LONELY KISS

let me out

Mika's pov

I woke up with a pounding headache, I looked around and realized that I was back in my room at Cole's house. I can't really call this place my home cause it honestly doesn't feel like it.

I sat up and slowly got up as not to make the ache any worse. I did my morning routine and took a hot shower. I took my time in the shower. Things are a little bit blurry in my mind. I can't really remember most of the time I was away.

Getting out of the shower, I got dressed in a short yellow undress, a happy colour, the opposite of what I was feeling right now. One thing I remembered for sure is that I had decided to ask for a divorce. I just don't know how to bring it up with Cole, he will surely be mad and hate me more than he already does.

I went down to the kitchen and got some painkillers, I then got myself some coffee.

"I see you are doing so much better than you were yesterday."

I let out a small scream of fright and turned towards the sound of the voice. "Maria you scared me. Yes I am doing better." I gave her a smile that I hoped she wouldn't see through.

Since I moved in,we have gotten quite close and spoke a lot.

"Don't lie to me child. It may not be my place to ask but, I know for a fact that boy did something to hurt you."

"He did not. I just needed some time."

"Like I said, you don't have to tell me just know that at some point people should be held accountable of their actions." She gave me an assuring smile and went to get started on breakfast.

"Good morning" I heard Cole say. I gave a low response but, Maria never said a word. Which was strange because mostly she would answer and he never cared if I did or not.

"We have been summoned at my parents home, I think your parents will be in attendance."

I just nodded as I was trying to process if I should give him a warning or I should just let him find out at the same time as everyone else. He sat down next to me which was strange as well. Maria served our breakfast and left the kitchen.

He got ready and I was shocked to see him open the door to his car for me.

"Its fine I get a cab,I'm sure there is somewhere you need to be before coming to your parents home."

He rolled his eyes at me, "Mika get in the car." I hesitated and he insisted so I got in and kept quite the entire ride.

When we got into the house, I was attacked with hugs.

"Hey mom" I said as I held onto her for dear life. Now this felt like home. After many minutes of shearing tears and hugs with mom, I let go and was pulled into another hug by my mother in law.

"Oh my sweet child, I am glad that you are back and safe."

I let go and found my dad looking at me. "Mika come here." He called in a serious tone.

"Honey....." my mom started but was stopped by his hand.

I walked to my dad and when I got close enough he opened his arms for me. I ran straight into his arms as he embraced me. " You had us so worried baby girl. Why didn't you come to me?"

"I'm sorry daddy."

"My friend come and take a sit then we can ask all the questions we need to know." My father in law said.

Dad let go and I got a quick hug from my father in law but looking at Chris I could tell he was mad at me. I confirmed it when I walked towards him and he just walked away. I noticed my mother in law look at me and smile. She walked to me."he's just mad and was worried. I know you too are close. Don't take his reaction now to heart, he just needs to come down."

She walked to the living room where everyone followed. I found myself sitting next to Cole as all other sits were taken. Chris sat on a one sitter to avoid sitting next to me. Sigh. If only he would just talk to me. I was so uncomfortable sitting next to Cole like this because the last time I was on our wedding day.

"So my dear, is there anything you would like to say before we ask questions?" my father in law asked.

I didn't know what to say but just apologize for how I acted while looking at the floor. I was ashamed for acting like a teenager by running away when things didn't go well for me.

"Where did you spend the two nights you were away? Why didn't you come home to your mom and I or even your in laws? But the better question why run from your home where your husband was worried." my father said.

I turned to look at the so called husband and found he was looking at me with a blank face. One thing I know for sure is that he is no worried husband. I turned away quickly to glance at everyone's faces before finally looking back down. My parents had a worried look but his family had a strange look and Chris had an annoyed look.

"I went to the family cabin."

"At least you were safe. We should have known you would go there, you have always loved that place." dad commented.

"Why did you run without telling anyone?"

"We had a fight."

I turned fast towards Cole who had answered. I was shocked that he would say something, if only we could even have a fight then there would be hope for us. Unfortunately, that was a little girl's dream that will never come true.

"Is that true?" my in laws asked. I nodded yes and Chris gave a sound of annoyance.

"You don't run away after a fight with your partner. You can go and have some alone time to think things through but you never run."

"We will talk about it once we get home" Cole answered.

I knew this is the only time I could bring up what I had on my mind. " May I please say something."

"Go ahead." my dad said with a confused look.

"Cole is right, we did have a misunderstanding and that is the reason I had gone away. As dad said, I have always loved the cabin because its quite nature has always helped me think. I did just that. After thinking carefully, I would like to get a divorce." I looked to the floor to avoid the expressions on every ones faces.

"Why do you want a divorce from my son?" his dad asked calmly. Way too calmly for my liking.

I looked up and noticed both mothers were shedding some tears. " I just don't think that we are compatible. I think we might be standing in the way of each others happiness. I'm sorry for this but, please allow us to get divorced and go our separate ways."

"Is he not treating you right?" my father asked.

"Dad, it is not like that. It has nothing to do with how he treats me. I just think we are better off apart."

"I think we are rushing with this. Maybe we all need some time to think this through and solve whatever is going on....." my mother in law said.

"Mom, why are not asking my brother if he wants the divorce because I'm sure he willingly grant it." Chris said sarcastically.

"Chris." His father said in a threatening tone.

"I am only saying dad."

"He has a point my friend. Since my daughter said she wants a divorce, he has not said one word to give an insight of his opinion on the matter." my father said giving Cole a serious look.

I looked at him and he was looking at me with an angry look. He looked at his father then mine. " Sir, I am in shock that she wants a divorce and I sure do not want one. That would bring so much negative press and it would be a shame on both families. I will try to talk to her and see if we can solve our problems without resorting to such drastic measures."

I looked at his confused because I thought he would be the happiest in the room with that news.

"My friend, I would have to agree with my son. Maybe we can help them with the issues they are facing."

My father looked at me then back to my father in law. "You are right. We can get to the bottom of this."

I looked at my father in disbelief, the way he just disregard what I brought to the table was beyond me. I got up and just walked away, ignoring the calls of my name.

I went to the garden and sat near the rose bush where I knew people in the house could not see me. I sat down and started to cry. I love my father but sometimes he can be inconsiderate to other peoples emotions.

"hey" I heard my mom pull me for a hug.

"mummy please talk to daddy about this."

"I will but, I need to know the real reason why you want to end your marriage. I know you always had a crush on him, after hearing that you are to marry something changed. Talk to me."

I pulled away and responded. "Mummy, I thought I could make it work but, I can't be with someone who doesn't love me."

"Did he tell you that or better still what makes you say that."

"Mom I just want to leave and live my life."

"When you are ready, you will talk to me. Just know that I will always be here for you. I will talk to your father."

She stood and walked into the house. I sat there for some time and decided to go into the house.

Cole and his dad were not in the room, mom and dad were getting ready to leave.

" I was coming to get you so that we could say bye." mom said.

"Baby girl, won't you give me a hug bye." my dad said but I just ignored and said bye to mom.

"where is Cole? I would like to leave."

"He is talking to his father, I'm sure they will be done shortly." my mother in law said.

I nodded and went to sit down. My parents left and my mother in law came to join me.

"I know you are mad and disappointed in all of us parents. Maybe we are been selfish about keeping you with my son but, I know that you are the best thing that has happened to him. He may not know it but you are and you might not see it but, you are meant to be together. We have done our part by bringing you together, only you two can make it work. If at the end of the day you still want to end the marriage know that I will not hold it against you and will still support you."

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The last two weeks have been weird so to say. I don't know why or what is going on but, Cole has been acting strange. The first week after the meeting at his parents home, he would ignore me and avoid me. Which is honestly normal. Then in the second week, he started trying to grab my attention, always trying to ask me out. Rather wanting to do things with me.

I was getting frustrated with him refusing to grant me the divorce. Today, I was rather emotional about where my life was at and I just wanted to drink my sorrows away. So I went down stairs to the mini bar and helped myself to a stiff drink.

"Are you celebrating something?"

"Ah Maria! No, I'm actually drinking my sorrows away. My life us one big mess."

"Miss, sometimes may seem like they are at their worst end but we end up closing the door to beauty because of mopping around. Focusing on a closed door makes you miss the million that are open behind you."

She walked away after her reassuring smile. I didn't want to dwell on her words because I could feel the effect of the alcohol.

I turned up some music and one of my favourites came on, Skin by Rihanna and I decided it wouldn't harm anyone if I danced. I had one my glass in one hand and I started to dance occasionally taking a sip of my drink. I continued dancing to some other slow songs and drinking. When I finally turned around towards the door, there was Cole staring at me.

I stood there frozen looking at him. He moved towards me so fast that I had no time to think when he grabbed me and kissed me.