The Forgotten Princess

It was started on a tower of my palace. I sat down, humming and looked around on the place. My People are lively and happy but my hearts and minds are not. How I wished, I wasn't a princess who need to serve the people and give my life. I am Princess Estrella, who promise to my people to serve and continue the legacy of my mother, but I little did I know, those kind of promises change my life 360 degree. Every movement I do are counted. Every decision I made, are questioned. I never experience of serving my self since I was 8 years old. I was trained to become a perfect daughter and a perfect Princess. A Princess whose willing to die for her people. How I wish, I was an ordinary woman living an ordinary life. Achieving something for my self not for others. I am not demanding of anything but I just wondering what it would like to lived in a simple life. No one will control you. No life will get affected by your actions and decisions. While I am sitting down and thinking impossible things, my butler Joseph called me and said, your majesty, allow me to enter your room and prepare your dress for the charity work. Joseph the door is open. Joseph where is the king? Yes your majesty, the king is on the table are waiting for you to eat with him. Thank you Joseph. Please next time don't allow the King to wait Me for breakfast. Call me 2 hour before the food is served. Yes your majesty. When I walked down slowly on the stairs, I stun because the king are smiling at me. He look at me straight and smiling. It was my first time seeing him smiling for almost 20 years past. I don't know what to feel. I don't know what to do. I walked toward him, bowing and said, My king, please punish me for being irresponsible. And the King replied, you looked like your mother on your dress today. You are beautiful but you are not her. I bow my head and my tears are start falling. My mind keep saying, you should know that you are not the queen nor you are not loved by king. Though it's not my first time hearing those words but every time I heard those words, it makes me crazy. How I wish, the queen was still here. How I wish, I can feel the king loves for me. I know, my mother are replaceable but she was gone long time ago, and I am here living on her shadows. A shadow that became my nightmare.