SEBASTIAN I kept pacing up and down in my house thinking, "How could I have done what I did to Disney, the woman I had feelings for? My first time, my very first time with a woman was something I was going to be ashamed of for the rest of my life." At this time my phone rang, and seeing that it was Disney's call, I answered it immediately. "Disney...." "I am right outside your gate," she told me. "Please let me in." As I ended the call, I wondered, "Is she here to express her anger? She must be very upset with me." I walked out and opened the gate, not wanting to keep her waiting. Once she saw me, she flashed me a smile and walked inside. But from the way she smiled, I knew she was not happy and felt a knot in my stomach. She walked into the house while I followed behind her. O