“Where the hell is it?” I heard Harry said from the living room while I am here in the kitchen cooking our lunch, their lunch to be exact.
“CAROLINE! HAVE YOU SEEN MY WALLET?!” I heard him shouted to Caroline, his wife. Caroline answered that she had no idea where his wallet.
I could hear some cluterring coming from their, only means that he is still finding his wallet.
After not hearing any noises, I just put my head away and keep doing what I am doing, cooking. I minded my own business when I heard him call my name.
“Where is it?” He asks me that makes me confuse to myself and to him. “WHere is it Lander?!” He shouted and his voice echoed all around the room and I could see the vein on his neck, I could really see that he is mad.
He was holding his now found wallet on his left hand, like he was showing it to me.
“What do you mean where is it?” I asks him and I was shocked when he throw his wallet on the kitchen counter and he grab my arms towards him and his eyes are really on fire as I could see. “Don’t you dare act like you didn’t know! You know what you did! You know what you stole! Where is it?! Where the f**k is it?!” He shouted at me and I could feel the tense between us and could feel my heart beating fast, like it would explode or something.
This is the first time I felt afraid of him, scared. He really is upset about something and he is blaming it to me… again.
“You are a piece of rat Lander! You are a robber in this house! You’ll give it to me, or you will deny it? Ha?! ANSWER ME!~” He shouted to me, at my face and I could feel his saliva sprinkling on my face, it is disgusting as hell.
I see everyone peek on us, looking at what was happening here.
“I told you! I didn’t know what you are talking about! I don’t know what is it you are blaming to me! But I only know one thing. I did not do anything! I did nothing but to cook here!” I answered him and guess what?
I felt like I anger him more.
“Oh so now you are talking back and lying?!” He said and he look around the room, looking for something that I have no idea what. And I was shock when he grab my left wrist and the next thing happened, made me scream out of my life.
He put my hand on the boiling water that is on the stove, where I am cooking.
“AAAHHHHH!”
I screamed as loud as I can and I could feel the tear dripping down on my hand as I felt the pain an the burn that the boiling water is doing on to my hand. He was pushing it down, like he didn’t care of what he was doing or what was happening to me.
“THIS IS WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO A THIEF LIKE YOU!”
He shouted.
I could see everyone’s reaction, and when I said everyone….
Everyone.
“DAD! STOP THAT!” Alicia screamed and he pushes Harry away from me where I put my hand out to the boiling water as soon as possible.
I grabbed the towel on the sink and wet it and put it on my hand that got burned and sat down on the floor and cried there like a baby or something. I felt embarrass and stupid because of the action that I am doing, but it hurts. It hurts so much and I don’t understand why.
“Is this what you are looking for?” Alicia said and she showed Harry his credit card. Harry look at it and he grabs it to her hands and nodded. “Where did you find it?” He asks her. “I told mom to tell you that I will used it to withdraw my money. I even used your money but I will pay you back later!” SHe answered.
“Caroline didn’t say anything.” He said.
He look at me, I don’t know what kind of look that was… But I could tell, ‘he just realized what he just did to me’ look that is.
“Next time you defend yourself and tell me the truth, or it will happen again.” He said and walks away from us. Alicia look at me and she kneel down in front of me and hold my burning hands. “Are you alright?”
As if I am.
I was traumatized when that happened, so I am not just going to let him grab my left hand again and God knows what he is going to do next.
“Get off of me!” I said and I grab my hand back and he look at me like he was shock to what I was just doing today.
What? Is he going to expect me to just be a pet of him? Because if it is, I am sure that It won’t happen! I will now fight back! I am sick of his game! I am sick of him controlling my life! I am sick of everything! This is my life, my father once told me that my life, is up to me, not up to anyone. So if he thinks that he could just control me simultaneously? Then he is wrong.
“What are you doing?” He asks me. “I am done.” I said. “But I don’t quit!” I added aand turn my abck to him and walk towards the door and when I just opened it, I felt him grab me back, but this time, he hold my arm, not my wrist not my hand, my arm.
“I said, get back here!” He said.
I fight back and keep screaming at him that I won’t. I keep fighting back, but he is stronger than me, I mean, he is an adult, that’s why.
“Stop it! Dad! Lander!” I heard Alicia screams. I heard foot steps running towards us, but I couldn’t see who that was because I am more focus on making myself break free from his hands.
“I SAID GET OFF OF ME!” I shouted and pushes him down so forcely that he hit his head on the table near us that made his head bleed.
“DAD!” Alicia shouted and everyone ran towards him to see if he was okay. HE slowly look up to me and I could see his blood dripping down on his forehead. “You.” He said and everybody look at me while I was here, standing in front of them, looking at them hopelessly and still shocked to what I just did.
“WHAT DID YOU DO LANDER!” Caroline shouted at me. “You really are a mess! You are ruining our family! What is wrong with you!” Caroline shouted and she stood up to me and she slaps me out of my knowledge.
I was still shock on what just happened, I felt like, everything happened so fast that I could not notice what was going on. Everything is fading away, fading away so fast.
I am not the who is ruining this family, it was Harry. All I ever did was be a slave to him, I did not do anything that causes this family to look like this. I did nothing wrong, I didn’t.
And from that moment, all I could ever feel is my feet running away from that house so fast that I did not realize I am away from their house. All I could ever do is run. All I could ever do is ran away from the things I ruined and mess up…
Always making a shortcut to the things that are best.
Just like how I ran away from my problem… I agreed to get married just to make me safe from everything that is out there, the media, the jail, the expenses… Everything….
I lost everything to those family, but looked how it turned out… I am living as a slave or whatever to the family who ruined me, my life and my family. The one who killed my mother!
I am an embarrassment! I am nothing but a trash!
All I am, is no one….