My secret baby with the movie star

An apology

*Willa*

I am waiting in the conference room with Angela, hoping it will work to just ignore Levi's behavior. Apparently, he hasn't changed one bit. I actually thought he had, given the way he is always portrayed in the media.

It is not like I hate him for what he did back then; it was as much my own fault. I was naive, and to be honest, he didn't exactly have to do much to seduce me.

But I had been very hurt back then when I realized that I had just been a notch in his bedpost, that there was nothing more to it than the thrill of sleeping with a virgin. And I just don't want to be drawn back into that.

I hear the door open behind me and then that smooth deep voice, that still sends thrills through me. Oh, how I hate that he has this effect on me; I don't want to find him attractive.

"Angela dear, would it be possible for me to get a couple of minutes alone with Willa? There is something I like to talk to her about," I turn around. I don't want to talk to him alone, but for some reason, I still give Angela a nod, telling her it is okay.

She leaves the room and closes the door, and I fold my arms across my chest, looking at him, or maybe glaring just a bit. "What do you want to talk about, Levi?"

"I wanted to apologize, Willa. What I did before…" He is shaking his head slightly. "I really don't know what happened. I totally lost my head. It was completely out of line and inappropriate, and I hope you will accept my apology." He looks at me, waiting for an answer.

He looks like he actually means it; his eyes are very sincere. And well, being on good terms will make these couple of days much easier. "It's okay, Levi, apology accepted. Just don't do it again, okay?"

"I promise. Believe me, I don't usually act that way. I think the memories kind of screwed with my head, and about that, I want to apologize for what happened back then too, I..." He starts saying.

I don't really want to bring this up; it was a long time ago, and I cut him off. "It's fine, Levi. No need to apologize for something that old; it's water under the bridge, long forgotten and all that."

"But I just feel..." This time it is a light knock on the door and Joel peeking in that cuts him off, and I wave for him to enter, happy this conversation is over.

And I think back to another conversation, all those years ago, a conversation with his sister.

15 years ago:

"So Willa, what were you and Levi doing?" Emma looks at me as we are walking up the stairs to go to bed.

I know I am blushing, and I can't help thinking back to us kissing on the couch. Oh lord, it was so amazing. "Uh, I don't know what you mean. We just watched the movie."

"Aha, so that was why I heard him almost jump to the end of the couch and why he felt the need to hide under a blanket, refusing to get off the couch? I don't really buy that story about his legs falling asleep and just needing to wake up." Emma looks knowingly at me.

I sigh, hoping she won't get angry. "Okay, okay, don't get mad at me. We might have been kissing, just a little bit."

"I so knew it! You do like him." She says, very excitedly, and I almost expect her to start clapping her hands.

I bite my lip. Do I like him? Well, I don't really know him, but I have to admit that I am very attracted to him, and definitely interested in getting to know him better. "I guess I do. I mean, he is kind of cute and really handsome, and he is such a good..."

"Stop. I do not want to hear about my brother's skills with kisses or anything else, but I am happy for you. It's about time he finds a nice girl." She says, beaming at me.

I giggle. "Well, I don't know if he means anything by it. It might just have been, you know... the moment. This and nothing more... And he is going back to school tomorrow."

"I don't think my brother is the type to just kiss girls for fun, and by the way, he is coming home for the summer holidays soon." She says with a wink.

I can't help it; I can feel the butterflies erupt in my stomach. Soon he will be home for the holidays, and I will get to see him every day. And I hope she is right. I think I would like it to be more than just a couple of kisses.

"Goodnight, Willa. See you tomorrow, and sweet dreams about my brother." She says, giggling, walking down the hall to her own door.

I smile and call out after her, while I open my door. "Goodnight, Emma. And I think I might actually do that."

I close the door behind me and go to get changed into my pajamas and get ready for bed.

Back to present time:

I shake my head slightly, trying to focus on Joel, who is speaking to me, realizing that I had once again let myself get pulled into my memories. Funny how such a short time can have such a big impact on the rest of your life.

I look over at Levi; he is watching me. I can't deny the feeling of some kind of electricity sparking between us, but it is nothing I am going to act upon. I am not going to get myself into something with that man again.

"Willa?" I snap to attention and groan slightly. Oh God, that was what I was supposed to concentrate on… Joel was talking to me.

I send him an apologetic smile and try to pretend my trouble focusing had nothing to do with Levi. "Sorry, Joel, I was a bit in my own world there, I guess."

"I was just asking what you had in mind for the show?" He says with a smile that tells me he has no doubt about where my mind was.

I light up with a smile; I think I have a really good idea, and I just hope they are up for it. "Oh, I have got some really good ideas if you are up for it."