10. Terry I wake up once again still in hell. I was hoping it was all just a dream or a nightmare really. The whole time I have been here I have not been moved from this spot. I think if I am taken down, I will never feel my arms or legs again. I hope I die before Dirk or Kasey have a chance to come back in here. I have had it with this life. I’m so tired of getting beat or molested by my own Mate. How does that work? My own Mate wants to use me but not accept me. She wants to keep me on the side and Mate with Dirk. Then, on top of that, every time they have s*x, I feel everything that they do. The biggest problem is that her ecstasy is my pain. The last time she was in here she tried again to get me hard. Going so far as to have her top and bra off rubbing on me. When her chosen Mate t