Eight Weeks: A Secret Baby Romance

Chapter 1 - Issy

Chapter 1 - Issy

I FLASHED A SMILE AT myself in the mirror, trying to buoy my confidence. It didn’t work — I felt just as unattractive as before. It was towards the end of summer, one of the last really brutally hot days I thought we’d be getting. Outside, the temperature had held fast at over ninety degrees for a week now. I shuddered; every time I stepped outside, a faint sheen of perspiration broke out over my body. The heat made me feel weak, sluggish. I could barely move without sweating like a pig. It wasn’t fair. I was a woman. Weren’t women supposed to sweat less?

I sighed loudly and felt my bangs rise up in the humid air with the force of my exhalation. No matter how I wanted to look at it, I was still Issy Bianchi. Blonde hair, straight nose, slightly crooked mouth. And t**s for days, I thought as I stretched. I grimaced. Men loved to stare at my curves, but men didn’t have to walk around with giant bags strapped to their chests until their backs were aching. Stop being so melodramatic, I told myself. It’s just another long shift. You’ll get through it. You’ll be fine.

I’d been waitressing at Maison Bridges for almost two years now. Originally, when I was hired, I didn’t think I’d be there more than a month. I’d told the owner, Ricardo, I thought my singing career was just about to take off. He’d nodded with a grin partially concealed on his broad face. At the time, I’d been angry he hadn’t taken me seriously. But time had proven Ricardo right and me wrong, and there was really no other way to look at it. That was back when I was singing a few nights a week at this little club in Brooklyn. It had been a two-hour drive from where I lived in New Jersey, but it was worth it every time. The audience, while not huge, was always appreciative. And the little man who ran the club had a crush on me, so he let me take longer sets than the other girls. I really thought I was on my way to fame.

That was when I’d met Kyle. Kyle DeLuca, the fastest talking asshole I’d ever met. He was charming, too. With his blond hair and blue eyes, girls mooned over him whenever he stepped foot in the club. But, seemingly, he only had eyes for me. I remembered the first night we’d met.

“You’re beautiful,” he said. “I’ve been watching you all night. You really know how to draw people in.”

I blushed. “Thank you,” I said as sweetly as I could. He winked at me and I felt my heart slow to a stop. “I’ve never seen you in here before. Are you local?”

The gorgeous blond man threw his head back and roared with laughter. “Sweetie, it’s New York. Is anyone really local here?”

I giggled nervously. “I live in Jersey,” I admitted. “I bet that makes me less beautiful, huh?” I was so used to men flirting with me until they found out I lived in Jersey. It was like a stain on my face, something unavoidably unattractive. I couldn’t figure it out — most of the people in NYC had come from Jersey. So, what made me so bad?

“Nah,” the man replied. “It makes you human, like all of us.” He winked at me. “So, have you always lived in Jersey?”

I nodded. I was relieved he wasn’t turned off, but it was almost suspect. “What about you?”

The man grinned. “Honey, I’m from everywhere,” he said in a low drawl. “But I happened to wind up in a big city. It’s the only place you can be really anonymous, you know?”

I nodded again. I did know. Being alone, really alone, was something I’d felt for almost my entire life. But back in the sleepy little town of Morris, I didn’t feel nearly as alone as I did every time I made the journey across the river to New York City. There was something about all of the lights and the buildings. On a dark night, I felt like I was going to be swallowed up by the landscape. It was so intimidating, so incredibly powerful and big.

“I’m Kyle,” the man said. “Kyle DeLuca.”

“Issy,” I said softly, slipping my hand into Kyle’s giant paw. “Issy Bianchi.”

The man hooted. “And you’re Italian, too! Damn, have I struck gold!” He laughed again and I felt a warm blush spread over my cheeks. “You’re blonde and you’re Italian?” He shook his head, still chuckling. “You’re perfect, did anyone ever tell you that? You’re a perfect angel.” Kyle waved the bartender over. To him, he said, “Barkeep, this woman is a beauty. You seen her before?”

“Oh, yes,” the bartender replied. “She sings here every week.” He smiled at me. “And she likes gin and tonics; isn’t that right, Issy?”

I nodded shyly. “I do,” I admitted. “But I have to drive home tonight, so I really shouldn’t have any more to drink.”

“Two gin and tonics,” Kyle said. He winked at me. “I’ll keep you company. I promise I’ll let you go after one drink.”

Except he didn’t let me go, not after one drink, and not after ten. After the second cocktail, we were finding ourselves even closer together, our heads nuzzling and bumping. I felt my skin growing prickly and hot with arousal and the warmth of the alcohol. When our lips finally met, it was like stars exploded in my head.

“I’m taking you back with me,” Kyle said gruffly. “Come on.”

I shivered as I followed him out of the bar. Kyle led me to a motel across the street and we made love all night. I shrieked every time he plunged his hard c**k inside of me like I’d never been with a man before. Kyle was so loving, so skilled. He worshipped my body. In his hands, I felt like I was made out of gold and diamonds. I’d never been treated like such a precious commodity before.

In the morning, everything felt shy and new. “Are you feeling okay?” Kyle looked at me. “You seem quiet.”

“I don’t normally do that,” I confessed. “I’ve never had a one-night stand before.”

Kyle crossed the room in a quick stretch. He lifted my chin up and looked deep in my eyes. “You think that’s all this was? A one-night stand?”

I shrugged. “I’ve learned not to expect much from men.” I winced as soon as I’d said it; the remark sounded more callous than anything I’d intended. But I meant it. I’d been fooled by men like Kyle before. And sooner or later, all of them disappeared.

Kyle pursed his lips. He sat down on the bed and gazed deeply into my eyes. “Issy, I know this is crazy,” he said in a low voice. “But I’m feeling like I could fall in love with you. What do you say? Do you think you could fall in love with me?”

I shook my head to rid myself of the memory. I couldn’t waste any time thinking about Kyle today. Every time he came back into my mind, the pain and the wounds felt fresh. Like someone had ripped the Band-Aid off my heart and rubbed salt into the worst of the heartbreak.

I realized I was going to be late. Even though I’d worked at Maison Bridges for longer than anyone else on the staff, I didn’t want to take my chances. Ricardo liked me but not enough to keep me around if I kept showing up late. Besides, it was a Monday. Mondays were the slowest days of the week. I hated working them — there was almost no tip money to be had — but I didn’t have a choice. There were some bills due at the end of the month and if I didn’t act fast, I knew I’d be underwater sooner than I could ever anticipate.

“Issy,” Ricardo barked as soon as I stepped in the door. “You’re late! Third time this month, girl! What’s going on?”

“Car trouble,” I said darkly as I pushed past him and into the kitchen where I stowed my purse and changed from flats into platform pumps that hurt like hell after only a few seconds. Yeah, car trouble. Like I don’t want to get into my car and drive out here. Especially not on a f*****g Monday.

“Issy, there’s someone at the bar,” Ricardo said. He was tapping his toe, obviously waiting for me to finish getting ready. “Can you take care of him?”

“I’ve got it,” I said automatically. “I’ll just be a second, Ricardo.”

Ricardo huffed but he finally left me alone. “Thanks,” he said. I couldn’t tell if he was being sarcastic or just rushed, but I was grateful for another few seconds of solitude. Thinking about Kyle again had put me into a dark mood. I didn’t ever want to think about his name again, but I knew I couldn’t avoid it.

“Issy, I miss you,” Kyle’s voice sounded tinny through the phone. “I wish I could see you tonight, but something came up.”

I frowned. “We’ve had these plans for a month,” I said. “What could have possibly happened?”

There was a wet squishing sound in my ear and I realized Kyle had covered the receiver with his hand. I waited, growing angrier by the second, for him to return.

“I’m sorry,” Kyle said again. “I have to go, but we’ll talk tomorrow, okay?”

I pouted. “Okay,” I said. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to sound bitchy. I was just...I was just looking forward to seeing you. It’s been a week! I miss you.”

“I miss you too, baby,” Kyle said. “I promise, we’ll see each other soon.”

I hung up and moped around my apartment for a couple of hours. Kyle and I had plans to visit a local historical town and find a cute bed and breakfast to spend the night. I’d looked up tons of places online — I wanted to surprise him ahead of time — and I’d booked us a room there. I’d already paid for the room, and I wasn’t going to get my deposit back.

Suddenly, the idea struck me: why couldn’t I just go alone? Sure, it would be weird and I’d feel kind of lonely. But I’d get out of Morris for the night and have some alone time. Maybe I could be like one of those classy women in movies who brought a book to a nice restaurant and enjoyed a long, slow meal by myself. I envisioned myself walking down a dark street and then hopping into a cute historical inn for a long soak in the tub. Some alone time. It sounded good, and I thought it might be exactly what I needed.

As quickly as I could, I packed a bag and hopped in my car. As I drove, a bad feeling started in the pit of my stomach. I kept checking my phone, thinking Kyle would call me. But as the minutes ticked by, I didn’t hear a peep from him. I texted him, Just want to say I miss you, baby. Looking forward to seeing you soon.

I’d thought I’d be lonely, but I was actually fine once I got there. The hotel was adorable, even if I did get a few raised eyebrows when I checked in alone and didn’t ask for a second key. I took a quick shower and headed outside to walk around for a while after dinner. I missed Kyle. Every time I saw a couple walking by, hand in hand, I thought about him and my crotch gave a jump. It had been a few days since I’d seen him, and I was feeling horny as hell. I decided I was going to surprise him as soon as I got back to New Jersey. I’d buy some fancy lingerie. The next time we met up, I’d put that on under a trench coat and show up, ready to surprise him. Just thinking about the plan was turning me on even more. I wished I was back in the hotel room so I could lie down on the bed, spread my legs, think of Kyle and maybe slip my hand between my thighs.

“Ma’am,” someone called. “You dropped this!”

I turned around with my cheeks burning bright red, almost as if the stranger could have been reading my thoughts. “What is it?”

“Your keys,” the voice replied.

As I walked closer, I saw it was a younger guy, probably in college. He smiled at me. Then I realized he was wearing a busboy’s uniform. “You work here?” I gestured to the Italian restaurant.

The kid nodded. “Great food,” he said with a toothy grin. “You feel like coming in for a meal?”

My stomach growled and we both laughed. “Sure,” I said as I took my keys back from his proffered hand. “Table for one.”

The kid raised his eyebrows but didn’t say anything. I was starting to feel sick of being ostracized just because I was alone. So what if I didn’t have a man with me? Women were allowed to travel alone, damnit. After a few minutes, I realized I wasn’t being judged. It was just unusual; no one saw single women much anymore. A lump came into my throat as the kid led me to a quiet table in the middle of the restaurant.

“This is one of our nicest tables,” the kid said. “Your server will be right with you. Enjoy your dinner, ma’am.”

I wanted to tell him I was too young to be called ma’am, but I kept my mouth shut. After he walked away, I took in the ambience of the restaurant. It was beautiful: dimly lit, with small candles everywhere. There were small tables of couples and a few families scattered throughout the dining room. Overhead was a terrace with real roses snaking through it. An odd feeling welled up inside of my chest and I realized it was sadness. The atmosphere in the restaurant was so beautiful, so haunting. More than anything, I wished Kyle was there with me to share it.

The waiter came back with a carafe of wine and I ordered a plate of veal parmesan. My appetite had faded but I knew it would be rude to get up and leave now. After all, the restaurant was beautiful and the food around me looked appetizing. I figured I could make myself eat a few bites then get the rest boxed to go. I was no longer in the mood to be in public. I just wanted to be off by myself, licking my wounds.

I started composing a phone call to Kyle in my head. I’d call him and tell him how much I loved him and that I wanted to spend as much time with him as possible. No, that would sound too clingy. But he had to know how much I needed him with me! I loved Kyle. I wanted him to ask me to marry him. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. Whenever we made love, I imagined what it would feel like to be pregnant with his baby.

Someone behind me laughed loudly and I whirled my head around. There was a blonde woman — she actually looked remarkably similar to me — and she’d obviously had way, way too much to drink. She was gazing around with her eyes wide open. The waiter stooped down to ask her a question and I could hear her reply clear as day, “My husband disappeared and I don’t know where he went!”

“Ma’am, I’ll check the men’s room,” the waiter replied in a polite tone. “You wait right here.”

I watched her, feeling sorry for her. Because Kyle would never do that to me, take me someplace, get me drunk, then abandon me. Kyle loved me. Kyle looked into my eyes deeply and told me he loved me almost every time we were together. We couldn’t be alone for more than a few minutes without wanting to rip each other’s clothes off. We were soulmates, meant to be. We were perfect.

The waiter returned. “I found your husband, ma’am. He’s outside taking a call. He’ll be right back.”

The woman laughed again. “He’s such an asshole,” she said loudly. I watched as other patrons turned in their seats to stare at her. “Leaving me like this while he goes to call one of his little girlfriends!”

“I’m sure he’ll be back soon,” the waiter said. Even in the dim light, I could see he was blushing. “Can I bring you anything else?”

The blonde declined. She stared intently at the screen of her phone. I knew I shouldn’t eavesdrop, but now I was curious. After all, she’d successfully distracted me from being upset about my own love life. The longer I watched out of the corner of my eye, the worse I felt for her. She was beautiful, around forty years old. There were some light wrinkles around her eyes and the corners of her mouth. I couldn’t imagine what it would feel like to sit in the middle of a restaurant and know your husband was ignoring you for some mistress. Every few seconds she’d lift her head up and gaze around the restaurant.

Finally, in the dim light, I saw the frame of a tall, well-built man making his way over to her table.

“Kyle!” The woman exclaimed. My heart clanged in my chest and I whirled around. I knew Kyle had to be one of the most common names in the world, but suddenly that bad feeling was back. I didn’t want to see who it was, but I couldn’t stop myself from watching in horror as the gorgeous blond man lowered himself down into a chair across from the woman.

“Mary, be quiet,” Kyle shushed. I recognized his easy tone, his handsome, chiseled face.

A feeling I couldn’t even begin to describe welled up in me as I watched Kyle, my Kyle, my boyfriend, stroke this woman’s face and lean in for a kiss.

There was a clanging sound. I realized I’d stood up at my table and knocked over my glass of water. Now I could feel cold wetness dripping down the front of my dress. But I didn’t care, I was numb to it.

Kyle and Mary turned towards me. When Kyle spotted me, all of the blood drained from his face.

“It’s just some drunk woman who knocked over her water,” Mary slurred. “Come on, baby. Sit back down with me.”

As I bolted from the restaurant, hot tears slid down my cheeks. He was married! He’d been married the whole f*****g time! He didn’t love me; I was just some piece on the side!

“Yo, Issy, come on,” Ricardo whined, immediately breaking me from my reverie. “That guy’s waiting to be served! Why the hell are you being so slow right now?”

I sighed. “I’m sorry, Ricardo,” I said softly. “Just a bad day. I’ll be fine.”

“I wasn’t asking about you,” Ricardo said. “Come on, Issy. Go take care of that guy!”

As I crossed the room in my impossibly high heels, I got a good look at the patron who was seated at the bar. He was handsome, no doubt about it. He had dark tan skin, dark brown hair, and eyes so dark they almost looked black. He was definitely Italian — I could tell by the way his hair was slicked back away from his face.

“Hi there,” I said as friendly as I could manage.

Thoughts of Kyle were still swarming in my mind and it was hard not to tear up. Ever since I’d found out Kyle was married, I’d sworn off dating. I flirted, but that was as far as I let it go. No man was going to break my heart again, not the way Kyle had.

“Can I get a scotch on the rocks?” The man turned to me and gave me a dazzling white smile. “Your best scotch, by the way.”

I pursed my lips. “Well, we have a Talisker ten-year aged and an eighteen-year aged. Some people say the eighteen is best, but I actually prefer the ten.” I smiled at him.

“Which is more expensive?”

Oh, god, not one of these arrogant Jersey Shore assholes. “The eighteen year,” I said with a tight smile.

“I’ll take that,” the man said with a lazy grin.

When I realized he was staring at me, I blushed. I was used to male attention — it would have been hard to make good tips if I didn’t look the way I did — but something about this guy was different, more intense. When I was around him, I had that same kind of breathless, stomach-clenching feeling I’d had around Kyle. No more thinking about Kyle, I thought firmly. None.

“Here you go,” I said as I poured some of the scotch out over a few cubes of ice. “Would you like to start a tab?”

The man grinned at me and again, my body was flooded with that same rush of confusing hormones. “What are you doing after work?”

“Nothing,” I said in a breathless voice before I could realize what I was doing. “I mean, I don’t have any plans.”

The man grinned at me. But this time, he was silent. He raised the glass of scotch to his lips and toasted me before drinking it down in one gulp.

“Will there be anything else?” Somehow, part of me was hoping he’d say yes. I didn’t normally find myself attracted to cocky men, especially not the kind of cocky men who hung out in Maison Bridges, but there was something about this guy that was really turning me on. Whenever I moved, I was more conscious than ever of my clothes rubbing against my body. I glanced down and saw the man’s hands were gigantic, and solid-looking. I shivered, imagining what they would feel like running down my body.

“Not yet,” the man said. He winked at me and drained the rest of the scotch.

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