The Heart of The Pack

chapter 20

Amara Pov

After mason left last night I felt am unbearable pain in my heart and stomach I ended up passing out after he left. But today I woke up to flowers on my bedside and a note asking me out for a lunch picnic, maybe it’s not to late to change him. Although it feels a little unfair I have to change my mate for the better, in order to like him. Meeting him on the back porch, we walk together through the trees and we come to an open field with an already set up picnic. Sitting down I can’t help but breath in the air it feels like forever since I spent time outdoors, and I can’t help that my mind wonders to what Ashley and Alexander could be doing.

“I thought you might enjoy some time outside, maybe we can go for a run after?” mason asks sitting beside me. I go to answer but he cuts in “I also want to apologise for marking you, my wolf went crazy at the idea of you leaving and he acted on his own”

“Perhaps in that case you wont mind if we skip the run with your wolf.” He looked taken back a little by my response, but moved on to get food out of the basket.

‘I don’t think he has ever apologised to anyone before’ Arabella speaks up.

‘What makes you say that’

‘Because he didn’t actually apologise, he said he wanted to and then blamed his wolf. He never actually said I’m sorry’ Arabella laughs.

Mason and I eat in silence and it's more awkward than comfortable. Every few minutes he looks at me and I don’t know how to decipher his looks, So just keep eating finishing quickly. I lay back on the grass hoping to avoid his attention for a few minutes and just enjoy being outside for the first time in ages. Make some packs where the basket and then lays down next to me, he's on his elbow facing me. Looking at the sky feeling come closer any tries to kiss me, but turn my face away and he lands it on my cheek.

“ What don’t you wanna kiss me?”

“And what makes you think I want to?” i snap at him.

“Because we’re mates and I’m undeniably handsome.”

oh to be blessed with unwavering self confidence, I don’t think this date is going well so Far but I won’t tell him that. “I’m just not in the mood I’d rather just enjoy being out in nature at the moment.”

He helps and lays down next to me again this someone is back I can’t help but feel irritated at the move he was trying to make without asking me first. After some time if you’re tired, Getting back to the house Mason’s mother is preparing dinner. Sitting down we’ll wait together, it’s unusual that Mason mother will stab you but she does anyway. I still can’t help think of Ashley and Alexander, what are they doing, have they thought about me, do they miss me like I miss them?

After dinner Mason asks if I can watch a movie with him and surprisingly he’s arranged a TV in the lounge room. He picked some old fashioned war movie that I’m not really into and and I can’t help but feel, it's just as awkward here as we were when we were at the picnic. As soon as the movie is over, I said goodnight and rush off to my room. Heading into the bathroom, I strip in front of the mirror and I see their horrendous mark he’s left on me. Where is mates mark usually becomes some sort of tattoo a symbol of the two of them together, Masons mark looks like a bruising scar of a bite and hasn’t fully developed into an actual mate mark. Perhaps because it was done without my permission, it might not ever develop fully. Maybe that’s what the moon goddess meant, when she said that perhaps she could fix it and I hope she can. I can feel Mason trying, but he still seems like a jerk in wolf’s clothing and I can’t decipher if he’s really trying, or he’s pretending to keep me here. As long as I keep questioning that, I don’t think I’ll be able to take this bond seriously. I quickly shower and head to bed, still thinking of Ashley and Alexander.

A bond is mentally blocked, but still all I can think about is them. Masons meant to be my true mate, but I can’t get them out of my head. Perhaps that means my heart’s already chosen, because I feel the bond working with Mason but I still yearn for Alexander and Ashley.

Mason POV

I tried taking Amara on the picnic, but she wasn't open to me as a mate would be and she turned away when I tried to kiss her. I can’t help but feel frustrated that she’s not even trying, when obviously I am. How am I going to convince her to stay, when she won’t try and I notice her mark isn’t healing the way it should. Perhaps I should offer her to have her revenge on me and have her mark me as that revenge. But since I’m willing perhaps it’ll heal properly and we will form a real bond. One that she can’t walk away from, and those two mates she talked about I want to kill them. I even sat down to watch a movie with her, but that wasn't enough. I’m running out of things to try hence getting frustrating having to spend so much time with someone who I’m bonded to and won't let me have my way with them. I did feel bad last night though, when I went home for dinner and Amara didn't come down, I went to cheque on her. She was asleep, with a fever and groaning in pain holding her stomach. I realised that I did to her by sleeping with candy and I felt conflicted. On one hand I felt like a jerk for hurting my mate and on the other I couldn’t help it feel satisfied, that I was causing her pain after everything she’s caused me.

Breakfast is quiet again as usual and I don’t care. Reading paperwork as I eat, has become a routine that my father started an I followed. “Maybe you could give me a tour of the pack today” Amara speaks up and looks at me hopeful. I can’t help but be annoyed, with how she treated me yesterday and not responding to my kiss, why should I do anything for her?

“Today’s not a good day but maybe tomorrow, as long as nothing comes up between now and then. You know how it is packs are difficult and I’m really busy.” I say dismissing her comment and hoping she won’t bring it up again today.

“Then maybe I could go with your mom? it be nice to get out of the house again.”

“Mom can’t take you she's only allowed to come here and look after me and then goes back home to care for my father. That’s how it is here women don't wander around on their own, so you just have to wait for me to be ready.” Getting annoyed with her and get up and go to my office, calling candy along the way. Something about the way Amara speaks like she's so entitled just annoys me and makes me want to punish her again. Sitting on the sofa in my office, candy comes in remove her underwear from under her dress. I’m doing my zipper my hard on springs free and I turn candy around so I don’t have to look at her face and bring her down to my lap. Two things bring me to my climax, 1 picturing that red hair and number 2, knowing I’m punishing Amara. She can’t refuse my advances for much longer, I won’t allow it. When will she see that she’s mine, to do with as I please.