"I wish I could give you my pain just for a second so you can understand how much you hurt me."
Blaire's pov
"I am not patient when it comes to rogues, talk!" I scream shaking from anger.
I am in my pack's dungeons with Albert, Alex and Dean. We are trying to interrogate the five rogues we managed to take alive and I am running out of patience.
It is only some minutes after I came back to the pack with Albert and I am not in the greatest condition. I am still a mess after our 'talk' with Ian and my frustration has reached its top.
He is lucky I didn't kill him, I still feel hurt, I can't stay close to him for too long. This is the most tiring day of my life mentally, not even the first day I met him I felt like this...
I walk up and down the dungeon like crazy, if they don't talk in the next five seconds I am killing them, I can't control my anger. Albert is trying to calm me down but he knows nothing can change my mood right now.
"I won't tell you a shit." One newborn vampire in the middle of the rogues groans.
I walk to him with quick steps and grab him from the neck hitting his head on the wall behind him.
"Are you sure? I can gladly burn you alive if you want." I roar outraged.
He seems afraid when I mention I can burn him alive and stiffens a bit lowering his gaze. I tighten my hold around his neck and hit his head on the wall again.
"Fine! I will tell you." He screams and I punch him with my already healed hand one more time.
"Tell me!" I roar without letting his neck.
"Someone was trying to make an army of newborn vampires."
"Who?" I shout.
"He is a werewolf but he has some vampires next to him, they are all afraid of him and they obey him blindly."
"I asked who!" I scream ready to strangle him.
"I don't know his name."
"Why did he do this?"
"He wants power. He wanted to attack you first because you are the younger white wolf." he says and coughs.
I punch him one more time and he screams in pain.
"What else? Where is he?"
"I don't know! We were all turned in an old abandoned factory and the werewolves didn't have their memory. We knew nothing, the vampires that had turned us as our masters ordered us to attack you and so we did."
I let go of him and punch my fist on the wall screaming. I want to kill someone for the first time in my life!
What is happening to me?
"What else do you know about him? You said he was trying to make an army of newborns, is he still trying?" I ask shortly.
"As I understood our masters have some problems with him... He is holding them under control with difficulty. They are afraid of him for some reason but they want to take the power from his hands."
"Why?"
"I don't know, I say the truth." He screams desperate.
I turn and look Albert that seems to think about what the newborn just said. Alex and Dean are confused.
"I want Cai here now." I order.
"Why?" Alex asks me confused.
"He has a great abilities, he may be able to understand the reason behind all of these. Albert and Dean, you stay here with him and continue. Alex you are coming with me, we have some things to do." I say and get out of the dungeon quickly.
As I get out of the dungeons' area Cai is coming to me worried.
They mind linked him immediately I guess...
"Is everything alright Blaire? You look frustrated. Why don't you go and have some rest? We will deal with everything." He says softly.
"I am angry that's all. I want you to go and try to think anything useful from their words. I have to talk with our King."
"Of course Alpha. If you need anything just ask me, okay baby?"
I tap his back and smile grateful. He is a great man, I am glad I have him by my side. He may be the serious one, the logical but he has a great heart.
"Thank you Cai. If you find out anything or need something tell me, I will be in my office."
He bows and leaves quickly as I head to my office with Alex next to me. I am still shaking and he notices it, he looks at me worried and sighs. I give him a forced smile and get in my office in hurry. I walk behind my office and sit in my chair, he sits right opposite of me and waits patiently in silence about any move or word from me. I close my eyes and rest by head back to the chair.
"You are frustrated about Ian?" he whispers.
I open my eyes and stare at him with a blank look, he knows me well enough. I lean forward and place my hands on my office tapping my fingers on it nervously. I sigh ready to cry and bend my head.
"Blaire you can talk to me, I am here for you."
"I know Alex. It's just that it hurts like hell... What else does he want from me? Isn't it enough? He almost killed me, why can't he soften and leave me alone?" I say lifting my head up and staring at him with some tears ready to fall from my eyes.
"Oh, Blaire... I am sorry. Can I talk to you clearly?" he asks in sympathy.
I nod and wipe the tears from my eyes.
"The only possibility for Ian to change his mind is only if his father wakes up or Zachary dies and we find obvious proofs he is the one behind the attack... And... If you leave Stefan..."
"What are you telling me Alex? I don't want to be with Ian, I just want him to leave me, my family and pack alone." I yell annoyed.
"I know Blaire, you didn't understand... Ian is too selfish to let you be with Stefan even if he hates you. You may not be together but he will never accept anyone else next to you."
"He hates me Alex, no..." I whisper trying not to believe him because if it's true then...
"I know him Blaire, he may hate you as you say but... He has lots of anger inside him, he is in pain, I know it! He can't control his mind... His hatred for you is turning into passion and I am afraid that it will soon turn into psychosis. You can't trust him, he can't control himself. If he knew about Eleanor then he would have killed Stefan and he would have taken you and El somewhere away from everyone forever." He says, gets up and walks to me.
I am already crying, from fear, desperation, pain...
It doesn't matter for what reason, what matters is that I am realizing that Ian will always try to get in my life in every possible way. I am too lucky he knows nothing about El and I can still keep her existence as a secret. I can't kill him but I can't let him get close to me and everyone else, I can't bear it.
"Your bond will always be inside your heart even if you and Stefan mark and mate with each other and Ian does the same with someone else! You can't change the bond with you first mate, you can't erase it completely. I know he is causing you pain and I am sorry but you had to know, you have to be more careful with him." He says softly, knees next to me and takes my hands in his.
"I am here for you, El, the family, the pack, Stefan, everyone. He is my brother but he is wrong. He is strong Blaire, he is capable of anything, he can kill all of them to get you and El if he finds out that you have a daughter together."
"He can't kill him, no! He can't kill you Alex. I won't let him!" I scream.
"Ian is strong, you don't know him like I do, he can kill Stefan if he wants. If he is focused Stefan has no hope in front of him, he is younger and stronger. I have seen both of them fighting."
"No!" I scream shaking and gasping for air.
My whole world is crashing down, I am afraid about everyone but now with Stefan...
I can't lose him, I love him, he is my whole world now. I won't live in a world without him. I need him, he is my life with Eleanor, the family I want.
I start sobbing, screaming, yelling and I fall from my chair in Alex's arms. He taps my back worried and I continue crying like a little child.
I can't bear it, he will always be my worst nightmare if Alex is right, he will be my disaster.
"Blaire give me control, I can calm you down, I will free you from the pain." Beth whispers with wary.
I just close my eyes and destroy the barrier that is holding her to the back side of my mind.
I feel the difference, she walks and stands in front of me smiling with confidence. I take one step back and lower my gaze.
"I am here, I will never let him harm anyone. If I have to kill him and Terror in order to stop him I will. Stefan is going to be alright." She assures me smiling and I nod calmer than before.
I open my eyes and look at Alex, he realizes that Beth has full control as my eyes are black now and not light green. He smiles with sympathy and taps my back gently. He wipes the tears from my eyes and cheeks and Beth caresses his shoulder.
"Thank you for being so loyal to us Beta." she growls and he bows dlightly.
I close my eyes again and she releases me from my barriers, I walk pass by her and she moves back giving me a nod in approval. I open my eyes again and smile relieved.
"What would you advice me to do?" I ask Alex calmly.
"Once we are over with all of these things and trainings leave to Canada and stay there Blaire. You will come here secretly when it is necessary, you will stay away from him." He explains and I nod.
He knows him better, he may be right, I have to follow his advice.
We stay like this for some more time and I already feel better, I am glad I have all these people around me.
He leaves after some time and I stay alone. I have to talk with Victor and tell about the rogues and ask him to come and take them or else I won't be able to hold myself back and I will kill them.
After some time of talking with him on the phone and informing him about the attacks and the whole situation with the rogues he agrees to come and take them tomorrow morning and I feel a bit better.
I talk with my parents and Kyle for a while after this and explain them about the battle.
Cai tells me he needs some more time with the rogues so I leave him handle it.
I go to my room as it is night, take a bath, get ready and fall on my bed exhausted. I have no mood to eat, I just took a cold bottle of water and left it on my bedside table.
My grandma, aunt and Kara come to see me for a while and get sure I am fine. They leave after some time and I stay alone.
I take my phone and call Stefan. I miss him, I need to hear his voice. I hear his voice telling that he is busy and he will call me later. I can leave him a voicemail but I don't want to.
I end the call and text him: 'I miss you very much, I need you, I love you.'
I send the text and then close my eyes. I think about how my life would be without him and... I feel my heart breaking, I love him so much, I can't live without him anymore. I want to be his, I can't wait any longer, I have to live.
I take my phone in my hands again and text him one more time: 'I I want to be yours, I want to live my life with you, I want you...'
I leave the phone on the bedside table next to me and close my eyes smiling. Beth purrs happy about my decision to tell Stefan what I feel and she whispers that she is proud and that we will be happy.
Soon the sleep consumes me and I feel a weird unknown to me peace...
~Canada, Stefan's pack~
Stefan's pov
I am finally back home after a day full of meetings and works that should have been done.
I talked with Blaire only for once and I am worried. After I learned about the attacks that she, Dillon, Isaak and even Ian had to face I can't relax.
I need to be with her, I can't feel she is alone. She may be with her pack, Albert and her uncle but I want to be next to her, I want to take care of her. I love her more than anything else.
She came in my life and gave me a reason to live and be happy again. She and Eleanor are my strength. If I lose them I will die, I can't live the same thing twice.
After Mina, my mate and our daughter died I can't stop worrying now that I found them. I love them so much and Blaire is so... Special.
An angel.
I am afraid about what Ian can do to her, he is insane and she is too kind. We can't just kill him, I have thought that I could when he almost killed her that night at New York but we have El and I don't want to hurt her in the future. One day she will have to know the truth and I want her to be happy even if she is never going to meet Ian. I just need him away from Blaire and Eleanor, away from her family and pack.
I want everyone safe and sound, Blaire and El happy.
I get in my room and take a bath quickly. I get out and take my phone, I need to talk to Blaire and see if she is alright. I unlock it and I have a notification of two messages.
I open them immediately and I blink my eyes surprised, Blaire?
She never texts me, she just calls me back after some time or leaves me a short voicemail. I open them worried and my heart stops beating once I read them.
"Go to her! I want Blaire and Beth now! Don't make them wait!" Boman, my wolf howls excited.
"She wants us..." I exclaim smiling.
"They both do! Move Stefan, now!" he yells shaking his tail impatiently.
He is right, I want so much to see her, I can't wait.
I get dressed and call some of my friends, I want a flight right now. Once they assure me that they can help me I go to George and Fern, they have to stay and take care of everything with Wei until I come back and I want to know if they accept.
I reach outside their room and knock the door nervous. Blaire is their daughter even if they are my friends and it is awkward even if they like me and her together.
George opens the door after a while worried.
"Is everything alright Stefan? Is there any problem?" she asks and Fern appears next to him panicked.
"No, everything is fine. I just... I need to ask you... I want to go and see Blaire and I was wondering..." I pause blushing.
"Is Blaire okay?" Fern asks me ready to start screaming in agony.
"Yes, she is perfectly fine. I just want to see her, I miss her and she told me she misses me too..." I say trembling and rub my neck nervously.
George raises his eyebrows surprised and Fern tries not to giggle.
My legs are shaking, it's like I am asking for their permission to go and sleep with her, s**t!
Some seconds pass and it is the most torturing of my life. I am ready to ask sorry and leave when George stops me.
"Go, we will take care of everything and everyone until you come back."
"Really?" I ask him with a silly smile on my face.
"Of course. She needs you and you need her. She will be very happy." Fern says smiling softly.
"Thank you! You are saving me." I tell them excited and run downstairs leaving them speechless.
"I am coming Blaire!"
~next morning, Blaire's pack house~
I am laying next to her on her bed staring at her while she is sleeping.
I didn't want to wake her up, she was sleeping so deeply and peacefully I couldn't interrupt her.
When I reached here some hours ago Dean and Alex thought that something bad had happened but I assured them that everything was fine and I just came to see Blaire. They seemed relieved but Alex was a bit worried.
I took him to talk in private before I come to Blaire and he told me that she wasn't very good last day. I wanted to know the reason but he told me that she was very tired and frustrated with the whole situation.
I also saw Blaire's uncle and grandma who were a bit nervous as my arrival was very sudden and I caught them out off guard.
When I was done explaining them why I came so suddenly I left them in the living room and came straight up to Blaire's room.
I got in the room carefully and locked the door in silence and when I turned I smiled happier than ever.
She was sleeping like an angel.
I covered her with a blanket as she hadn't covered herself and laid next to her. I couldn't sleep, I was just staring at her with tears falling from my eyes.
It is late in the morning now and she is still sleeping. She is the most beautiful woman on earth, so pure, so sweet, so special.
I raise my hand and caress her hair as gently as I can. She moves a bit closer to me. I smile, turn to her and wrap my hand around her body, she purrs and buries her face on my chest. I take her scent and Boman murmurs something sweet. I caress her back and kiss the top of her head.
"Stefan..." she whispers sighing and I pull a bit back.
I think she is waking up but it comes as a surprise that she is still sleeping. I feel tears making their appearance from happiness, she is dreaming about me, she is saying my name in her sleep, she feels my touch, my presence.
I just want the time to stop and live like this forever with Blaire in my arms.
She moves a bit in my arms and takes a deep breath smiling. I want to kiss her on the lips but I don't want to wake her up, I kiss her cheek and the next moment I feel her hand around my waist.
I feel more aroused than ever in no time, it hurts, I want so much to make her mine but I promised I would wait. I want her to be ready and sure about her, me, us. I love this young woman so much that I don't care if I have to wait an eternity to make her mine, I just want her happy.
I kiss her forehead while caressing her back without stopping, she moans and moves again but this time she moves her whole body on mine and her stomach his pressing my manhood. I bite my lips not to groan and try to pull a bit back but then she just opens her eyes and stares at me surprised...
Perfect...
Blaire's pov
I feel so warm and safe, I smile on my sleep dreaming about Stefan and I back at the night of my birthday.
I feel happy, I feel loved, I feel...
Him.
I move a bit and feel someone wrapping his hand around me, I move and bury my face in the pillows, I must be dreaming, I am alone.
Stefan's scent is everywhere and makes my whole body shudder. I feel a soft caress on my back and two hot lips on my forehead.
"I wish you were here Stefan." I say to myself and call his name one time.
I take one more deep breath, his scent is everywhere and I smile happy. I still feel someone caressing my back and again two warm and soft lips on my cheek.
I like this dream but I think I need this to stop, he is not here and I will feel heartbroken when I wake up. I move again, my whole body is hot and I feel warmth around me.
"Blaire... wake up..." Beth whispers.
"What is it? I like this dream even if it is weird..." I reply disappointed.
"I am not going to continue this conversation, just open your eyes." She groans.
Idiot wolf she can be some times...
I open my eyes slowly and gasp!
"Stefan?" I whisper breathless.
He smiles brightly and crashes his lips on mine before I can say anything else.
I open my mouth and allow him to kiss me hungrily. It may be sudden but it feels so good and I am not shocked at all that he is here with me. In fact I am grateful he is here, I need him, I want him. He pushes me on the bed with my back and I pull him on top of me. He pulls away a blanket that is covering me and lands on top of me.
I wrap my one hand around his back and bury the other in his soft hair. I moan in his mouth when I feel his hand caressing my waist and hips and he groans and presses his body on mine. I try to move under him but he doesn't let me, I feel him hard above me and I begin shaking aroused. I try to break the kiss and he pulls a bit back staring at me in the eyes.
His eyes are black, full of lust and passion.
"You came..." I whisper breathless.
"Your wish is my command." He says in a husky tone and groans moving his waist impatiently above me.
I stiffen, stay and observe him for some seconds.
His face is red, his eyes black, his face's features look he is in tension, his jaw is clenching and the veins on his neck are obvious.
He is shaking, he is fighting not to lose his control but this time I need him to. I smell his arousal and I am feeling wet between my legs. I might was feeling nervous until recently but now I...
I want him like hell and I don't care about anything!
"I have a new wish!" I whisper moaning.
"Yes love?" he asks leaning closer to me.
"Make me yours." I almost beg him and manage to move a bit my hips under him.
He growls loudly and crashes his lips on mine again but this time he moves his hands on my breasts and caresses them above my top. I bite his lip and let out a deep cry wrapping my legs around his waist. As he continues rubbing my breasts I move my hands to his shoulder and lower on his chest.
He moves his other hand on my waist and down on my hip squeezing it. I begin unbuttoning his shirt and moan louder when he moves his hand lower between my leg and rubs it up and down. I push my hands inside his shirt and rub them on his chest with power and he breaks the kiss moaning.
God!
He is shaking and I already feel able to accept him inside me.
"Blaire you are driving me crazy!" He groans and moves the hand he had on my breast to my neck.
"I want you, please don't make me wait." I cry and move his shirt lower on his shoulders impatiently.
He grabs my top and rips it into pieces like a flash making me scream surprised. He smirks and helps me take off his shirt completely. I am not wearing a bra and he leans and takes my left n****e in his mouth sucking it gently at the beginning and roughly some seconds later. I let out a loud deep growl and try to move my hands on his waist, I want to help him take off his trousers so desperately and I am getting crazy second by second.
"Please Stefan." I scream shaking.
He stops sucking my n****e and pulls my legs away from his waist. He grabs my athletic trousers and takes them off of me quickly and then begins unzipping his trousers with shaking hands. Once he is done with the zipper I help him take it off and pull him on top of me.
I am ready to scream his name when I feel his manhood pressing me but someone knocks the door like crazy and one second later Henna begins shouting panicked.
"Blaire! Open the door!"
DAMN!
I stare at Stefan breathless and looks confused. I don't want to stop damn it.
I pull him again and kiss him before he manages to say a thing. He growls in my mouth and buries his right hand between my legs. I moan inside his mouth and move my hand inside his boxer and squeeze his butt when I hear a loud growl from outside the pack house.
"Ian!" Beth screams.
My heart stops and I immediately feel cold and exposed.
Stefan pulls back frustrated and shaking from anger. I stare at him shocked and I begin getting panicked remembering what Alex told me last night.
What if...
"I am going to deal with him!" Stefan roars and jumps from the bed starting to put on his clothes.
"No! Please don't." I scream and rush to the door blocking it.
"Blaire, Ian is here. He is mad, he is asking for you. We can't hold him back for too long." Henna yells panicked outside my room.
"I am coming. Tell him I am coming." I scream and stop Stefan when he tries to get out of my room.
"Blaire let me handle it!" he yells trying to control himself.
He is not in control, Boman is controlling him and I know he is very persistent. I have to calm down both of them so I wrap my arms around him and bury my face on his chest.
His body relaxes a bit and he wraps his arms around me protectively.
"Let's calm down and let me go alone, he will want to know about the rogues." I whisper.
"You are not going out there alone." He replies shortly.
"Then we can go together but you will let me handle it. Promise me." I beg him and lift my head up staring at him with hope.
"Please..."
Ian's pov
"This bastard is here!" I say through my teeth to Albert who stands in front of me blocking the entrance of Blaire's pack house.
"Ian leave. Are you trying to get yourself killed?" he whispers trying to stay calm.
Around me are Alex, Dean, Cai, Travis, Julia and Maya. Some other fighters of hers are ready to attack me and I growl shaking from anger.
He came some hours ago, my men informed me, he came to my mate.
MY MATE!
I won't accept it! This is his end, he is done the moment I lay my hands on him.
"Blaire come out now!" I roar ready to kill everyone around me.
"Ian leave." Alex tells me trying to sound calm.
"Shut the f**k up Alex and tell her to come here now!"
Before he manages to reply Henna gets out of the house next to Albert overwhelmed, she is pale.
"She is coming. Just calm down." She yells with a trembling voice and I smirk and turn to Albert.
"See? She wants to see me... Tell them all to leave now." I yell pointing all the men around me.
One man run to us from the trees close to the house and stops some meters away from us breathless. I stare at him ready to kill him but Terror screams to me to stop and try to calm down.
"The King is here for the rogues Albert." He says worried.
"s**t!" I scream.
Disaster!
I can't kill this i***t with the King here. He doesn't have to know about me and Blaire. I am losing such a perfect chance to kill him and end this for good.
"Ian come with me now!" Albert just states and grabs me from my arms dragging me away and towards my pack.
I don't stop him.
We walk and walk and walk for minutes. I feel so angry and so stupid but I stop after some time and push him away.
"I am not a five years old boy, stop behaving me like I am an idiot." I scream.
"Then stop acting like one. Ian, I know you well enough, I understand you but this has to stop now. What do you think you will manage to do if you kill Stefan?"
I take one step back and stare at him speechless, he knows...
"Blaire won't come back to you, even if you kill him. You still don't believe her and George and she can't trust you anymore. You are doing the one wrong move after the other. Last day she was a mess. I am out of your relationship and I see clearly. She may be like a daughter for me but I can see the good in you. Stop it. Stop everything now and continue your life."
I fall on my knees and look at him lost, without talking or moving.
I lost her...
I did it...
I killed her love for me...
I killed our bond and he... He found the perfect opportunity to take her...
And I allowed him, the i***t I left him. I feel some tears on my eyes blurring my vision and I start crying unable to hold them back.
I want her, she is mine...
I...
"Come Ian. I will take you back to your pack." Albert tells me with wary and helps me stand up.
"Everything is going to be alright." He whispers and I nod weakly.
But...
Only if she is mine...
Third person's pov
While Albert was taking Ian back to his pack Blaire and Stefan was leading Victor to the rogues that Blaire and her pack had caught last day.
Victor felt that something was wrong with them but he didn't mention anything, he didn't want to be indiscreet. He took the rogues with extra special measures and guards and after he thanked and congratulated Blaire he left to go back to his palace and interrogate the rogues on his own.
Blaire felt relieved that Victor came the right time and saved her from a big fight with Ian and from the duty to have these rogues under her supervision.
She begged Stefan not to talk about Ian and dragged him to her room wanting to stay alone with him. They weren't planning to make anything like what they had started before, they were just in need of each other.
Blaire already knew where and when she was going to sleep completely with Stefan after Ian's outburst outside her pack house and Stefan could understand her. They laid on her bed in each other's arms and began talking about them and their common future together giggling and teasing each other like children.
Ian on the other side once he reached back to his pack with Albert asked him to accompany him to his father. He wanted to see him and it was the first time he needed someone else with him and this person was Albert.
He was a wise man and he was feeling good with him, he could trust Albert and it was enough for him.
Albert accepted with honor as he knew how important this was for Ian and this was a chance of getting closer to him.
Once they got in the room and Albert saw the nurse that was taking care of Ian's father his eyes shined and his mind brought back a recent memory.
His wolf was howling and growling frustrated and he did his best not to show any emotion or reaction. He knew very well to whom he would talk about it and from whom they would ask for help in order to find out what was happening in that house.
He stayed with Ian for some time observing discreetly the nurse's every move and left quite later in hurry.
He was sure now that he would find out the truth or a piece of it. He would put an end to everything sooner or later and no one would manage to stop him.
He reached Blaire's pack house and asked from Alex to talk alone.
He had a lot to tell him...
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