feel something (Campus Playlist Series #1)

"Anong dahilan bakit bigla ka na lang umalis no'n?" He almost whispered but she heard him clearly. Ngunit patuloy lang siya sa pag pinta, na para bang walang iba na nandoon kung hindi siya lang. "f**k, Ian. Just tell me!" He shouted, that's when she stopped, put her paint brush down, closed her eyes, took a deep breath to calm herself. Pagmulat niya ay ngumiti siya ng pilit sa kawalan at unti unting humarap kay El na ilang metro ang layo sa kanya. "Uhmm, mahalaga pa ba 'yon? Kapag sinabi ko sa'yo, now what? Will things go back on how they used to be? Will things get better?" Mahinahon na sabi niya rito, tila isang simpleng bagay lang ang kanilang pinagtatalunan. El just stared at her as he silently broke into tears because he felt helpless but she didn't move an inch like it didn't bother her at all. She forced a smile then continued, "Hindi naman di'ba? Coz we live differently now. I ain't your leading lady anymore, I am just a supporting character— we cannot go back to our days anymore, El." That last part was the hardest phrase to say to him but she still managed to say so. Masakit para sa kanyang sabihin 'yon kasi iyon ang totoo, kahit gaano pa niya gustong bumalik, hindi na siguro kaya. "You should have told me still." Parang bata na sambit ni El, na may halong frustration, sadness at regret ang tono. She just smiled at him, tumayo, lumapit sa kinatatayuan ni El at marahang pinunasan ang luha nito. "No El, you should go back to her." Again, a smile but not a happy smile registered on her face. That was the most painful smile she ever had.