That jerk is my husband

Chapter 8

*** Ryan’s POV ***

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    It’s been almost 2 weeks since she left and we heard nothing from her since then. She just left me here alone without waiting for me to come home and let me explain what happened that day. She even took the Camaro from the school and I needed to catch a bus to come back home in wet clothes. It was almost 7 pm when I arrived. How can she do this to me without listening to my explanation? Why doesn’t she trust me? I know it was an ambiguous situation but at least she could have listen to me or come back after a few days as she wrote it on that f**king paper what I read already thousand times since she left. I had no idea that our one and half year anniversary was on that day and she wanted to surprise me. Who count that anyway? 

    I didn’t go to school since she left because I couldn’t concentrate on anything else. I didn’t even shaved or eat properly. I am driving around most of the time hoping to see her somewhere. The police didn’t help either. They said since she wrote a letter and left herself so she isn’t kidnapped or missing, we just need to wait till she comes back, but I can’t just sit around and wait for her. What does she think, she can do this to me? This is some kind of sick punishment of hers?

    I don’t understand this whole situation, at least she could have called Cloe who is worried sick as well, to let her know that she is okay, but nothing. First I was really angry at her when I found that piece of paper, but now I am just worried. What if something happened to her and nobody is there to help her? She is pregnant for Christ sake.

    I am heading towards my uncle’s house to see if they heard anything about Mia since yesterday. I know they would call me right away if they do, but I can’t just sit at home and wait for her till she comes home. I would go crazy from the waiting and the idleness. We made some posters with Mia’s photo on it and put it on every wall and shop’s window where we pass by. The twins and my cousins help me after school, but I am out all day and looking for her, sometimes even at night because I can’t sleep without her by my side. I used to just lay in our bed and inhale her amazing scent from the bedsheets. I didn’t change it since she left because I was worried I couldn’t smell her scent on it anymore, like she was never there, like she was just my imagination all this time. Usually I black out after three days from the tiredness and every time I do, I sleep for a half day and dream about my sweet and adorable wife. I miss her terribly, I can’t live without her. I think about her day and night. I guess it’s true when they say that you don’t know how important someone is to you until you lose her. I always knew that she is important to me, but now I realised that she is my oxygen, the meaning of my life and she is my other half. I just wish she is okay where she is and she will come back to me soon.

    I pulled up in the front of their house and headed inside. I rang the bell and Cloe opened it with red and puffy eyes. She is a bit angry at me because as she said Mia left because of me. She is right from one part, but I didn’t cheat on her, I could never do that to Mia and I don´t even want. She is everything what I need.

“Hi Cloe. Any news?” I asked her already 20 times in this 2 weeks, but her answer is every time the same, sadly.

“Nothing.” She said and let me in. “I need to go back to work in two days, I don’t know how I will concentrate on anything until she comes home.” She said with a broken voice.

“Hi Ryan.” My uncle, James said when he walked into the living room where we were sitting. “She is okay, sweetheart, she will come home eventually, don’t stress yourself too much.” James said to Cloe lovingly and kissed her forehead. They are lucky because they are here for each other. 

“What would you do if Kelly or Dyna was missing?” Cloe asked him.

“I would do the same, honey. Don’t think I am not worried about Mia. She is my daughter too. I just have this feeling that everything will be okay.” James is an optimistic person and I envy him for that, I hope he is right and Mia will come home soon.

“I will go to the neighbour cities to roam around the streets. Maybe I will see her, I will take some posters with me as well.” I said to them and they nodded at me. I won’t give up till I find her and hold her in my arms again.

“Wait I will pack some food for you.” Cloe said and I nodded since I didn’t eat all day.

“Thank you.” I said and left their house. I sat into my car and headed towards Long Beach since she likes the ocean so I will start there and I will head towards west. 

    I was driving for an hour when I decided to stop to hang up some posters and maybe eat something because my stomach hurts already. I can’t let anything to distract me from finding her.

    I pulled over on a busy street and get out of the car. I walked around and left some posters here and there, then I went to an other busy shopping street and did the same. I continued like this till it was dark already and I marked the cities where I was today on my map. Then I drove home to try to get some sleep and I will start it again in the morning. 

    I headed upstairs when I arrived home and checked all the rooms first, like I do every day when I come home, hoping to see Mia in one of them but she didn’t come home. ‘Where are you angel? Why don’t you come back to me?’ My tears are rolling down on my cheeks, I cried every day since she left what is a big thing by someone who never cries, but only Mia can make me, her absence. I love her so much and I miss her like crazy, this house is so empty without her. I hope wherever she is, she is okay and our baby too.

I went into our room and lay down onto the bed to smell her scent on her pillow but it’s gone. I walked into the closet and take one of her t-shirts from the shelf and luckily it’s still smells like her. I put it on her pillow and lay down while I hugged it tightly to my chest. I won’t be able to sleep, I know, but at least I feel at peace a little bit. 

    After a few hours of trying I gave up to fall asleep and I decided to get up and look for her further. It’s 5 am already and I won’t fall asleep anyway so let’s go to find my wife. 

    I walked into the kitchen, I didn’t even bother to take a shower since I have no one to be clean for or look good for so it would be just wasted time what I prefer to spend to look for my angel. I drank a cup of coffee and headed towards my car to start my day where I finished it yesterday, Manhattan Beach. Every day is the same since she left and I start to go crazy already with the hopeless searching. I hope she is still in this state, otherwise all this searching is useless, but at least it’s keeping me on sane and out of depression.

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*** Third person’s POV ***

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“Why the hell is taking you so long to find a f**king telefoonnummer, it’s already two weeks.” Joe shouted angrily at Billy who just looked towards the floor of Joe’s living room.

“I know, but my friend- who is good in this stuff- was on vacation with his family and he said he wasn’t working from there, but he will be back today so we are going to get the number finally.” He said and Joe calmed down a bit.

“I hope that she is still in the hospital for your own good and she is still alive so come on, let’s go.” Joe murmured and stood up from the couch. “Now I am actually glad that you called the ambulance that day.” Joe continue with an evil laughter. 

“Yeah, me too, if this works out, we should do this again.” Billy said excitedly and followed after Joe like a puppy, he was proud of himself that he had this idea on his own and he is hoping to win a lot of money out of it to make Joe happy and to feel useful for once.

“Yes, maybe we will. It will depend on the situation.” Joe said and they went to the closest bus station to go to the hospital.

“We need to be careful in case she saw our faces, because she will recognise us if she will be awake.” Joe whispered when they walked into the hospital.

“How we will find her? Maybe they don’t know who she is. We can’t just ask about her with her name.” Billy said and Joe nodded in approval.

“You are right... what is strange..” Joe said with a frown. “Come on, I have an idea.” He said and they walked towards the reception.