Killing Ben leaves me drained.
He didn't deserve to die. I wish I didn't have to kill him. It's his sister who truly deserves to die. But I don't even want to kill her.
Why don't I want to kill her? She killed so many people I loved. I should want to kill her for revenge.
But to be honest, I don't want to kill anyone. I hate death. I hate violence. I think that we should all be able to live in peace.
Life is so short, so precious, that it shouldn't be stolen. I wish I wasn’t tangled up in all of this. The deaths need to stop. I need to figure this out. And the only way I can do so is by going to her.
She might try to kill me. And if she tries to kill me, I'll have to fight back. But I hope it doesn't come to that. I hope I can just convince her to see the truth. I need her to let me
