grey area love

Caitlyn is a sweet, bubbly woman, she's got a smile that can light up a room. Caitlyn has soft almond shaped eyes, with a beautiful mix of hazel, green and blue with lashes for days. with her soft supple cheeks, rosey and plump with a soft button nose set beautifully right in the middle of her face. her lips were like petals, soft and dewy. like a soft pink on a tulip. she had soft ivory skin that in the right light could make her shine. she stood at 5'1, and 130 pounds. she had all the right curves in all the right places. legs that seemed to never end. Neil on the other hand is an edgy, give no f***s asshole who cares only for those who he loves. standing in at 5'11, and 165 pounds, with dark brown wavy hair. with widely shaped almond eyes the color of the water in the cold of winter. (caitlyn) I called neil up when at a woman's shelter to see if I could come over for a few days. C- hey I was wondering, what days are you off work? would you mind any company for a few days? N- Thursday actually, I can come grab you. give me your address and I'll be there. C- awesome it'll be so nice to see you after not being at work for a while. N- ya it'll be nice. just like watching you bounce by the landing zone. I could hear him chuckle to himself. I hung up the phone and packed my bag it was Tuesday and I was so excited to get away from this place. I packed all of what I could. I was so excited. I missed him so much. he was always the one to make me smile at work. (Wednesday) I got up around 6:30am and ran to the bathroom, sick to my stomach I puked up nothing but bile. after I got up from the toilet, I rinsed my mouth out and brushed my teeth, going downstairs I grabbed myself a cup of coffee and some cherrios. after I finished up, I washed my dishes and went to my little TV room to watch a movie and have a nap. after a few hours I woke up, looking at my phone it was 11am. I guess it's time to get up and do something. I'm bored out of my mind. so I went down stairs, grabbed my coat, signed myself out and went for a walk. it was around lunch time for the high schoolers so I went to timmies. grabbed a smoke and sat outside. for September, it was a pretty nice day. I saw Natalie walking up the sidewalk to timmies. I ran to her and gave her a huge hug. we caught up and chatted. although she was super annoying sometimes she was my best friend. around an hour later I went back. signed back in and went to get some lunch. thats when my phone went off, seeing as it was around 1, I was expecting neil to text me. n- hey, excited for tomorrow ;) C- of course!! I read books and ate dinner for the rest of the night. around 11pm I finally succumbed to my tiredness. (thursday) I wake up and try to lay down while my stomach is turning. it's 6am. ugh. I hate early mornings. I try to get up and go, but nope. I run to the bathroom and throw up. thinking I might just have food poisoning. I poured a glass of milk, drank some of that and then ran to the bathroom when it came backup. I can't be pregnant I think to myself. I ate some crackers which helped. I walk back up stairs to go pack. I packed a lot of my stuff. I go out and sit on the grass by the drive way. waiting. I see his car pull up, Beautiful cream colored dog in the back seat. lily is beautiful. shes an alapaha bulldog. N- hey come on get in C- okay want me to put these in the trunk or the back seat? n- back seat we got back on the road and listened to some music. singing along we laughed and talked about all the stuff we've been doing for the last few months. he started talking about work and how its getting so tiring. I tell him about how awful it was back at the womens house. I'm so glad to be out of there. we get to his place and he let's lily out of her harness. we sit down and watch some movies, spider man of course! its starting to get dark outside, mind you its the end of September. thats when we grab a blanket. I go to change into shorts and a tank top. and my back is killing me. so I shyly ask him if he can give me a back massage. he nods with a firy glint in his eyes. as he gets lower on my back he starts moving slower and harder. I'm so happy and I ask him if he can rub my legs too. he quickly nods. after a while working on my legs he starts moving up my thighs, high and high until he reaches my centre. he starts rubbing little by little, until he pushes his fingers inside my centre. he goes slow and steady. slowly ramping up his speed. he starts kissing my thighs and grabbing my a*s until I get up pull his fingers out and grab his neck and pull him to my lips. I kiss him with everything I've got. kissing him is like heaven. we both strip down n***d, he grabs me and puts me on top, c- i haven't had s*x in a while.. n- are you saying it's going to hurt? c- a little.. n- don't worry, I'll go easy he slowly parts my flower and directs his c**k to my entrance. he slowly slides in even tho it hurts me a bit. he goes in slow strokes in and out, just enough to get me used to his size. mind you hes like 8" long and 3 or 4" wide. he goes nice and slow, nice and shallow. just until my body adjusts. then he starts going deeper and faster the more I moan his name. I start to feel the build up, the tension in my groin, the heat in my abdomen, the shaking in my body. and he thrusts up and in as hard as he can and I scream out in pleasure. n- i can feel your p***y trying to milk me baby girl I moan out at his dirty words. he starts to sputter his movements, faulting in his thrusts, and as he moans out he thrusts up hard and spills his seed inside me. n- how was that for a good time huh? c- that was amazing n- im glad you think so. he kisses my forehead and gets up to go put on his boxers on with some pants and goes to the balcony for a smoke. I get up and put on my house coat and go out for a smoke too. I feel groggy but looking at the clock, its 11:30am. damn how did I sleep in till 11, I barely ever sleep in past 9am anymore. he stirs in his sleep, slowly lifting his eye lids. n- good morning c- good morning to you too. man I'm hungry n- me too I get up to go make some eggs. I'm so hungry. I pull out the frying pan, turn on the stove. I put butter into the pan and c***k an egg and watch it cook. I do that 4 more times. I make him 4 sandwiches. I make myself 1. n- thank you for the sandwiches c- no problemo he gets up and goes to the bathroom while I lay down and just enjoy the moment. when he comes back he gives me a kiss and winks. n- i have to start getting ready for work now c- okay I can't really go anywhere considering I don't have a key we both laugh and he gives me another kiss. he gets his uniform on and heads out the door. I go to the shower, turn the tap on, and watch the water run hot. I start the shower and get in, feeling the hot water on my body, my muscles relaxing, my body starts to become less stiff. after a while of standing i sit with the water beating down on me. I'm so tired. I close my eyes for what seems to be a few minutes but wake up to freezing cold water. I get out of the shower, making sure not to slip. I wrap the towel around me. i go to check the time. damn I was in the shower for 2 hours. I grab my phone and see i have a text from neil, "hey cutie, hope you're having fun" hes such a sweetheart. I get my friend to come over and we watch movies and talk about life with her ex. shes nice I guess. she goes on and on about how she wants me to be there with her with her friends and I tell her sorry I can't I am dog sitting. 5 hours later Shes gone finally!! God shes so annoying. All she talks about it s*x and boys. Girl close your goddamn legs. I get up to get something to eat. Damn the guy barely has anything to eat. So I settle for just eating some bread with butter. Man It might seem weird but its so good. My phone starts ringing and its neil N- hey cait, hows things going for you. C- pretty good I guess a little hungry N- we can go shopping tomorrow since tomorrow is payday C- yummy food We both hang up and I go for a nap since its 10:30pm, man I'm dead tired. 3 hours later I hear the door open and close. I hear foot steps coming to the bed room and then I see its neil. He takes his uniform off, goes for a shower and comes back and lays down with me. We wake up in the morning around 11 am. I go to grab some coffee and some cereal. Its Saturday. Neil comes out and tells me his boys are coming for the weekend. So I start cleaning up the place. By then its 2pm and his ex arrives with the boys. She sees me and its like she's jealous. She calls me a w***e and then leaves. I cried while in the bathroom as his kids didn't need to see me crying. the boys are so awesome. shes always been rude. why doesn't she even try to get to know me? I'm not that bad of a person. am I? we put on a movie and the boys are playing Legos with neil. they look over at me and ask if I want to play so of course the kid person I am, I say of course. 3 hours later, we are still playing with Legos but we look at the clock, "oh crap its 11pm" we usher everyone to bed and put on a movie. Neil and I stay up and watch from the balcony as the stars start to shine. n- you're so beautiful c- thank you great now I. blushing like an i***t n- you look so cute when you blush goodness when will I ever be able to stop blushing he hugs me from behind and asks if I'm ready for bed, I nod at him and we head to bed, under the blankets, all nice and comfy. we wake up in the morning and go get some breakfast, we get eggs and bacon. we sit down and make funny faces at each other, I throw a piece of bacon at neil, he tries to squirt ketchup at me. we laugh and laugh until I go to take a drink and it comes out my nose. we all laugh while my nose burns from my coke. we head home and try to just have a good time while I'm sneezing and cough. Neil and the boys keep laughing at me. "hey! its not funny it hurts!" they all laugh so hard that neil gets the hiccups. now I'm laughing at him. we go inside and decide on going to the store to grab some munchies. the boys get some chips and sweets. I get some ice cream and neil gets chips and dip while buying me a bag of chips too. man its only noon and I'm so tired. we get home and I topple onto the couch and fall asleep instantly. while the boys watch their movies im still asleep 2 hours later. but they wake me up with a pillow to the face. ugh why me im so tired. so I grab the pillow closest to me and throw it back and it hits keenan right in the face. he laughs it off and throws it back at me and you wonder why I have a temper. the boys went home and neil had to go to work. while he's at work, I start cleaning and trying to have fun by myself. tia wants to come over but I tell her I'm out of town. ugh hate the witch. why does she wanna see me all the time. a week later Neil comes home and collapses onto the couch. that was enough. we went to sleep and then the next day I stopped by to see Courtney, the GM (general manager) I ask her if she can hire me back. she asks what side. I said kitchen closer. her eyes light up. she asks full time, I nod and say ill start tomorrow even. and she looks so happy. so I ended up getting my job back and on thursday I start my training. 2 weeks later its been rough but I'm doing good. haven't done and night shift yet. I look down and Immediately I see neils name on my phone. I put up the phone and all I can heal is pain in his voice. he asks if I can come to cover for him while he goes to the doctor. I ran over there right away. did my thing. and got to work. I made him know he's not allowed to come back after the hospital. he needs rest. he gives up and agreed after 15 minutes of back and forth. it was hard but I did it. I finally did a good job at this. even know it was 2:30 in the morning I think I did damn good. 2 months later (January) its been fun working and being happy. I'm gaining weight, and eating lots. I feel things move inside me but im guessing its just gas. its probably nothing. we sit at the table just eat and laugh over stupid sh*t that happens at work. man that place cracks me up. mcdonalds kinda sucks tho. 3 weeks later im starting to put on a lot of weight on my midsection. eh maybe I'm just gaining a lot of weight. im in the bathroom and sitting down and neil comes in and sees how big my stomach has gotten he feels it and feels a kick and looks at me and says "cait, I feel feet here. are you pregnant? the baby seems to have already turned." we go into the hospital and find out not only am I pregnant but im 31 weeks pregnant. holy sh*t! man I thought I was just getting fat, what the hell. I know who the father is... and its not neil. he understands that and wants me to contact him and tell him. well I contact Alex and explain the situation and Alex freaks out calling me a w***e, that he doesn't believe its mine. we tell him to keep the receipts if it happens to not be his ill pay him back. he doesn't even try to even think this child is his. he wants a DNA test. so whatever when the baby is born he can pay for it. this is my child. and ill fight him for it but luckily he wants nothing to do with my child. man sometimes, people are absolutely insane. Alex makes me want to scream and cry. he's a dumbass. but yet, im trying to be considerate to the fact that its also his child. we get the doctor to get us a ob so that we can keep this baby healthy. I don't want anyone to be upset or anything. but I know better than that. everybody gets upset at stupid crap. makes me wanna scream and shout. sometimes, its better to let go than to hold onto something that makes you angry. its not worth the pain and sadness. its not worth the worry or the anxiety. its not worth feeling nad and not happy that something amazing is going to happen. be happy, have fun and for the love of God, use protection unless you wanna me like me! hey guys, ya so this is actually my story. and yes this did happen. my daughter is now 2!! hes a beautiful blonde with curly hair and fair skin, but damn that kid has no fear. none. like how does she do it? she climbs over everything and doesn't care if she falls. but the second you put a life jacket on her! ha! be ready for a screamer!!!! but really shes so beautiful and funny and really helpful. man I just wanna kiss and cuddle her until she screams mommy stop! I hope you guys enjoy it so far, it's my first time writing so... here goes nothing