Ruined By You

02 - Punishment

Amber's POV

" Amber wake up." someone calls.

My head feels heavy and my body is aching badly. I open my eyes and immediately regret it as they hurt because of the sudden light exposure. I roam my gaze around and see mom and my mother sitting beside me on the bed.

" Mom. . . mother ." my voice comes out hoarse and my throat hurts. 

" Amber." Mom says as she helps me to sit up on the bed. A while later memories start attacking me , the party , Jace , the juice , bed , my rape. I start crying bitterly as I remember the most horrific moments of my life. 

" Mom Ja. . .Jace. .  . .hhee." I sob uncontrollably. 

" I know sweetie. When we came to pick up the gifts we forgot , we saw him getting dressed and you on the bed . He raped you Amber." mother said and a wave of nausea washed over me. 

I am not ready to accept that I'm tainted. I can't accept this , I'm Erik's wife. What will my Erik think of me ?

I look at my cleavage with disgust , it is covered in blue and red marks given by Jace. I clench my fists together sobbing out loudly , I didn't know what to do now. To cry or to fight , to get angry or get upset ? It was all causing me to go crazy.

" I feel dirty and used. I'm not capable of my alpha now." I sob thinking about my husband. 

" No Amber , he'll believe you and help you get over it dear. He trusts you and loves you a lot." mom says encouragingly. 

" And if he also feels angry or disgusted by you , that will mean that he never loved you but we all know how much he loves you." mother says patting my shoulders lightly. 

" I'm used. I'm dirty." I mumble .

" No Amber , you're the same pure and innocent one." Mom says but I shake my head immediately. 

I'm not pure anymore and I know it well. I know Erik will help me get over this and kill that Jace in the most cruel way but now I feel like I'm not capable of my Erik anymore. It degraded the pride I held , I can't hold Erik's hand and walk by his side if everyone gets to know about this. 

Sensing my discomfort , mom places my head on her lap and caresses my hair lovingly. 

" Its just a nightmare Amber and it'll be over as soon as it started." She says humming a tune she always used to get Erik to sleep in his childhood. 

I close my tearful eyes , hoping her words get true and this is ending of my nightmare.

Little did I know , this is just the starting of it. 

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Two Days Later . . . 

The last two days were the most horrible ones. I couldn't sleep unless mom or mother were with me and kept sobbing all the time. I couldn't eat or drink anything like before and had horrible nightmares of Jace whenever I closed my eyes. 

The only thing which kept me alive is my baby. My little baby was the reason I ate and drank something , it gave me a hope that everything is not over yet. My baby was fine and no harm came on it for which I am really thankful of. 

Today everyone went to the funeral of an elderly member of the council. Being the Luna , it was my responsibility to attend it but looking at my condition mom lied to the other family members that I'm ill. I didn't want anyone to know about this before Erik comes , at least he'll hold my hand and help me but without him I can't face anyone. 

Mom went in the funeral as in to cover my place and they left many guards out of the mansion for my security. I sat in my room sobbing when the door was banged harshly.

 I jumped up from the bed in fear and slowly walked to the door to lock it properly but the scent which filled my nostrils told me that the person I was waiting for is here. Erik is here. 

I open the door and immediately wrap my arms around him. I kept crying on his stone hard chest without moving an inch away from him , I didn't want him to let me go. I just wanted him to hold me tightly and hide me in his chest away from the cruel world. 

" I missed. . . missed you so . . .so much." I sobbed. I'll tell him everything , everything about Jace and then he'll rip Jace into shreds. 

" Why baby , did you got tired of f*****g Jace too ?" he asks in a hard and cold voice. 

I felt like someone poured cold water on me , taking a step back I looked at his face which was covered in anger and disgust. 

" I. . . he. . . jaa." I stutter .

" What happened love , nothing to say , huh ?" he asks taking a step near me. 

" I'll explain , Jace he-" I tried but he cut me off by giving me a back hand slap. My head was spinning and the next moment I found myself on the floor with warm blood oozing out of my lips. 

He walks up to me and kneels down to my level. His eyes were darker then their normal green color. His veins were popping out in anger and I could see that he was trying to control his rage. 

" This is what I get after loving you so much." he growls throwing his phone on my lap.

With shaky hands I pick up his phone and see a video in it. I look up at Erik and see that he is glaring at me. I tap the screen to play the video.

It immediately shows of the guest room Jace took me in. Jace was there on the bed and I was . .  . I was under him and moaning his name with my eyes open. 

No , No , NO. I got unconscious before this. It is taken in a way that it shows I'm enjoying having s*x with him. 

" Erik no , its not true. Jace did this , he trapped me." I said throwing the phone way in disbelief. 

" And my poor baby got trapped. Tsk tsk tsk , you got trapped so much that you went to warm his bed up." He growls clicking his tongue. 

" No , Jace -" I stopped as I felt a stinging pain on my cheek again. The tears that were on the bay gave out and came rolling down. 

Another cheek felt the same pain and I fell on the floor with a thud as my head hit the floor. My hands immediately covered my tummy to protect my baby. 

" I'll never forgive you for cheating on me." he shouts walking to the closet.

He comes back after a minute with a whip in his hand. 

" Erik , no." I mumble but he gets deaf to my voice. He pulls me up from the floor and throws me on the bed , I roll over and lay on th bed on my tummy to protect my baby from the whips. 

" Erik please listen to me. We have a bab-" I shout to tell him about our child but he slaps me again. 

" Shut up , just shut up you slut." he grolws.

I scream on top of my lungs as the first lash makes its way on my bare. I keep screaming as he lets his animal out in whipping me. Closing my eyes , I hope for this nightmare to come to an end but it doesn't because its truly real.

I've lost count of the number of whips and the time , its not that the pain has lessened , its just that I have got used to the pain. My back is aching and I can feel my dress is torn due to the whip but he isn't done yet. 

My wolf whimpers at the treatment received by our mate. She didn't come out after Jace incident but now I know that she is upset because her mate didn't believe her. Suddenly Erik pulls me up by my hair and makes me face him. He slaps my face again pushes me on the bed.

" I'll show you how to treat a slut like you." he growls opening the zipper of his pants.

" Erik , no please." I whimper. 

" Why baby , you were moaning my brother's name when he did this to you ." he says growling.

He pulls me by my ankle and makes me lay on the edge of the bed on my stomach , my legs were on the floor while my upper body was on the bed. He bounds my hands together with his belt and lifts up my dress. 

" Erik , please nooo." I sob. 

" Moan my name like you moaned his name b***h or I'll tear this fuckable body of yours." he growls and enters my anus in a harsh thrust.

I scream on top of my lungs as I feel blood oozing out of my anus. I never liked anal s*x but whenever we had it Erik was soft and gentle because it hurt me a lot. 

But today , he is not caring about my pain. He kept going , he tore my dress near my shoulders and pulled my hair. 

He bites my shoulder with all his might and I scream feeling blood oozing out. My scalp burns in pain and my insides feel like someone has poured acid on me. 

" Erik please." I sob. My throat was hurting from screaming so much and I didn't had any energy left In me. 

After what felt like hours , he slowed down and stopped pulling my hair. 

" Fuck." he grunts and removes himself from me. 

He stands up leaving me in the same position on the bed. My bones go weak and I lay there as tears flow out of my eyes uncontrollably .

He broke me more than Jace. Instead of mending it , he did more damage to the broken. 

" You think its all you get for cheating on me ?" his deep voice echoes in the empty room. 

I didn't say anything as he fisted my hair and dragged me out of the room. Pieces of glass got stuck on my thighs and calf but it didn't hurt much because my back was hurting more than that. 

I silently allowed myself to be dragged by him like a lifeless body waiting for my mate's next punishment for a sin which I never committed.