The scope of love

Chapter 9

It's finally Friday. I have been counting the minutes and the seconds until this moment. The school day had seemed to drag on and on. Now I'm back in my room I'm getting ready for our date or for us getting caught. I got dressed in a pink summer dress. It is knee length with a side slid and a tight bodice with puffy sleeves. I left my hair loose, but tied a little but of it in a ponytail at the back to keep the hair out of my face. I didn't put a lot of make up on, but focused on highlighting. I wanted to make sure it looked like the sun shine from in me. I just feel so happy today. I want that happiness to be visible and to me sunshine is one of the happiest things. I put on some sandals and did a last look over. Then I left my room to the front door where registered couples leave to go on dates in public. I walked towards that area with my heart going frantic. This is the moment I've been waiting for and fearing. Everytime someone passed me in the hall fear racked my body as I feared that they were coming to expose me. Not one of them looked at me for more than a second. It gave me more confidence. I walked with more determination. Until I got to the door. At the door stood a teacher at a podium with a laptop. My heart went haywire. I thought about backing up and standing around the corner and waiting until I spot Declan. I turned to leave only to be stopped by a voice.

"Can I help you?" I froze in my action and looked at the teacher.

"My partner registered us this week. I was hoping he was here already. He still has my ID." I told her. I spoke slowly in order to not stutter.

"Name?" She asked turning to the laptop with her brows raised at me expectantly.

"Ellie Smart." I saw her type in the name. With each key she pressed my heart thumped harder. What if he didn't do it? I should have waited for him. How could I be so stupid! Now I just have to stand here and wait in anticipation for her.

"Right you are registered, but I am going to need your ID as proof." I nod my head, trying not to let out the big breath of relief. I stood to the side and waited for Declan. I waited quite a bit of time. We never discussed how late we would meet. We can't even do something as simple as discuss time, but I want to bring down a program that has its clutches deep into everything. Declan came around the corner and my heart sped up for a completely different reason. He looked so handsome. His long hair in a bun. He had shaven his bottom layer of hair. He is wearing black jeans with a t-shirt a hoody and a blazer over it. He looks so confident striding towards me. It's like the world only has the two of us. Then he smiled at me with cockiness. He handed the teacher our ID's she checked it before handing it back. He took my hand and led me out. I couldn't believe we did it. We made it out of the school without being caught. We walked in silence until we were off school property.

"It worked!" I screamed as I jumped in his arms.

"Now we can talk about everything without having to worry about who will hear us." I said being so excited that we can start making plans and come up with ideas.

"How about tonight we just have an actual date?" Right we can never just be a real couple at school. Of course on our first day out we should make it about us and not the program.

"I'm sorry. I should have thought of that. I should put the program to the back of my mind. Tonight you are all that I want to think about." I grabbed his shirt pulling him to me slamming my lips against his.

"I've missed you so much. This has been the longest 10 days ever." I kissed him again. I won't ever get enough of his lips.

"And I love your hair." I kissed him one more time. I pulled away placing my hand in his.

"So what is the plan?" I asked him.

"I don't really know I haven't actually been out here with anyone. I think we should just walk around and sees wat pops at us. It was a fun idea. We kept on holding hands and started walking. A lot of places are near the school. They know registered couples go out on weekends. Being close by means they get first choice since they are close and students don't want to waist money on taking a taxi to places that are further away. On the other hand when we come out to make plans we might want to go where students don't hang out. The first place I saw was a karaoke place. Which was perfect for us. We need something light. We've been worrying so much these last couple of weeks. Doing something so silly will help us relax. Declan started complaining the moment I pulled him towards the place. This place was one of those that had different rooms of karaoke so that people didn’t have to share and that they can make more money by booking the rooms out. It also helped for those that were shy. We got a room, Declan went to sit down while I rushed to the machine and started to go through the list of songs. I saw one of my favorites. It was one about control which is perfect for me. I started up the machine and was singing my heart out. I don’t have a great singing voice not at all, but I didn’t care in the least. I was going to enjoy myself. I even convinced Declan to sing a song and then we did a couple together after he had gotten more into it. After about an hour of singing loudly and off key we left the place. Since it’s Friday we don’t have to be back so early our curfew is 10 pm. We were walking as we came out of the karaoke place.

“Brooke?” I looked up to see a girl from my grouping I didn’t really know her. She is more friends with Madison than me.

”Hi.” I don’t know her name, no matter how hard I try I can’t recall it.

“I didn’t know that you found your match! I don’t recognize him from our grouping.” I didn’t have to think hard, I just went with the lie that I’ve already told Finely.

“He is from a different school, I’ve been going to other schools to try and find someone and I did. This is our first outing. He will coming over on weekend so that we can spend time together.” I explained to her, she can even spread the new and maybe t reaches Finely so that he knows that I wasn’t lying.

“That’s so great I didn’t think you would meet anyone. You were so closed off to the idea of love and after you and Finley broke up I thought for sure you would be forced to book an speed dating slot for after Highschool.” Right now I know why I didn’t remember her name, she irritates me and I block out a lot of her conversation that she has with Madison.

“We need to go. We have so little time together no point in wasting it on you.” Declan said taking my hand and leading me away, I was grateful to him and I think he actually put a stain on that ego of hers. We went to a restaurant next. I was starving so it fitted me. We sat down and I was fast to order.

“So Finley?” Right I never told him about Finley. He knows that I did try and follow the programs rules, but I didn’t tell him anything beyond that.

“We were together for a while, but he is the worst part of a Taurus. He was very possessive and jealous. He also treated me like I was his property. He doesn’t take no for an answer. So every now and again I have to tell him off. He bothered me in the week so I told him about you to get rid of him. I told him the same thing I just told her. He is honestly just a bug on my windshield. I would love to squish him with my whippers. I threatened him and said that maybe someday you’d pop up and kick his ass. He was grabbing my leg and I didn’t like it.” I explained the situation to Declan. He has never really seemed all that jealous or possessive. I didn’t really think that he would have a problem with Finley.

“I could come in the week and put him in his place. No one bothers you like that!” I loved the little spark of anger in him. He wasn’t being all jealous caveman like, no he was jealous because Finely had bothered me and insulted me by not taking no for an answer.

“No it’s not necessary. If you get in a fight at school they will launch an investigation and then they will see that you aren’t a Taurus. We don’t need to attract such attention to us. Anyway I can handle him. I have been doing it for a long time.

“What If I promise not to fight him. If he sees me he will probably just give up.”

”I don’t think he is the giving up type and I love that you want to defend me, but don’t worry about it. I’d rather have weekends with you than letting him ruin it all for us.” We held hands on the table and had some Idle conversation while we waited for our food. When we were done eating we decided it was time to go back to the school. We still had Saturday too. Saturday is a full day we can spend together instead of just a couple of hours. Then on Sunday I can spend time with Madison. I wouldn't want her to feel like i'm spending all my time with Declan. Weekend use to be our thing. We would relax together, put on some facemask, eat unhealthy snacks and binge watch our favorite movies or series. It's our time to unwind from a long school week and get that extra bit of tlc we need. We'll just have to make Kist self care Sundays from now on.

Book Entry:

If I knew that day what I know now I wouldn’t have gone home early I would have valued every single moment with him because we never know how long we have left. We knew that every day of our relationship would be a battle and we knew that staying together was the hardest choice of our life. What we were doing wasn’t some small thing. We were breaking the rules of society and we had to know that society would be fighting back. We thought our only opponent was the program and soon we learned that it wasn’t the only thing that would stand in our way. People had grown accustomed to what we wanted to destroy. Sometimes people need not only think outside the box, but look at the horizon that lays before them. In such a short time he had become my world and I was to blind to predict the earthquake that wou;d be shaking that world of mine apart.