In love with the girl next door

I'M SO STUPID! ANGEL

I sat up in bed pondering what to do today, ignoring the slight aches in parts of my body, mostly my leg and shoulders. The morning ray peeked through my window from behind a white cloud. It seemed the perfect day to lay on my oars and eat the bread of idleness. Regardless, I stepped out of my room and went down the stairs to meet sight of everyone already having breakfast.

"Morning sunshine!" Mom said, somewhat in a good mood today being one of those days in a natural week that she could finally have rest. I greeted everyone and helped myself to breakfast. Homemade waffles was served and though it wasn't my favorite, I knew not to spoil mom's mood since she'd taken extra effort to make them.

"so how was the hangout with your pals yesterday?" Dad asked with a smug smile on his face, as if he could already visualize the fun we had.

However, I seriously do not understand this conversations that I had with my parents. I had been fine with it during my younger days but now that I was 19, I felt that it was a sort of pry into my private life. But then I guess that I never really grew to be an adult in their eyes, they've seen me grown from childhood fondly afterall and they still looked at me that way. it would probably take a long process before they started seeing me as one; Quirks of being part of a family that cared genuinely for you.

"Ease out on the studies dear," I heard mom say to Cara in a whisper with a slight squeeze of her hand, seemingly not interested in the topic my dad brought up. If one thing Cara loved it was studying, I have never seen someone as serious as her. And because of this she always stayed up late, the dark circles beneath her eyes were proof of this. Mom was beginning to worry about her mental health after being the one that encouraged her to this point- funny.

"It was exquisite dad, so much fun I tell you" I rolled up my eyes, recollecting every moment which eventually brought a slight smile of amusement to my face.

"Did you manage to grab ... a dear one?" He asked in a whisper that wasn't a whisper leaning closer to me.

My thoughts went back to Summer following dad's words and I couldn't help but wonder if it counted. I understand that it probably didn't, but... she did said she loved me and she asked about my day, if she wasn't dear then what is? Maybe I'm giving too much thought to what happened, for a second I contemplated if it really happened and wasn't a dream. However, I passed it all to be a joke and nothing more.

"Ooh!" His sudden exclamation brought me out of my thoughts and it was then that I realized that even mother and Cara had cut off their mother-daughter conversation to focus on me. A cold sweat broke on my forehead seeing mom's cold glare that gleamed dangerous interest.

"N-no I didn't." I quickly faced dad and said in my defense.

"So what was that face you made earlier?" He was intent on getting me in trouble. Moreover, what face did I make? was i too obvious with my thoughts as to Summer?

"Come on dad, it was just someone I met, nothing of that sort transpired between us!" I imp'lied'.

"Your call, whatever you say" Dad shrugged and gave up the struggle.

"Hmmm" mom hummed and narrowed her eyes at me, observing me very closely. She seemed to be intent on this very topic of having a girlfriend. I just continued to eat my meal in silence and avoided her prying gazes.

After the awkward atmosphere calmed, the thought of college started to form in my mind and it appeared to me as a concerning topic to plan against. At the same time, I was excited at the surprises and challenges that college had in store for me. In the midst of my thoughts, I looked towards Cara who was currently a sophomore in my desired school and I felt that whatever came my way, I had her to at least assist me and I felt that I was better than attending alone. I might be 19 but I'm still a young adult, I believe that I have way less experience to deal with situations and even though she seemed a lazy type, the experience was still there, it couldn't be erased off her existence.

After breakfast, I went up to my room contemplating to play some video games or read mangas through the rest of the day. I was so tired from yesterday's game that I didn't feel like doing anything today, so I'll just stick with my oldest of pals, my room. Speaking of pals, Blaze was set to move to college soon and I needed to get him something as a last goodbye. Nonetheless, there was still time till weekend so I figured I could do so later.

I connected the Nintendo switch and played some super smash bros for a while before switching to Mario karts, those were the only two games I could afford.

I didn't even notice how the sun hung low in the sky as I continued to play until I heard a soft knock on my door.

"Yeah, the door is unlocked" I yelled in reply and certain that the person on the other side could hear me, I continued to play. The sound of the video game I was playing filled the room. I figured it might be mom or dad wanting to request that I help with a task or remind me of lunch.

I heard the door open and shut behind whoever it was and for the part where they were supposed to say whatever they were here for knowing mom and dad well enough, they just stood there and didn't say anything. This made me confused as to why or what I could have done since this only happened when I did something really bad that annoyed either Mom or Dad. However;

"S-summer!?" I exclaimed in shock setting sight on the brunette beauty dressed in a loose colorful crop top and blue bum shorts, she stood their with an excited smile on her face, seemingly in delight at the sight of my shocked state.

"Hey, Jax" she waved and moved closer to the bed where I sat. I still wasn't over the sight of her appearing in my room just as that and i stared at a hole at her as if she were nothing but the projection of my deepest imagination. I watched in a daze as her hips swayed and landed my gaze on her fresh thighs in full display as she moved closer and stood in front of me. My whole being screamed danger as I wasn't certain that I could handle her all alone.

"H-how did you... What are you doing here?" I asked, still in a trance and not in the right state of mind to think things through.

"Through the front door? What, I'm not welcome here? I did say I was coming by, didn't I?" She said and sat right beside me on the bed with a defiant expression on her face as she leaned closer to ask. The sweet smell of what I could pinpoint to be orange but mixed with either peach or plume eroded my nose and I was enthralled by it.

'she smells so nice' I thought in a daze, part of me wanting the fume to fill my nostrils, screaming to move closer and take a deep inhale of it. I never had these thoughts in my life so where did they come from? I shook my head and;

"I-im sorry, it's not that you're not welcome. I'm just surprised" I aplogized after gathering my thoughts, which took a very long time.

"Hm" she smiled in a warm manner that brought a warmth feeling to my chest, my heart precisely.

I was trying so hard to control my breath right now as my heart palpitated in a very high rate. I've never been this nervous in my life even at my first presentation in basic school and i do not really know why but it wasn't until now that I noticed how beautiful she was, proof of this was how I had quickly put down my Nintendo switch to focus all my attention on her. I couldn't help but wonder if it was the same Summer that I've always seen around ocassionally.

"I heard from Blaze that we were attending the same college?" She asked with a raised brow, and her head corked to the side, making her hair fall over.

"Uh... Yeah, I mean, what?" I wanted to at least take control of the conversation to avoid her being suspicious of my strange thoughts but I ended up stuttering, I unbelievably stuttered. More importantly, what did she mean by attending the same college, wasn't she and Blaze attending the same? It could only make sense that they attended the same college being twins right?

" I've been admitted to Crownford uni, isn't that the same for you?" She asked, confusion evident in her face.

"Yeah, I- I was just surprised that we're planning to attend the same, I thought you and Blaze would rather" I finally managed to grasp my courage to speak with her, realizing that I was beginning to act too goofy. For no reason that I was aware of, I felt the sudden need to impress her.

"Hah! No we're not. I just thought I should do something different, you know. I don't know why everyone thinks I have to do the same thing as Blaze everytime" she complained in an exasperated sigh with a complicated expression on her face, leaning back with the support of both her hands and her gaze fixated on the white ceiling. "It's so annoying" she raised a hand and observed it as she said in a tone filled with discontent.

I stared at her for a long while and I felt that I understood her reasons. I never really knew Summer before but now that we seemed to have gotten closer, I've come to see that she has a very... interesting, personality to her. Despite the fact that she's hot, beautiful and all that, she seemed to be different this moment.

"So what are your plans for college?" I asked and she turned to face me once again, a small smile worn on her face.

"Nothing much, just plan to enjoy my time there. What about you?" She said with a slight shrug and asked.

"I.. I don't think I've really given much thought to it. Roll with the flow, I guess?" I stated. In truth, I've never really thought of a plan about college though I intend to, I just knew to try my best as to everything that came my way as I've always done in the past.

"Roll with the flow, huh? I think I like that" she said with a grin and I caught a glint of amazement in her alluring eyes.

"You think?" I asked a little bit unsure if I've managed to impress her with just, well... That.

"Yeah? I think it's a pretty cool way to put it" She said with a roll of her eyes.

"Well... Thanks" I felt a surreal itch at the back of my head and I reached to scratch it, avoiding an eye contact with her to avoid further embarrassment. The atmosphere became tense and awkwardly silent afterwards.

"Hey, do you have a girlfriend?" Her sudden question however made me raise my gaze towards her in shock. I tried as much to not think of it, but I just couldn't help but feel a premonition as to where she was heading with words.

"N-no" I replied, my gaze shifting rapidly from her pouty lips to her alluring brown eyes.

"Well. I don't have any either, haha" she said and laughed awkwardly afterward. Seeing my inaction at her words perhaps, she suddenly hid her face in her palms.

"I'm so stupid" I heard her mutter to herself in a soft squeal and I felt my palpitating heart rate melt in relief. She looked so cute and nervous just as I was and it was then that I realized that she was only putting up a tough front, she might as well be feeling the same as I am, why would she feel any different?

I felt a warm feeling spread through my being as a question surged within me.

'But why, why was she doing all of this?' I couldn't help but wonder. Could it truly be what I think it is?

"What are your plans for tomorrow?" She asked after a long moment of silence.

"Nothing much. Just work probably " I replied in a tired motion to express how much I despised the idea.

"Aw." She sulked in a purr, sending tinging sensation to my body which greatly baffled me as I've never felt that way before...

"I know, let's exchange digits!" She said with a finger pointed up to suggest. "I left my phone at home so..." she stretched her hands outward.

"Oh, just a moment" I stepped out of bed and went to my study table to unplug my mobile phone and gave it to her.

She took the phone and navigated to the contact list to add hers. She stopped to put a finger on her pouty lips and rolled her eyes up a moment later, seemingly in thought for a while before she nodded and smiled anxiously and continued to save her contact on my phone.

All this I watched with a slightly loose jaw as I hadn't seen anyone so appalling to my eye up-close. She was just gracious to my sight at every gesture and pose now.

"There you go." She said with her hands outstretched to pass my phone to me when she was done.

"Angel?" I exclaimed in shock seeing the name she saved her contact with.

She smiled warmly with eyes closed as if in ecstasy and said; " yes, that's what I am" she nodded sweetly.

"I have to go now, bye!" She suddenly rose and rushed out of my room without giving me the last chance to speak as she always did.

As soon as she left, I felt a huge wave of exhaustion like never before hit me and I couldn't help but slump into bed. This was strangely heavier than even after a game but, i've never felt so sweet and warm inside after an exhausting situation before and I couldn't help but wonder what this feeling was. My chest felt heavy and tight.

A very hot girl was glaringly moving unto me and I am so stunned that I couldn't even act properly.

I spent the rest of my day reflecting on the discussion, each and every detail as if to figure out something particular that seemed evidently there but felt as though there wasn't enough point to prove that it was there. Her orange-plume sweet perfume filled my room, reminding me of what happened again and again no matter how much I tried to put it aside.

Nonetheless, the only situation that felt that I fumbled was at the point that she said she had no boyfriend and called herself stupid. I just felt remorseful that I had said nothing regarding that; knowing not that it'll probably be one of the moments I'll come to regret most in my life.

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