Let Me Love You {forever} book 2

Chapter # 4 {living in the now}

BELLAS P.O.V-

After Andy and his parents came out of the restaurant, we immediately headed back to our house BUT not before he checked his phone.

He barely ever touched it when he was with family, especially when he was with me. I watched him scroll through the texts and he kept a straight face, then placed it back in the middle console and started up the car.

As he was looking back to pull out, he unfortunately caught a glimpse of my face. I must have had an irritated look on it because he frowned at me and then raised an eyebrow. 'What's wrong?' He mouthed. I shook my head and smiled as legitimately as possible and then mouthed 'nothing.' Obviously I wasn't convincing enough because he mouthed back, 'we'll talk later.'

And then we were heading out of the restaraunt parking lot.

ANDY'S P.O.V-

I swear Bellas eyes were burning a hole through the back of my head. She was obviously pissed off about something. She could never hide how she felt from me, not for one second. She was transparent. To me anyway. And that fake smile that she gave me had, something is very wrong written all over it.

She hadn't looked at my phone? No.... Well... If it beeped.... Did I have it on vibrate? No, no I didn't. She probably picked it out of the console to put it on vibrate.... s**t. Then she would have read the texts.

She thought I was cheating. I didn't even have to think about it. Just great. It would be an awkward day and then I'd have to talk to her after my parents left... DAMMIT THAT b***h.

BELLS P.O.V-

I got Maddox out of his car seat carefully as not to wake him and slowly walked to the front door where Andy let us all in.

Our eyes locked for a split second and I quickly walked past him and headed up stairs.

After I laid Maddox down in his bed, I took a few moments to myself to stare out the window and bite my fingernails nervously. I didn't want to go down there and hang out with him now knowing that he could have cheated on me... The thought made my skin crawl.

Had they made a s*x tape? What tape?

Suddenly arms came around and criss crossed over my chest. Andys familiar scent filled my nostrils and I jerked against him. He put his chin on my shoulder and spoke gently into my ear.

"Maddox is in his bed now, why haven't you come down yet?" I felt his hand creep down my belly and slip in between my legs. I clenched my thighs and tried to pull away, but he wouldn't let me and slipped his fingers into the edge of my shorts, finding my clit.

"Andy stop." He didn't and began to trace circles over my nub with the tips of his fingers. My eyes fluttered shut and I moaned quietly.

"Stop it..."

He quickened his pace. "Why? It's not like you to not want me to touch you... You don't want to c*m?" I bit my lip and grabbed his wrist attempting to keep it in place.

He chuckled directly into my ear and brought his other hand around to slip his fingers inside of me. My knees buckled and he held me up.

Moments later I was cuming with him shhhhing in my ear. "You don't want to wake up Maddox do you?"

As soon as I had finished, I swiftly pulled away from him and turned to face him.

He obviously wasn't expecting it because his eyes grew wide. "We better go eat now, your parents are gonna wonder where we are." He took a few steps towards me and I carefully maneuvered around him heading towards the doorway.

"Bella tell me what's wrong." He blatantly stated, his voice flat.

"Nothing." I quickly said before rushing out of the room and flying for the stairs.

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I made it down quickly to greet his parents in the dining room. Seconds later Andy walked in.

They were already eating and Chris smiled up at us. "This is some great Mexican food, come on kids, sit, eat."

We both did, but instead of sitting next to each other we sat across the table from each other. it was so uncomfortable and he wouldn't keep his eyes off of me. With each bite he took. Even when Chris started to ramble about everything and nothing at all. Andy would answer him with his eyes on me.

I broke his stare a few times, to smile and laugh at Amy and Chris. They didn't seem to notice the tension between the two of us.

I didn't like this. Andy knew I was lying about there being nothing wrong. But if I told him I looked at his phone that would make me look bad. Even if I had a legit reason to do it. Kinda....

After finishing up eating, Amy and Chris announced that they were going to run a few errands and they'd be back to visit some more before their late flight this evening. I was dreading the moment when they'd step out of the front door.

Andy grinned devilishly as soon as they had mentioned going out.

How long would Maddox be sleeping? I took my phone out of my pocket and looked down at the screen. It had only been about an hour. He usually slept anywhere from 1-3. Maybe he'd wake up early today....

I walked Amy and Chris to the door and then gave them both hugs and so did Andy. He was standing directly behind me and put a hand on my shoulder.

The door shut as they walked out and I tried to move away from him but he wouldn't let me. I didn't turn.

"Look at me." I swallowed hard as I turned to face him. His face was serious.

"What do you want?" I asked a little more irritated than I had wanted to.

He quickly grabbed me, picked me up and flung me over his shoulder as he turned and headed for the stairs.

"Andy I don't wanna I'm tired... I mean my stomach hurts and I'm nauseous..." We were up the stairs quickly and heading for our bedroom.

"I've been gone for 2 months without getting to be physical at all with anyone. I haven't gotten to touch you in 2 whole months and now you're trying to deny me s*x? Have you been getting it elsewhere? Like from that guy at the bar? Is that why you don't want me?"

He threw me on the bed and towered over top of me.

"I'm not the cheater here! You are! And I don't want to sleep with a cheater!" I couldn't help but yell at him I was so furious.

"I knew you saw those text messages." Andy said grinning at me.

"So you're admitting it then!?"

He climbed over top of me and I pushed my hands against his chest. "No! Get off!"

He ignored my hands on him and pressed down, his lips beginning to suck on my neck.

"ANDY! Get off!"

He placed a hand on either side of my face, looking down into my eyes with a pained expression.

"Bella... Those texts weren't what you think they were. You interpreted them wrong..." He sighed, continuing to hold my face.

My gut kept unclenching and clenching. I was so pissed off and sad at the same time and now I was completely confused.

"I do need to tell you the truth now.." I didn't like those words.

He sat up and pulled me with him to sit in his lap. "When I was dating Juliet, I had set up a camera in our bedroom before I left on tour the last year with her. I had always been suspicious of her cheating on me but I could never get any solid evidence. When I came back, I waited for a day when she was too busy to be home and I checked what it had recorded. Here I caught her sleeping with a man who had photographed her on multiple occasions... However, I still stayed with her being the in love young i***t that I was and I hid it from her. I pretended not to know and I locked it away in a safe at CCs place where she would never find it."

My heart suddenly felt like it was breaking. "I'm so sorry Andy... I'm so sorry I thought the worst....but why is she suddenly asking for it now how did she even find out about it?" That part confused me.

"This is the part where you might get upset with me.... And I don't want you to hate me for it... Promise me you won't hate me for it?"

His wording was horrible and it had my mind running off in all directions.

"Promise..." I said anyway.

"Someone didn't try to rob you at warped tour Bella. Juliet showed up with shayla. It turned out it was all some horrible plot to get you to leave me and when I wouldn't cheat with Shayla in Philly, Juliet took it to the next level by tryi-"

"Trying to kill me." I suddenly remembered everything. Seeing her in the bathroom, her looking at my ring and then continuing to insult me... "Oh my God..."

I brought my hand up to my mouth and began to rock back and forth a little bit.

"Bella, I'm so sorry. I didn't want you to be afraid. I didn't want you to think they'd keep coming after you. I wanted to protect you. And when you couldn't remember I thought it was better that you didn't."

He squeezed me tighter and rested his chin on my shoulder. "Please... Please forgive me..."

"So how did you get her to stay away? The tape?"

"Yes, I threatened her with the tape. I sent a clip of it to her and then she stopped contacting me completely and she stayed away. But she has a fiancé now and about a week ago she texted me again, begging for the tape. She never wants it to accidentally get out. She doesn't want to lose him. And when she saw you in the bathroom she freaked out and thought you'd tell me about it. She thought that I would think you harassed her again and then she texted me. Asking for the tape again. She wants it. Bad."

No wonder I had started to have a panic attack when I thought about her talking to Amy about taking up a hobby. My body was physically afraid of her. It remembered even if my mind didn't.

My trigger. Deep down in the back of my mind I remembered. Maybe I was still afraid she'd come back.

"THAT STUPID b***h!" I screamed, feeling Andy jump underneath of me.

Andy squeezed me and pressed his lips to my neck. "It's ok, I won't let her hurt you ever again Bella. I made sure of it."

I began to cry into his chest. I was so emotionally overwhelmed

"I'm so sorry baby I should have told you... I should never have lied... I just didn't want you to be scared... I just didn't want you to be scared Bella... She will never touch you or go near you or Maddox or I will.... I will kill her Bella."

I knew he was serious everytime he threatened death... I knew he would do it...

"Th-then give her the tape Andy. Let's be done with this... Please. I don't want her in our lives ever again and I don't want her to ever contact you either. I don't want her name brought up and I don't want to ever have to think about her."

He leaned into me and I fell back onto the bed. He pushed his lips on mine with bruising strength and he forced my lips apart with his tongue. I moaned into his mouth and his hands began to tear at my clothes.

I was starting to loathe clothes, not that it took Andy long to remove them.

"Here I see you dancing with some guy, letting him put his hands all over you and now you're angry at me for thinking I was f*****g Juliet behind your back. Baby this s**t is RIDICULOUS." I laughed out loud at the way he said ridiculous like his dad had been doing all day.

"We belong to each other. We don't want anyone else. This jealousy s**t has to stop."

"Then stop being so f*****g attractive Andrew. Seriously it's not fair... I can't ever resist you. I try and I try and I dig my heels into the pavement...." I chuckled at the end.

"Nothing will ever stop me from having you...." He threatened seductively. "Those girls can look but they can't touch...."

He sat up on his knees, suddenly shocking me at his naked bottom half. How did he do that!? Seriously?

And then he grabbed my wrists and brought both of my hands to his d**k, wrapping my fingers around it and holding them there as he moved them up and down. His head fell back and he groaned my name.

"Touching is only for y-ooouu." He looked back down at me as I moved my hands without his help.

"Bring it down to me, turn around."

He suddenly knew what I meant and he licked his lips. "Yes baby."

He placed a leg on each side of my head backwards, bringing the tip of his d**k to my mouth and I opened it invitingly, grabbing his ass and pushed it in. Just as I began to guide it in and out slowly, I felt him grab my legs, yank them apart and shove his tongue into me.

We moved simultaneously, moaning against each other. I glided my teeth gently along his length and his whole body shuddered. He nibbled on my clit gently in response.

It didn't take long for him to c*m this way and I happily swallowed it all down, before he pulled out and I kissed his belly gently.

He quickly turned himself around and thrusted into me. I cried out, not expecting it whatsoever and he pushed his lips onto mine as he thrusted.

"I wanted to taste myself on your lips." He pushed my legs way over my shoulders and my feet hit the headboard.

He was thrusting even harder than he had last night. All the pent up s****l frustration being away from each other drove him mad. And it made s*x even better.... m**********n could never compare to this ever. I had cried myself to sleep many nights because I was sexually frustrated on top of missing him. Once you were with Andy no one could and would ever compare.

I could only imagine how the one night stands he left behind had felt.

For the next two hours he continued to f**k me until my insides were completely raw and I was thankful to hear Maddox's little voice on the baby monitor. He was awake.

I knew every night and free moment that Andy and I had alone would consist of this. I knew tonight was going to be just the same.

I sat up and quickly began to dress when Andy pulled me into his arms and kissed my neck. "I will give it to her. But I will give her a copy. I will always keep the original just incase. Ok?"

I nodded in agreement, turning to kiss his lips. "Ok baby. I trust that you know what you are doing."

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After Maddox woke up we made him lunch and hung out together in the living room watching despicable me 2. Andy had already texted Juliet and he was going to meet her around 6 at the mall.

I hated that he was even going to see her but I understood why he needed to.

"Come with me." Andy said out of the blue.

"N-no I don't want to see her face again."

"No I mean back on tour.... Just for a month or so. It's been so long and you could use a break. Your mom could watch and take care of Maddox. Please, I miss you..."

Our eyes met and I could see the desperate need in his. He would beg.. He would. There wasn't many times that he had to use the full power of his puppy dog pout... Those eyes... And his lips. They always, always, ALWAYS got to me.

"Bella I need you with me for a little bit at least or I'm going to go mad. You need this separation from him. You need to be by my side where you also belong... Let's take another journey together. Our baby boy will be right here when we get back waiting for us."

I sighed. Long and loud, staring at the bowl of Maddox's spaghetti in my lap. "Ok." I said very quietly.

"What?" He asked, leaning in closer to me.

"Yes. I will come with you. How could I say no."