that dawns on her she sinks back to the corner of my mind whimpering and hiding, not wanting to believe that Blaze or Haze could do such a thing, but knowing it is possible. All this has proven one thing without question and that is I am still  broken.