I'm left on edge by the sympathetic and pitiful look that spread across Jax's face earlier today after he informed me about the health check up I'm to have tomorrow. What will Alexander do to me if I'm not able to carry his child? Would he really dispose of me as he once threatened? Even after bursting a man's lip over me?
I desperately need an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on. If my best friend Maria was here she would have found a way to help me to calm down and stay positive. The only person I can trust here is mother Margaret and I want so badly to speak to her about this matter and get some sort of comfort and strength from her but It's unfortunate I was ordered not to mention the news to anyone but I'm not quite sure if that also included mother Margaret since she seems to be
