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when I woke up I was tucked in bed with clean pyjamas and my face clean from any traces of his seed, I took a deep breath and lifted my head to see if was alone in the room, when I saw I was, I got up and went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth while I looked at the stranger in the mirror, weeks back I was a happy teenager, living with my lovely mother and twin brother my only stress was passing my exams so I could graduate with honours and make my mom proud, I had already chosen a college nit far from home so I could see my mother whenever I felt like it, we were a close nit family, but now I haven’t seen them since the coronation, and looking at myself I didn’t want any if them to see me like this, see me this weak and pathetic
My big eyes seemed lifeless and swollen, with sleeping bags under them, I hardly slept because of the noise, Sam and his slut were making at night, and during the day I had a schedule to follow, do I hardly had time to myself, I don’t even know who I was anymore, I was staring at the woman in the mirror trying to see a glimpse of light that used to shine in her green eyes, like her mother’s but I could see none
What have I gotten myself in to? is this how I'm going to live my life from now on? I thought brushing my teeth even harder causing my guns to bleed but I didn’t care even when I could taste the blood, even when I could see the floor of the toothpaste in my mouth changing to red, because that was the least of my problems, who am I?
A queen who doesn't even have control over herself, a useless queen, I can't even keep or satisfy my own husband, that thought broke me even more than I was already, it took Samuel three days to get tired of me, that’s how useless I was
Tears started falling again and I didn’t leave the mirror I wanted to see myself cry, to see how useless I have became, that's when I heard a knock on the door I washed my face really quickly and rinsed my mouth before rushing to the door pacing myself with a forced smile and clearing my throat so I sounded like a proper Queen, I opened the door only to come face to face with another total member that hated me, and my fake smile faded immediately, I knew I didn’t have to take it with she made it clear how she felt about me, being fake was not going to help things anyway
"Amanda, what bring you here? the last time we spoke you didn't seem to like me and I'm in no mood for a fight or to quarrel with you”
“Michaela, I'm not here to fight, I just came to see how you doing" she smiled looking at me expectantly, but I was not in the mood for any if the royal family, and the fact that I didn’t know if they were pretending or not also got to me
"I'm fine, you can go now" I said trying to close the door
"No you not, I see Serena coming in at night and leaving in the morning, that's not okay Michaela, you need someone at your corner I may not like you but that doesn't mean I condone what my brother is doing" and that caused me to stop the door opening it half way, that meant everyone in this house knew about it, and I was the laughing stock even to the servants, who were working in the west wing, and I couldn’t help but be embarrassed
I took a deep breath and stepped off of the door “come in" the was to use to lie when someone already knew what was going on, and I was in isolation for too long now, I needed to talk to someone
"So, vent it all on me sister-in-law" said Amanda throwing her self on the couch, her hair bouncing, and for the first time she gave me a warm smile, and I really needed it
So I told her everything, it was good to talk to someone else about this, I been holding it all alone and i felt at least some of the stress lifting off my shoulder, but in the other hand talking about made it real it was like telling myself what I was going through although I don’t mention the s****l stuff
"I'm going to kill him" her voice was threatening, and angry but that was not what I wanted, I only wanted someone to listen, I didn’t want to make the situation more worse than it already was, Samuel was the king and we all knew his words was law, in these castle, in the street, damn in the whole town, and her questioning him was going to backfire on me, I was the one leaving with him after all
"Amanda, I only told you to vent not for you to help me and you going to threatening my husband is going to make matters worse for me and you know that we are already not in a good place, please let it be" I was shaking at the thought if her telling him off, and fir the first time I could feel myself being scared of him
"But you can't let him treat you like this Michaela you are the queen, at least get a separate room, that's the first step" she said it like it was away if I had that choice I would have taken it, at this palace I came with nothing I had no power over him, his word was law and when he says no all the people in there will listen
"How do I do that?, I'm only queen by name, Samuel holds all the cards, I came here with nothing and I have nothing if Samuel says so"
"Michaela stop it, Sam is your husband but you're the queen, you have all the power you just don't know how to use it, just let me help you by at least letting you have your own room" it was a good thing and fir a second I thought about it, but I knew it was only but a dream Samuel will never allow it, if he can’t even allow me to sleep in the living room
"My wife will never have a separate room away from her husband ever!" Samuel spat, I shook because I don’t see him by the door and I knew by the look in his eyes that I was in trouble
We both turned around to see king Samuel with all his glory leaning by the door looking dangerously pissed
"You son of the b***h, you went to far, you maybe king but I'm not going to allow you to treat her like one of your hoes" I never seen Amanda so pissed, she stood going to him, her finger pointing him on his chest trying to intimidate him but failing miserably
"Amanda, get out and I won't tell you again" I prayed she didn’t but I knew she will eventually do so this I will not be able to avoid forever I’m as well as let it be, and get it over with
"f**k you, Sam and I hope you choke on your spit but this is not over not by a long shot" she moved going out of the room, but not before Samuel having the last word, my eyes already glassy and my body shaking waiting for his wrath
"Next time you threaten me little sister ,you not going like me at all and stay away from my marital issues and get yourself a life" he was growling like a beast, I’m sure the guards watching the door felt it also
"Brother, I already don't like you and I'm not afraid of you, so do your worst and I will do mine" she spat and then left.
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