Please Reject Me.

Maybe.

I could see him struggling against his own thoughts as he laid me on the bed. Hell I was struggling as well. This wasn’t like the mate bond I had with Joshua, this was something far deeper; something in my marrow.

I wanted to feel his lips on my skin, it feels like he’s trying to be considerate after everything I have been through. It was attractive to see his resistance, but I didn’t want him to resist. I reached over for his hand. They were massive; the black ash stain was already deteriorating showing his smooth skin underneath. I pulled him down onto the bed with little resistance, and feeling his large body around me it dawned on me how big this man actually was.

His hands softly traced my silhouette, I worried for a moment if he found my malnutritioned body disgusting. But his eyes never left mine, his face was a thing of beauty carved by the makers of this universe. He must have been one of those beings' favorites, I chuckled at the thought and his dark lavender eyes lightened up hearing that.

“You have such a beautiful laugh Hesperia,” Carden smiled. Gods his smile was like nicotine and I wanted to just keep seeing it. I felt his hands tracing back up my body, his finger slipping under the loose strap slipping it back into place. “You should sleep.”

He was too good. “I don’t want to sleep,” I looked at the bite mark. His blood was so rich I wanted more. Was this the blood bond? He said it was eternal, that we would only want each other. Is that why I felt so safe, because I knew he would never hurt me? Carden’s face looked so conflicted before a resolve came on it, he leaned down before his lips found mine. I didn’t flinch or pull away, I closed my eyes and wrapped my arms around his neck. I moved my mouth with his as if we were dancing, opening my mouth inviting him in. He pulled away from the kiss.

“Please…” His face was flushed red and his voice was shaking. “I am only so strong.” He was so close to braking, did he need a little more to know I wanted this too? I moved my hips and pressed against him. “Hes, baby doll,” he groaned. “It's not that I don’t want you, your body, it’s just not ready for it yet. It can hurt.”

“But Carden I want it… Please,” I whimpered.

“We will not be going all the way,” he stated firmly. I felt dejected, but then I felt his hands lifting my dress. I blushed as he kissed my neck. I moaned quietly as he pulled my dress above my head and tossed it across the room. He kissed along my collar bones and down towards my breast. I watched him as he savored my body, he wanted me to feel everything he did was done with the pure intention of making me feel good.

He kissed my sensitive skin along my breast before taking my n****e into his mouth. I gasped as he sucked on it, his tongue swirling against the peeked bud. His hands carefully spread my legs apart before letting his fingertips trace along my inner thighs. His mouth moved to my other breast following the same pattern nipping against them making me moan out louder.

His fingers rubbed against my slit over my panties. My core tightened and I arched my back slightly wanting to feel more of him. “Hes,” Carden moaned as he kissed down my stomach to my thighs. He grabbed my panties, pulling down to my ankles before kissing back up my legs. Carden savored every taste I could feel his passion through his touch. It was like our mind melded together every place I wanted a kiss he would, until reaching my soft wetness. He placed his face right in front of my entrance, my legs over his shoulders and his hands holding down my hips and he let his tongue slip in.

I grabbed the sheets feeling true pleasure for once. His first taste sent him into a frenzy, as he lapped up my juices. His long tongue slipped into me stroking my walls, both calming them and sending me into a pleasurable tail spin. Carden removed one of his hands from my hips, his tongue found my clit and began to tease and circle around it. I felt a finger slowly and carefully sliding into me.

I tilted my head back moaning his name into the air. He began to pump his finger in and out of me before adding another one. “f**k…” I gasped as I felt myself nearing a climax. He swirled his fingers massaging my walls.

“Tell me how good it feels,” Carden ordered before vivaciously lapping at my clit.

“So f*****g good,” I reached down grabbing a fist full of his hair. “I am so close!”

“Good girl,” he pumped his fingers faster, sucking on my clit.

I couldn’t hold out any longer before cumming, which Carden happily lapped me up. He kissed my thighs and backed up my stomach to my neck. He laid beside me and pulled me up close to his chest.

“How are you feeling?” He asked me softly, his fingers tracing along my arm softly. I could hear the worry in his voice, he worried I would regret this. Him.

I breathed in his scent thinking about the question for a second. “I’m… okay.”

“Good,” he kissed my head before going on to bring up something serious. “You know how I mentioned the blood bond baby doll?”

I nodded and looked up at him.

“There is more to it than just a binding of our souls,” he looked over to the window. “Because it was established through you drinking my blood I must grant you what you most desire.” He looked nervous.

“No matter what?” I sat up curiously.

“No matter what,” he held me a little tighter.

Oh, that’s why he seemed so nervous. What I wanted most just a few days ago was the sweet release of death. I laid my head on his chest, and listened to his heart. What do I want most now? “What happens if I don’t tell you my inner desire? What if I just make a random wish?”

“I’ll know.”

“Do you know now?” I questioned.

“Yes…” His jaw was tense. I reached up and stroked his face trying to ease his tension. “You have to say it directly to me, I cannot just grant it.”

“Does it have to be right now,” I chewed on my lip.

“No, you have one year,” he explained, seemingly a bit more relaxed at my interest in postponing.

“What happens after a year? Will our bond just be gone?” I started feeling anxious. Was I worried he would just leave me? But I knew my desire was to just be gone so isn’t that the same thing? Maybe I didn’t want to be gone from this life only the situation I had been in?

“No!” He quickly replied. “Not necessarily, but it will be extremely painful for me to not grant your desire.”

“And say you do grant it, is the bond done then?” I let my fingers dance across his abs.

“No, like I mentioned. My bond to you is eternal. I can only give one bond out, and you have mine. My soul is yours,” he captured my hand in his, pulling it up to his mouth and kissing the back of it before letting it fall back onto his chest.

I smiled softly as I nuzzled into him, this was how I imagined a mate bond feeling; safe, respected, and cared for.