It’s been a few days since that beautiful encounter between Ethan and me. I did not know what to do after what happened that night. I still can’t believe the way my body responded to the kiss. Every part of me wanted to kiss Ethan back, but something in my head kept reminding me how wrong it would be if I did. Ya Allah, I'm so frustrated; I can't believe I'd like Ethan and consider doing such things with him. Life throws you something that you never expect to feel. I have not been able to face Ethan since I discovered I liked him, and since we kissed. When I'm around him, I always feel shy and awkward. I also think about the way my body behaved last time. I can’t be too sure if being around Ethan is safe. What if he wants to kiss me again, and I lose all my senses and kiss him back? I woul
