Dreaming

Chester

I got home late and dad was waiting for me by the door, I sighed and walked past him. I just want to get some sleep and I am not ready for him.

'' come here young man '' he says as he grabs my arm.

'' Dad I'm tired and I can't deal with this '' I exclaim tiredly.

He ignores me and pulls me back to where he is '' we have to talk, I don't like what is happening between us '' he complains

I look at him '' dad......I am not gonna talk about this. I told you how I feel and you still brought that woman to this house, I'm sorry but can I go to my room now '' I tell him angrily.

He shakes his head '' no...I need you to know that I loved your mother and I still do. But I have to move on ''

I roll my eyes '' yeah right ''

'' son.....I'm sorry but you have to give me a chance. I am still your father and I love you very much '' he says sadly.

I can't deal with this, is he trying to get me to forgive him for something so selfish. I won't forgive him and I won't accept that woman.

'' I'm sorry dad...I don't think I love you anymore '' I tell him honestly.

He frowns '' ash.....you can't be serious. I am still your father. I am still allowed to make mistakes''

'' Dad you didn't make a mistake....you made a stupid and selfish decision and I won't forgive you for it ''

I fight to get my arm free and he finally let's go. I start to walk away when he stops me with a question '' are you ever going to forgive me '' he asks.

I shake my head '' I don't think I can ''

I walk up to my room but I can't get the look my dad gave m out of my head. He looked at me with a lot of sadness and I felt guilty.

I walk into my room and after a minute or so, I hear a knock on my door. Thinking it's my dad I shout '' go away '' but the person keeps knocking, so I walk over to the door and open it.

I see a boy in front of the door '' who are you '' I ask him.

He smiles '' can I uh come in '' he asks.

I shake my head '' sorry...I don't entertain strangers ''

He smiles and I can't help but notice how cute he is. He looks like he is thirteen or fourteen and then I come to the realization.

'' You're Chester '' I state.

He nods '' I am....and you are Ashton '' he says the same way I said his name.

I nod '' look.....I don't know what you expect from this conversation but I don't actually have anything to do with you ''

He frowns '' but we are brothers now ''

'' I am not your brother...I don't know who gave you that idea but I am not your brother '' I say angrily.

He smiles and I can tell this guy doesn't take a hint '' but my mom and your dad are married. I was present at the wedding '' he says with a tone of amusement.

I shake my head '' Nah.....I didn't witness it so I don't give a f**k ''

He seems like he is about to say something but I close the door on his face and walk over to my bed. I really don't have the strength for all this rubbish.

'' you know you are gonna come to love me '' he says through the door.

'' Stupid kid '' I mutter.

'' I heard that '' he says again.

I ignore him and eventually, he leaves me because I hear his door close. I can't believe I am stuck with such an immature shrimp.

The next morning I get ready for school with a stupid smile on my face. Do you wanna know the reason? Today is the last day of school and I won't have to go for a whole 3 months.

Summer holiday totally rocks.

Yeah, but the only sad thing about this is that I'll have to stay at home with that pathetic excuse for a father.

I really need to get a summer job or I will just kill myself. Maybe then, I can go with my mom to heaven.

After my shower; or as I like to call it, emotion time, I wear a short sleeve shirt with skulls and crossbones and a pair of skinny jeans with my favorite all-stars converse.

I run down the stairs making loud noises and as I am about to leave the house someone stops me. I look to see who it is and when I see her, I groan out.

'' Morning Ashton '' she says with a chipper smile.

I roll my eyes '' what's so good about the morning '' I ask rhetorically.

She smiles '' well....the sun is shining and I made pancakes ''

'' look lady.....I'm not gonna sit at a table and smile with you. I HATE YOU '' I say the last part word for word.

She looks at me sadly '' but you don't even know me and I know you miss your mother but I will like it if you could give me a chance ''

I laugh '' no way in hell ''

Dad suddenly comes out when he hears the noise. I frown when I see him '' what's going on here '' he asks.

I raise my hands up '' nothing new...I was just telling your b***h how much I hate her '' I say innocently.

My father frowns '' watch your language Ashton '' he seethes with rage.

I smile '' isn't she your bitch.....or did I get that wrong too '' I ask him still playing dumb.

'' you know what, just go to school and we'll talk when you get back '' he says as he gives up.

So easy.

I walk out of the house but I see Chester hiding behind a door, he looks at me with a sad expression but when he notices that, I've seen him he smiles and waves.

Pathetic kid.

I get into my car and start the ignition. I am always early for school so I decide to make a quick stop. I park my car when I get to my destination.

I come down from the car and walk into the cemetery. I haven't seen my mom in two days and I feel bad.

I walk over to her headstone and kneel in front of it. I smile at the words on it. In loving memory of Emily Hayman, mother, wife and friend. 1976-2012.

A tear drops from my face and falls on her grave '' hi mom '' I mutter with a sniffle. '' I'm sorry for being such a terrible person to dad but I won't forgive him. I know you said that I should never let anger get the best of me ''

I clean my eyes with my hands and continue '' but he has moved on...I don't want him to forget about you and he doesn't seem to care ''

'' I love you mom and I will never stop loving you. Never '' I say the last part with strong feelings. In truth, I could never move on.

I stay with her for about thirty minutes before driving off to school. This is the last day of being reminded that I am a nobody.

This is the last day of being reminded of my pain.

The last day of all this torture.

After school, I drive home and once in the house I run up to my room. I take off my shirt and shoes and jump on my bed with a thud.

I bring the book from under my bed and open the page where I stopped. I start to read and someone opens my door.

'' What the f**k '' I exclaim.

I see Chester and he had an innocent look on his face. He smiles '' I'm sorry....I knew you just came, so I just wanted to say hi '' he says quickly.

He looks scared '' hi, now can you leave '' I ask him kindly.

He shakes his head '' I heard what you said about my mom today.....why do you hate her '' he asks me.

'' I'm sorry and I don't hate her, I hate my dad ''

I didn't mean to scare the kid and all but I am so angry and I know it's not his fault. He didn't force his mother to marry my dad.

'' Why? '' he asks curiously.

I sigh and rub my forehead '' look it's kinda a long story and I don't feel like talking to a kid about it '' I tell him.

He frowns '' I'm not a kid '' he says with a hurt expression.

'' You could have had me fooled '' I say with a smirk.

'' you know you act like you don't give a s**t but I can see through the facade. You are a nice person and you are hurt but it will pass ash and you gotta calm down '' he says with so many emotions that I am speechless.

'' I'm sorry for freaking out '' he says once he realized what he had done.

In addition, for the first time since my mother's death, I smile. I smile and he smiles when he sees my smile. '' You know you are a weird kid '' I comment.

He nods and takes a seat on my bed '' I know....I'm also a freak ''.

I chuckle and Chester laughs a little '' can you be nice to me '' he asks once we quiet down.

I shrug '' I don't know....but I'll try '' I tell him.

He releases a breath '' thank you....now how about my mother ''.

I raise an eyebrow '' I'm sorry kid...that's not possible '' I tell him honestly.

He sighs '' well it was worth a try '' he mutters.

I nod '' I'm sorry kid ''

He nods and stands up from my bed. He walks to the door and turns around '' I'm so glad I finally have a brother ''

With that, he walks out of my room and closes my door gently. The kid is alright and I was wrong to have judged him before.

My dad comes into my room without even knocking but I am used to it '' hi dad '' I say rudely.

He sighs and sits on a chair in the comer '' dinner is ready and I would like it if you joined us '' he says.

I look at him '' I don't think so dad.....we don't do family dinners ''

He shakes his head '' well it's time for a change and besides I have news and I want you to be there '' he says with a smile.

'' If I say no, will you leave '' I ask him.

He shakes his head '' nope ''

I sigh and stand up from my bed ''fine...let's get this over with '' I say as I pull my shirt over my head.

He seems satisfied and walks out of my room. What could he possibly have to say that is so important?

I walk down the stairs and I go into the dining room. Chester is setting the table and when he sees me, he smiles widely.

Isabella notices me '' ash honey '' she says with her chipper smile.

I roll my eyes and take a seat at the far end of the table. Chester walks over and drops a plate in front of me '' hi '' he smiles.

I smile back '' hi to you too ''

He seems satisfied and drops the last plate. He takes his seat beside me and grins stupidly. No matter what he says, he is still a kid.

My dad walks into the dining room and takes his own seat; Isabella goes into the kitchen and comes back with a plate of boiled potatoes. She drops the tray and goes back into the kitchen.

'' So Chester, how is your new room '' dad asks him.

'' It rocks and I have an x box '' he answers.

Dad chuckles and Isabella walks in again with meatballs. I look at the food and suddenly lose my appetite.

Mom used to make meatballs and I'm not going to eat another woman's meatballs. She comes again with carrots and meatballs and takes her seat beside my dad.

Chester suddenly jumps into the food and scarfs down the meat. I watch him with amusement. He looks at me and blushes.

'' So what's this news '' I ask my dad.

I wasn't too hungry and I didn't want to waste my time on this table. This is not my kind of thing and I won't pretend.

'' Eat first '' my dad says.

I put some potatoes on my plate and take a fork out of it. I chew it quietly and after I am done, I look at my dad again.

'' Done....now what's this news '' I ask again.

He sighs but smiles '' well we are going on a vacation '' he exclaims happily.

I look at him with confusion '' beg your pardon '' I ask

He smiles '' we are going on a vacation to a resort in Florida '' he explains further.

I frown and stand up from my seat '' hell no.....now if you'll excuse me, I will be up in my room mourning your wife who died a month ago ''

I run up to my room and bang my door loudly.