I spend hours with Ava, sitting drinking and talking, I update her on everything that has happened. Minus the weird messages and gifts. That I won’t unload on her. I explained about the other night with Emmett, and then we sat for at least ten minutes dying of laughter when she realised that was what today's jokes were about.
It's nice. I almost forget about all the s**t that is waiting to explode. Yet, every now and then I see her looking at me and realise I have put her at risk. The longer I am her friend, the bigger that target becomes.
I fall asleep with her, after hours of laughing and having fun. Only happiness doesn't follow in my sleep. I find myself reliving everything, screaming and trying to wake up from the nightmare.
When I finally force myself to wake up, Ava is looking at
