Adam's POV
It was a tiring day. When I got home, I immediately went to my room and let my body rest in my soft bed. Blank ceiling appeared in my eyes.
"I reject you as my Luna."
I heard again those words I said to that pathetic human. Maybe from what I said, she would understand that I didn't like her. Even if she tried everything, I would never let a weak human be my Luna.
Lara was weak. She didn't even surpassed my expectations in girls. I didn't know why my parents wanted her to be my Luna. I did everything to be as powerful as my father, and then the one that was supposed be my Luna was a far cry from my mother's strength? That was unfair on my part. There were some other girls who had the power that would make all men turn. But how the hell, among those girls, did my parents choose that pathetic weak human? From the very start, she shouldn't be in our pack. She was not that important, not even beautiful to be recognized. I hated it when my mind kept reminding me of her.
One knock on my door brought me back to life. I felt down. I knew it was my weak pathetic Luna again. I didn't want to see her, but I needed to open the door for her. I got up and walked to my door. When I opened it, the cold wind blew in my face. I was surprised to see someone else.
"Adam, was Lara here?" It was Lara's mother.
I opened the door widely to show her that Lara was not here.
"She didn't even come here."
"She told me before that she would be here. She said she wanted to talk to you about the wedding plan."
"I didn't see her before. She was not here," I lied. I had been with her just now and rejected her.
When I said those words, she cried out loud, and before she fell, Henry carried her mother. I arranged myself just to give them sympathy for the things that I didn't have any idea about.
"What happened?" I asked calmly.
I had been with the human and told her I didn't want her to be my Luna. I had rejected her and looked down on the things she was capable of. I told her I wanted her gone. But now, I didn't know why I felt this. There was something in me that wanted to know what happened to her.
"We didn't know where Lara was. She disappeared."
I fell silent when I heard those words. I remembered what I had said earlier. Did Lara do that?
"Anywhere she could go? What about her friend's house?"
"She didn't go to anyone. She always wanted to be with you. Besides, she only had one friend, and Alice was not here," Henry said. Before I could give my words, he carried his mother who never stopped crying for what happened to her child.
I felt guilty. I didn't know why. I wanted her gone, but now... I didn't know.
I went outside and talked to Henry.
I just let Henry tell me everything he knew.
"I was not sure about this, but what if Lara jumped off the cliff?"
"What? No, she would never do such a thing."
"Did you tell her something that would trigger her?"
"No..., of course not."
I had. I had told her everything. But I knew she would never do such things. But what if she did?
I remembered all the hurtful words I had said to her earlier.
I said to her face that I wanted her to die.
Was this all my fault? Did she feel hurt of what I said to her? I rejected her as my Luna. But I only said what I felt.
"I would take the responsibility to search for her."
"Please, Adam."
Henry told me more about her sister's disappearance. He told me, someone saw Lara cry and go somewhere. When the moon came, they looked for her, and my place was the last place they searched for her.
Lara knew she was a weak human, so why should she feel hurt? It was her identity. And now, it made me feel guilty for what I had said. I hated her, but now, I hated myself even more.
"Please... Please, bring my sister back. My mom would be sad if Lara never came back." Henry suddenly cried over his younger sister. Lara was not his real sister, but he loved her that much.
"I would find her soon. I hope I would," I said it in a low voice.
After that conversation, I went back to my house. I wanted to have a good night and sleep peacefully, but how could I, if I was worried about that weak human?
I rejected her and wished her to be gone. But now… I felt guilty for what I did.
"Maybe she jumped off the cliff."
I heard again what Henry said to me. Did Lara jump? But what the hell did she think to do that? I needed to find her. I couldn't have a peaceful night, when this guilty feeling haunted me every time I thought about that weak girl.
"That weak human!"
I didn't control myself. I changed my form and went somewhere that Henry told me. The wind blew slowly, while the moon brightened even more. My silver fur showed its power.
There was nothing on my mind right now except for the urge I needed to find the Luna I rejected.