Sangavi didn't know how to respond to that. She was confident that Elijah wouldn't want anything s****l to do with her. So, she thought it was safe to assume that they would be sleeping in separate rooms. Was she wrong? Does he want to...? Sangavi gulped and took the glass of water in front of her and started sipping it slowly.
Elijah watched her through narrowed eyes, which she avoided looking into. He let out a long sigh, after a couple minutes of silence from her. "Let me spell it out to you", his determined voice sent shivers of fear and excitement down her spine. What does he want to declare? She wondered.
"I want to f**k you. In every god damn way possible", her eyes snapped open and locked with his.
They were both lost in each other's eyes. No words were spoken for neither knew for how long, but they were just staring into each other's eyes. Sangavi felt so awkward and knew he could sense her discomfort.
Sangavi was the first one to break out from the trance. She gave a mental shake to her head, "I won't sleep with a man who is having other women in his bed", she said without any hesitation, as look of disgust made its way onto her face.
She wasn't mad at Elijah for suggesting such an atrocious thing, surprisingly. But she was deeply hurt. She didn't understand why she was feeling so hurt. It was obvious that they both were cornered into this marriage. There is no need to get her emotions tangled in this mess of a relationship.
She heard Elijah sigh again and looked up. She didn't realize she was staring at the ground. She looked up into his eyes, which was devoid of all the emotions she thought she saw a moment ago. He was wearing his signature blank look.
"What do you suggest? I seriously can't survive living with you and not touching you. You are too damn sexy for that", She sucked in a breath as she heard his husky voice. Sang caught him staring at her breasts, so she shifted uncomfortably in her seat, trying to divert his attention from her body. His voice caused goosebumps on her body and she didn't know how to react.
***
Shit. s**t s**t.
He glanced up at her eyes quickly and saw how huge they became at his comment. Did he really say that out loud. Damn him to hell!
He was too busy staring at her luscious body which was clad in those skin hugging clothes that he forgot that he was voicing his thoughts. She stared at him as if she couldn't believe her ears. Damn! He couldn't believe himself.
Elijah McCoy, the man who never spared a compliment to anyone, vhas boldly let a girl know to her face that she was sexy?! – Unbelievable.
But since the cat is out of the bag, there is no going back. "I want you", he said with the same blank expression, "In my bed. Every night", he added quickly so that she doesn't expect anything else. He couldn't be asked to lie. He wanted her. Simple. She was his and his only. And she will be in his bed every night whether she wants to or not. And that's final!
"And what about other women?" she asked as she got up from the couch and walked to his desk and sat on the chair opposite to his desk. How would he expect her to do that with him after he did it with other women? She chewed on her lip, feeling awkward for discussing such thing with him.
He watched as she walked away from the couch and was bewildered at her actions, but it soon dawned on him that this is business and they can't discuss terms and conditions while sitting on the couch like long lost friends. He understood where she is coming from but he wanted her so badly. Just looking at her made him go nuts and the fact that's she is chewing her lips right in front of him is making him crazy.
He quickly got up and buttoned his suit jacket and walked to his seat. He sat back and took the cordless into his hands, "Tea?" he asked her,
"Coffee. Black" she said with a hesitant smile
"Strong?" he raised an eyebrow at her
"Light. With two cubes of sugar", she said.
Elijah was surprised that their taste for coffee was so similar. He would have never guessed that they both could have anything in common, but now, that changed.
"I want two coffee's", he said into the phone and hung up without waiting for a reply. As he turned to Sangavi to continue the conversation, she had an amused smile on her face.
"What?" he asked with a blank face but inside he was dying to smile at her,
"I thought you changed, but you haven't a lot", she said
"What is that supposed to mean?" he asked leaning back into his chair, enjoying the change of conversation. She shrugged,
"Remember Sophie Thomas in senior year?" she asked.
He frowned not knowing where this conversation was heading, "The nerd Sophie?" he asked.
Sangavi nodded vigorously, "Remember after our little fight, we changed partners and you were paired with Sophie and me with Karen?" she asked.
He shrugged, "Thomas was always second in class. She was the best after me, so yeah! I chose her to be my partner. What's the big deal?" he asked,
"You didn't get along with her as well, did you?" she asked raising her eyebrows,
"No", he said unsurely, as the waitress who served them food appeared after a brief knock and served them coffee. Elijah gestured for her to take it and Sangavi muttered a 'thanks'.
"She always used to come to me after chemistry lab and complain what a big ass you were", Sangavi said with a far off look. "She said, you never said please or thanks and always demanded for things to happen. She even tried to persuade me to take you back as my lab partner, but she failed", She shook her head at the memory and laughed softly.
Elijah shrugged with a frown, "What about it? I don't understand the point of saying please and begging them to check the temperature of the reactant mixture or to note down the readings of a calorimeter. We were lab partners and she should do as I say-", for the first time in his life he was interrupted in his speech,
"Partners, McCoy. You were Partners. Partners are supposed to help each other and work together. The problem is you try to lead the day, and even before someone declare you as a leader, you take charge and boss them around. That's where you're wrong", she said calmly.
"Can we discuss about the terms and conditions of our marriage?" he asked business-like. He liked hearing her voice but he definitely didn't want her pointing out his mistakes.
"Sure", she nodded her head.
***
She scolded herself for not controlling her tongue. What he does, how he behaves is none of her concern. She isn't his wife yet and even after she is, she doesn't have any rights over him. She repeated the mantra again and again in her mind and took out a notepad and pen.
"What's that for?" Elijah asked pointing to the notepad and pen,
"I like to write them down, so that we have a clear picture of what we are getting into", she shrugged.
She saw him stare at her with an unfathomable expression and then he slowly took out a book and a pen.
"So... first things first. What are we gonna address each other as?" Sangavi asked. Elijah raised an eyebrow, as if to elaborate, "We obviously can't refer each other with our last names", she rolled her eyes.
"Hm... You can call me Eli. All my friends do", he said.
"Cool. And you can call me....", she trailed off,
"Princess?" Elijah suggested,
Sangavi jerked to attention, "What? Princess? No way", she shook her head,
"Okay", an amused smile crossed his features, "How about babe?" he asked mischievously.
The way his lips rolled as he said the word, caught her attention to his lips. For a second, just for a fleeting, tiny second, she wondered how his lips would feel against hers. But as quickly the thought came to her, she shook it off.
"That's okay. Other than that, you can call me Sang",
"Can I call you Ace?" his sudden request surprised her,
"Why?" He shrugged in reply "No reason", he said.
"Okay", she said, not giving much thought to his request.
"What next?" Elijah asked,
"Wedding preparations", Sangavi sad noting it as the second point.
"You can do whatever you want. But we have to meet again so that we can discuss what you arranged for and what despises me in that. And yeah, my mom wants to help in preparations. So, you have to call her as well and fix an appointment". His tone made things extra clear that this was indeed a business deal. There were no 'please', 'thank you', or 'do you mind' in it. It was all a big business deal.
***
Elijah had to bite his tongue so that he wouldn't say those stupid words like please and thank you. He had no idea why but the moment she said that he hasn't changed at all and was still an immature arrogant jerk – not her exact words, but still – it hurt. He wanted to prove to her, that he was good enough. That he can be a gentleman too.
But why? Why does he want to impress her so badly? Why is he thriving so hard for her approval?
"Okay. I will call her soon", she said with a quick nod.
"Then?" he asked unable to keep his impatience out of his tone. He was dying to discuss the important issue here, their sleeping arrangements. He didn't care what they called each other or who did what preparations. He wanted to know, if he could f**k her or not.
She sighed softly and placed the notepad and pen on the table to lean back on her chair. She bit her lip hesitantly and looked down.
"So...." She said lifting her gaze up.
"will you sleep with me?" he asked and her eyes snapped to his, "after our wedding, of course", he added quickly.
She was silent for a while and Elijah stopped breathing. Please say yes. Please say yes. He chanted repeatedly in his mind.
Though he was confident that even if she denied him, he would seduce her into his bed.
"Okay .", she let out a quick breath. "We have to be honest with each other. You will never lie to me, or hide anything with me. If you went out on a date with someone, tell me. If you slept with someone, don't hide it from me.
I will not sleep with you the night you slept with someone else. I at least need twenty four hours of distance from you, physically. And after that... yeah", she shrugged as if to say, 'yes'.
"So, you will sleep with me", he repeated as if to confirm her answer. He was on cloud nine to put it simply. He couldn't believe that she agreed to sleep with him. He wouldn't lie, but he wanted her since the moment she stepped into his office. He saw a few pictures of her in magazines and tabloids but they didn't do any justice to her actual beauty. She was downright f*****g hot and so damn sexy. And she was all his. At least she was going to be his, for the rest of his life. He had a contented smile on his face.
"The same rules apply for me as well", Sangavi's next words wiped the smile out of his face.
"Come again", he frowned.
"huh?" she asked, "Uh.. I mean. The same rules apply for me as well – if I sleep with another man I will tell you about it. You can take a day off and..", Elijah's fists slammed on the table cracking the glass as the meaning of her words dawned on him.
"You won't be sleeping around with different men", he said with a murderous look on his face.
What the f**k was she talking about? How can she even think that? Wasn't he enough for her? He can't believe how much she changed. He still remembered the shy Indian girl who walked in the corridor's of the school campus with her head bent low. She never dated back then, though she had a lot of opportunities. What now? Has she become a slut? Whoring around with different men each night?
A loud possessive growl erupted from his throat as the thought of other men touching her woman crossed his mind. His fists clenched and he was thirsty for blood.
"Eli", a soft hand reached out and touched his shoulder. His eyes snapped open and he found caring, green orbs staring into his eyes with concern. She was leaning over him and looking straight into his eyes. She was so close to him that her breath fanned his cheeks.
"Eli", she whispered moving her other hand towards his cheek,
"Ace", he whispered. He would never tell her why he chose that name for her, it would be his little secret. He stared at her face and all the anger disappeared.
"You scared me", she said leaning away from his and standing straight.
"I apologize" he said unbuttoning his suit jacket and turning towards the now empty chair.
***
Sangavi didn't know what to make out of his behavior. He looked like a wild animal, which was out for blood. As Eli turned around and faced her chair, she took the cue and walked back to her seat,
"Are you okay?" she asked as he drank his coffee in on swift motion,
"No, I am not. How the hell do you think I should react when my fiancé tells me that she would be whoring around the city after our wedding?" he snapped. Sangavi frowned, is this why he was so mad? And she thought he was having an attack of some kind.
"You should react the same way your fiancé reacted when you told her, you would be doing the same", she snapped back as her anger began to rise, but secretly she was pleased he was jealous.
"Oh, so this is an 'make your husband realize his mistakes and make him fall in love with you' kind of thing, huh?" he narrowed his eyes, "I am a man-w***e. I never denied it or pretended not to be. It's just the way I am and its difficult for me to give up my ways all of a sudden. I thought you understood",
"I do. I don't expect you to change. I have no such intentions", she defended herself from the blame,
"Then what? Why do you want to take other men when you already have me? You are not like me. You are a one man woman, you always were. Just because-", once again he was interrupted
"I am not doing this to get even", she yelled, "Just think Eli. What if you are gone for a business meeting or a trip for a really long time. Of course you will be taking women, because you have a free pass of doing so and I will be waiting here, for you, knowing very well that you are getting satisfied out there with as many women as you want. But, what about me? Do I have to wait, all my life for you? You have options, you can go to other women to satisfy your needs if I am not enough. What about my needs? What if, you are not enough for me and I want more? What if I fall in love with someone else, outside the marriage? I want a free pass too", she said. Tears threatened her eyes and she hated herself for that.
All the fears, insecurities and concerns were getting back at her. She was on the verge of breaking down but she wouldn't do it in front of him. No, never.
"I will be enough", Eli's calm voice snapped her attention to his.
"What if you aren't?" she asked getting angry. "And it is not about s*x. It is more than that. Do you honestly think that women who have affairs outside their marriage are doing it for s*x? – No, Eli. They are the women who're lonely. They don't want s*x, all they want is to be loved. They want to be seen, noticed and cared for. s*x just happens. If I find a man who is willing to give me all that, then I don't know...", she trailed off shaking her head. She looked out the window. She had no idea how much time has passes since she stepped into this office, but it felt like decades passed away.
What has her life come to? She is discussing about her supposed extra marital affairs, with the man she was about to get married to? Even she felt pity for herself.
"What if", Eli's voice bought her back from the train of thoughts, "I say, that I will give you everything you will ever need. Love, care, affection, friendship, you name it and you will have it", his voice was laced with an unknown desperation and she couldn't help but stare into his eyes which held the same emotion,
"What is bothering you so much? I don't understand", she said shaking her head at him,
"I... it's a man thing", he waved off like she wouldn't understand.
"huh. You want to have as many women as you want, but your wife should be pure and untouched. How can you be such a hypocrite?" she asked with venom filled voice
He looked away, not meeting her eyes. "How can you sleep with a man like me? Won't you be disgusted?"
"I don't know. I haven't thought about it, yet", she answered. "But now that you have, I must say you are right! How COULD I sleep with someone like you?" And with that said she stood up and got ready to leave.
***
Elijah had enough. He could no longer take it. He could take any of her insults but not this. She was disgusted by him, wasn't she? Let's see, how she will feel about this!
He stood up and with two quick strides reached her. With one swift movement, his arm grabbed her around her waist and she was pinned to the wall. Forest green orbs stared back at him with shocked expression but before she could say anything he smashed his lip on hers and pulled her body flush against his.
Words weren't enough to explain his feelings. This felt so good, so right, even though she wasn't responding to him.
"I want you. Why is it so hard for you to understand? You are going to sleep with me, and I will f**k you so hard that you won't be able to walk on your legs for days", he breathed out against her lips as his hand found it ways to her ass and squeezed making her gasp. He slammed his mouth on hers once again and taking her shocked gasp to his advantage he pushed his tongue inside, exploring every inch of her mouth, ignoring her grunts of refusal.
Her hand shot up to push him away. Elijah grabbed her hand and locked it behind her, stopping her struggle.
She so badly wanted to stop him. To push him away from her. But his six feet muscle was making it so hard. To say he was persistent would be an understatement. He was like a man possessed.
After a few minutes of devouring her mouth, Elijah left a panting and angry Sangavi whilst he returned to his seat with his back turned towards her, signaling the end of this meeting. "Asshole". The sexy voice of his Ace brought a smile to his face.