Chapter 78: Strong girl also cry
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I’ve finished the quest. The battle didn’t come out easy, but in the end, after throwing huge lightning at the Kraken multiple times. I defeated the monster, finishing the quest.
I got the gold reward and the magic book. The salmon was said to be sent to my address. Since I don’t have one. I got extra money instead.
The end was awkward since the one giving my reward was the guild master, Leafa. I could tell that she was still angry with me.
She handed me the reward and, without meeting my eyes, without saying anything at all.
People thanked me a lot and invited me to a feast.
But since I have to go back to my mansion. I refused.
Being at the feast together with Leafa would be more awkward. I didn’t even say anything to her before leaving.
Leaving the city, I snuck into the dark alley and activated my magic.
“Switch!”
I still have the detection of my knife that was left on the rooftop of the guild. I switched with my knife and got back to Springwood City faster than the speed of light.
The mansion was already busy and Aster was already home when I got there.
“ What is the quest?”
“It's fine…”
“What kind of quest it was?”
“Just a subjection quest.”
I eat dinner with Aster. Clean my body in the bath and go to the guest room.
The moment I closed the door to my room, I had silence. I have my back touching the wall. Slowly I went down. I still feel devastated about what I’ve done. I judge someone immediately without thinking about what they would feel.
I hurt someone because I think I’m stronger than her.
I felt this sensation before… This sensation…
“Look at that girl… Acting high stacked because she is cute.”
“She said she wanted to be an actress… She has a connection and, in her idol group, she wants to be the center of attention. In the MV made in their idol's song she’s in the video.”
“She is an attention seeker.”
“I’m working so hard Kanna… Why are you looking down on me? Is it because I’m not as cute as you?”
“She is famous… She won’t look back on us.”
Those cold eyes… Those cold eyes.
Don’t give me those cold eyes.
It’s not my fault that I’m talented. I was gifted and everyone is not. I’m special.
I’m terrible… I’m arrogant…
Whose memories are these? These memories… Who is this Kanna?
“Enjoy your fake world while you can.”
I’m an actress… Smiling in the camera… But some people look at me like someone that needs to be erased immediately. All I did was do my best to reach my dream… Why hate me? Why be jealous of me?
“Kanna…”
“I’m not Kanna!” I shouted without knowing.
I held my head tightly. My brain is bursting with unknown memories.
Rushing steps were heard and the sound of a slamming door forcefully opened.
“Hanayuki! What’s going on?!”
Aster opened the door and everything disappeared. I was back into reality. My body was lying on the floor.
The distressed expression of Aster was softened seeing my horrible current state.
Aster picked me up on the floor and on her lap she put my head-on. While I continue sobbing, she hands her gentle fingers combing my hair.
“Just tell me what happened… I will listen…”
I told her everything.
“I’m terrible and arrogant.”
“That’s not true at all… Hanayuki is one of the sweetest girls I ever met.”
“I do not consider other people’s feelings. I jump to a conclusion, acting like I know everything… Just people. I’m so confident in my strength. I look down and act high on others weaker than me. Lecturing them because I’m powerful.”
“I understand… I kinda got the same treatment before. People looked up at me and, at the same time, they looked down on me. But in your case, it is not something you purposely said. Leafa said she was stressed out. That may be the reason she completely snapped out… Just forget about it.”
“I can’t… I hurt her feelings.”
“There is no way you can please everyone. There are too many people in this world. Please, someone, it is very hard. Instead of pleasing someone. You should just please yourself. That way you’ll be happy.”
“That sounds very selfish.”
“Yup, it indeed sounds very selfish, but we’re all selfish beings. We may try to deny it, but that is the one real truth. Everyone wants to be happy. Happiness is not something given to you. It is something you decide.”
I felt like I had heard it before.
The heavyweight on my chest feels lightened.
I don’t want to regret it… Regret will affect my way of decision-making in the future. But if I don’t regret it, I won’t learn my lesson.
I don’t want to be ignorant and just forget these feelings. I have to acknowledge them and learn from them.
“Moving on is hard, Hanayuki… It will take some time… Right now just relax and don’t overthink. You’re not as terrible as you think you are… Not horrible as you think you are.”
Laying down and my head on Aster’s soft lap. I have my eyes falling little by little. I ease my head and only remember the touch of Aster's hand combing my hair repeatedly.
“♪♫♫♫ “
Together with her beautiful humming.
My body gave up and I fell asleep.
♦♦♦♦♦
“I love that song, Big sister Yusa.”
“Really? I won’t be tired of singing for you. You’re my happiness after all. My pride and joy.”
The blonde girl held my hands, walking in endless snowfields. I still can't remember her face, but I finally muttered her name.
She is my big sister… My wonderful big sister, Yusa.
It was cold and the destination was unknown. We keep on moving forward. I didn’t know how long it was, but Yusa always smiled at me every time she glanced at me.
Putting me at ease.
Telling me not to give up until we reach something.
♦♦♦♦♦
I woke up on the soft bed again. I stretched my arms up high and, as I turned around, I saw Aster peacefully sleeping beside me. She is in a deep sleep. Waking her up would be rude.
We did sleep together last night.
Last night was very embarrassing. I cried a lot on Aster’s lap and was comforted by her like I was a baby.
How am I supposed to face her now without being red?
She is nice, I guess she will just smile at me as if nothing has happened. I’m just overthinking about this. I’ll just act normally and move normally. That would be the perfect thing to do.
I sat on the bed and made a big yawn.
After washing my face, I opened the door and saw the butler assigned to me was already there waiting.
“Hermes, thank you for guarding the room.”
“I’m just doing my job, Master Hanayuki… Also, it’s Hermes… Ahem… Sorry just out of habit.”
“You are prepared to be called Sebastian.”
“Nope… Please call me Hermes.”
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