I am very simple girl. My only dream is just to be happy and lead a peaceful life. To me leading a happy life was being with my family and love ones, but it seems like everything is not as beautiful as i imagined. But i had no idea that wanting a good life will make me suffer so much that i would want to die just to escape the reality of life.
My only family is my mother. I always listened to my mother, did what my mother told me to do and never questioned it. I love my mother; to me she was the only person to call a family. I never really had a normal childhood like any other normal kid. I was raised just to listen to my mothers command. I had no choice but to obey like a little girl. A very good girl who never talk back or dares to question in front of anyone.
I used to think that as long as I had my mother beside me no one can dared to think about touching let alone hurting me. My mother will always protect me. But I never knew that my life would turn out this way. I did not know that my only family will deceive me this way. Maybe i was too foolish to think that life is so amazing with good people around us, or maybe too naive to think that everything is just as beautiful as it seems.
Trust me everything is not what it seems...
It's more horrifying and scary.
Here's my story right in front of you, you can judge me all you want but think about what you would have done in my place. Because its always easy to judge thinking you are better than anyone but always remember that life is not fair. It doesn't do you any justice. There's only pain.
My name is Eva Collin. I have brown natural hair. My height is 5.6. I am 18 years old. I never finished my high school because my mother thought that it was a waste of time. To her education was for only foolish people who loved wasting their time. I loved studying but I couldn't fight against her ridiculous idea, nor did I have the courage to do so. In my entire life, I never really had any friends. I was always alone. Nobody really cared for me. To them I was not a normal child because I was the daughter of a p********e. They always thought the worst of me.
My mother was once in love with my father but it didn't turn out the way she dreamed about. It was not her fault. My mother's only fault was that she loved my father so much that she left her own family just to live with him. But my father, he never loved her back. When she needed him the most, he left my mother immediately after she gave birth to me. He dropped some money to my mother face and told her to never contact him. That's the reason my mother never really loved me. Maybe my mother suffered too much to even look at my face when she used to take those drugs to make her feel better about herself. I understand because I have seen her hurting me while telling me that everything that happened to her was entirely my fault. Maybe it was too much for her to live without love.
She never actually needed me in her life.
I wish she would love me one day. Maybe just for once.
And together we can be a happy family and forget about the past. In was living in my day dream. There was no way she was planning to accept me. But I was too late to realize that.
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Oh No! I was getting late for my work. Brushing off all the negative thoughts out of my mind, I started to quickly dressing up into my work clothes. I couldn't afford to lose this job, I should have wake up much earlier from now on. I thought if I woke up at 5:00 am I would be free by the time I attend to my job. But while doing all the work in house doesn't really give me enough time to even really properly.
I went downstairs to warm up her breakfast, because she was still sleeping. She hates cold breakfast. I didn't want her get angry and starve early in the morning. After making breakfast quickly, I called out to her to come down and have her breakfast before it gets cold.
"Mother! Please wake up already, I have made breakfast, come down quickly before it gets cold! " I warned her for the third time but there really was no response. Why does she always do this to me? Doesn't she know that I have a job where I work hard to earn money for us? Unable to wait anymore I went inside her room to see if she woke up or not. I found out that she was doing her makeup.
Oh God! Was she really serious right now? Why cant be more responsible for once?
"Don't you ever talk to me like that, you little b***h! Your whole existence makes me sick!" Mother said with disgust in the voice. Watching her talk to me like I was some dirt, it made me want to cry in pain.
I almost cried out at her cold tone. "Forgive me, mother."
"Have breakfast, have breakfast, have breakfast, she kept repeating like she is doing me a favor, useless trash!" she kept criticizing me while eating, literally shoving food inside her mouth. She kept insisting about how much stupid I was and how badly I cooked. At least she was eating the food I made for her.
I really didn't know why she hated me so much. But, I never complained about it. Because its no use, she will never care. Without paying much attention to her I decided to leave.
Taking my purse, I got ready to head to work. I had a job as waitress in a restaurant. I was very lucky to have my job. Because without a degree, you can't get a good job that pays decent money. I did go to school but couldn't study much as my mom forbidden me. I don't have degrees.
Mr. John was a very kind old man. He was the one who give me this job. I was struggling so much without money.
I was gracious to him.
I took a look at my watch.
Oh no! I thought.
I was very late for work and so I run out the door. The restaurant where I worked wasn't far from my home. I kept running aimlessly ignoring everyone on the way. Even if my boss was nice to me that doesn't mean I was allowed to be late.
I didn't realize when I bumped into someone. I felt like I was hit by a hard wall, I failed to catch my balance and fall on the hard ground. I looked up to see a man who looked really intimidating, and he was looking down at me. I couldn't clearly see his face because of the bright sunlight.
Damn! Why does this always happens to me? Whenever I need to do something there's always bad happening to me. This was my fault. I have to apologize to this man immediately.
Getting up from the ground while dusting off the dirt, I vowed respectfully and started to apologize for my mistake while looking at my worn out shoes.
"I am really very sorry, sir. Please forgive me for my clumsy behaviour. I never saw you in there, I apologize." I apologize to him politely while still looking down at the ground feeling embarrassed. I didn't even know who I was talking to as I was looking down the whole time. I looked like a guilty little child who was repenting.
"Look up and show me your face. I hate people with no manners." His voice was kind of harsh and rude. He spoke with authority and it kind of scared me. I thought he was going to hit me if I didn't listen to him. I simply didn't want to get into trouble.
So I obeyed him.
And looked up to face him and I immediately realized how much of a big mistake I just did right now. Without thinking I gasped out loud in fear. I know him. Oh! God! What am I going to do now? What was going to happen to me? I felt like I was going to faint because the man in front of me was the multi-billionaire Prince.
Everyone in town fears him like he was the Devil himself. He is The Lord of this country. Everyone in this town worship him like A God. Because he is so powerful that he can make anyone's existence to nothing. He was fear and respected at the same time. Yeah, it was different that they respected him fearing for their life.
I immediately look down in fear of what he was capable of. Was he going to take my eyes off because I didn't see where I was going and end up bumping into this human monster.
"Look up, don't ever disrespect me like this again!" He ordered me with dominance. I jumped at his harsh voice. My heart was racing like crazy. I might get a heart attack at this young age. I knew not to disobey him more and immediately obeyed him like a good child.
I looked up closely to see the most ironic steel gray eyes looking back at my stunned Hazel eyes.
His eyes looked so cold like ice berg and dark at the same time. He gives me chills in the whole body. I didn't want him looking at me. I was insecure because for a Devil he was sinfully beautiful.
My red lips parted in wonder, I have never seen someone so handsome. His eyes followed my lips and licked his owns pink ones. Now I was afraid.
He smirked.
He was well aware of my fear for him; I can see that he was also enjoying it. What a devil! Does someone fearing him makes him feel happy. Then he must be really alone with all those people around him. I felt sad for him because no one deserves to be alone. It scares me.
"What's your name, my sweet? He asked me I was too scared to answer.
When he saw that I was not answering HIM.
"Answer me immediately!" He almost snapped at me, I already felt so much fear near him. I jumped in fear at his demand. It looked like he was about to say more things but when he saw I jumped from his rude tone he stopped himself.
There's one thing you should know about me, I hate repeating myself. His tone become more harsh, I almost flinch in fear but stopped myself not wanting to irritate him more.
Ev..Eva."I shuttered finally telling him my name.
"Hmm..." He started to look me up and down, his heated intense gaze was on my whole body made me wanted to hide myself. There is nothing to look. I was poor. My clothes were not expensive too but somewhat decent to wear in public. He literally scared me so much, I wanted to show him that I was not scared of him so I act out and asked the most stupid question ever.
"W...What's your name? I asked stuttering making myself look more stupid. He looked right back at me and I immediately wanted to run immediately away again in fear but something in his eyes were holding me back from leaving until he commands.
"Dominic Knight." He answered me with authority. I looked behind him there were so many bodyguards surrounding him, they looked big and huge with muscles. I instantly started to shiver in fear. There is a dangerous aura around him. It made him look like so intimidating and more powerful. No wonder why people feared him so much.
I hope he doesn't get angry at me for bumping into him accidentally. I don't want to get involved with someone dangerous like him.
"Forgive me for bumping into you I whispered vowing to him slightly. I noticed my watch, I was really late.
Damn! I have work without thinking twice I turn around to run the opposite direction. But as I thought I was successful from getting out of his hold, he proved me wrong. I feel someone grabbing me roughly by my wrist and pulled me back hard.
It was HIM. I tried my best to free wrist from his hold but his strength made it impossible. He pulled me more closer to him caging me in his arms. I immediately got scared and started to struggle against him but he was so strong. It was impossible to fight against him. He just refuses to let me go and this panicked me ,I couldn't help but cry out loud.
"Please let me go, let go of me." I begged him crying. I was terrified by his strange behavior. What does he want from me? Why can't he just let me go?
"I said let me go!" I cried out slightly in fear almost commanding him to leave me.
He glared at me angrily, he looked like he was ready to kill me. Without screaming at me, he pulled me more close to his chest and threatened me, "You are going to regret this" He whispered dangerously close in my ear.
It gives me unknown shiver to my whole body. All my bravery was long gone. I got instantly scared because I know he was not any regular parson to mess with. And now he just threatened me in front of everyone. He feared no one but everyone was scared of him instead. All the normal people around us ignored me like I didn't exist.
I know what exactly he was capable of. I think he is going to kill me.
"Forgive me sir. If I made any mistake you see. You do not want to waste your valuable time for someone like me. Please, I really have to go to my work place." I told him shivering at his tight hold on my body.
I wanted him to let me go. He didn't say anything. He just kept looking at me. I felt like he was more observing me. Looking right at my soul, I looked up to meet his intense gaze on my upper body looking lustfully. Suddenly he let go off me. And it did surprised me.
He took some steps back giving me the need to catch my breath. He was wearing expensive black suit. He is a multi-billionaire, after all. Putting his hands in his dress pants he watched me. This whole time his gaze was on me.
Looking at him carefully, I kept backing out. Turning away, I run away from him. I felt relieved as I kept running faster going away from him. I could still feel his intense gaze on my back. I got shivers in my whole body under his gaze. But I ignored it and didn't dare to look back to see him.
At last, I reached the restaurant and was greeted by the old man who I worked for. Was he going to fire me today? What am I going to answer my mother now? From now on, she will have another reason to hate me.
"Forgive me, Mr. John. I know I am late. I am really sorry. Please don't fire me I apologize to him almost begging hoping he would forgive me and ignore this one mistake of mine.
"Oh! Nonsense. I know how hard you work to get some money to have a decent life. You are just like my daughter. Now get back to work, don't worry." He ordered me while smiling. I almost cried out of gratitude for the care he showed towards me every day.
"Thank you so much, Mr. John. I will work hard." And then I get back to my work. Working for my own living made me feel proud of myself. I love working here. The regular customers were also very nice to me. My skirt was too short it showed my long white legs, sometimes indecent boys would stare at me hungrily. Even though I would try to avoid them because of being uncomfortable, Mr. John would make sure they leave the restaurant immediately. And make me always feel secure. He really did treated me like It was late I started to clean the remaining table and got ready to get back to home.
I informed Mr. John that I was leaving after finishing my work. I always inform him before leaving so he will not be worried about me. "Go home safely Eva" Mr. John shouted behind me. I smiled seeing him worry for me it was only him, who was the father figure in my life.
I was lucky to work for someone like him. He has always helped me in my most difficult situation. I have lots of respect for him. Daily life was so exhausting. But it doesn't as long as I was a little happy because being around these people made me feel that I truly had a real family.
I kept walking towards the direction of my home. But I didn't know why but it felt weird, as if someone was watching my every single move.
Who was this?!