KISSES AND CUDDLES( GXG)

APRIL’S POV “I thought you would not come,” I told Hannah as soon as I met her by the beaches of Malibu. “I am here,” She said not sounding quite interested. “I thought that it was a good idea to bring you here so that we can remember how it all started and that will make us rekindle our love.” I explained to her as I allowed my feet to play with the sand. “April,” She called me and I turned to look at her. “Stop doing this to yourself,” She told me and I could feel tears forming at the slit ends of my eyes. “I am not doing anything, I just want you to love me. Do you remember the first time we met here last summer, we were inseparable, and we kept kissing all the time. You loved me so much,” I reminded her. “That is all gone now April, you know that,” She countered. “Please don’t do this, don’t give upon us.” I begged her and moved closer to touch her face. Tears were now streaming from my eyes like water from a faulty tap. I loved her so much and I did not want to lose her. “I don’t love you anymore,” Hannah said this and I shook my head in disapproval. I cannot accept that. I know that a part of her loves me so much. Throwing all the cautions to the wind, I leaned in to kiss her. My lips captured hers in a kiss but before she could kiss back, she pushed me away. “Leave me alone, I am not into girls, you were a mistake,” She told me this and I felt as if someone had spread gasoline over my heart and set fire in it. I felt so much pain. My heart was crushed into tiny fragments. “You loved me, you are into girls, don’t deny it,” I tried to convince her that she loved me. “I love Ethan so much. It is over April, don’t ever call me to meet up with you. I am done, you should move on,” She told me this and before I could say anything, I watched her walking away. Watching her go away from me made my eyes flood with tears. I couldn’t believe that she had broken up with me yet I love her so much. She made me happy. How am I supposed to live without her? I felt weak on the knees and therefore I allowed myself to sit by the shore of the beach. I started breaking down. I sobbed and hated myself for falling in love with her too deeply. I made her my everything but right now, she does not love me. She even doesn’t want to look at me. I kept on crying till I could not cry further. I am pretty sure that right now my eyes are red and swollen. If only she could come back and see how hurt I am without her. She didn’t care however, she dumped me and moved on with a boy. I was still thinking of what to do next as I played with the sand when I was interrupted by a laughter of some boy. I looked up and I lost it. I felt a surge of anger in my system. How dare she come with Ethan here? “Hi April, Hannah really wanted me to meet with you. She said that you are her best friend,” The guy who I assume to be Ethan told me. I looked at him then at Hannah before I thought of what to say next. Should I tell the truth or not? “Ethan, Hannah was my girlfriend but she broke up with me to date you. If you may excuse me, I am leaving now.” I told them and started walking away. “Wait, “Hannah called me. “f**k you both!” I cursed before I started walking away quickening my pace. I didn’t want to be around them. Even though I felt like I would die now that Hannah is not by my side, I figured that maybe I might heal. Broken hearts do heal to the extent of loving again. I am sure that I will heal. I just need some time. Well, maybe I need too much time because I couldn’t stop sending Hannah voice messages after I got drunk once I got to my Condo. It is so hard to forget someone who gave you too much to remember. She was my first official girlfriend after I come out. I thought that we would date till marriage but s**t is real. She had dumped me. “Get over it April,” I told myself but it was f*****g hard for me to forget her. I missed her. I turned on the stereo to distract myself but each song that played reminded me of her. I ended up having too much to drink and thus I fell asleep way earlier than I expected. ** The warm sunlight fizzling in through the window is what woke me up. I opened my eyes briefly and wished to snuggle deeper into sleep but then I felt my neck hurting. f**k this, I had slept on the coach and I didn’t sleep in a comfortable position. I slowly got off the coach and dragged myself to my bedroom. I carefully got in between the sheets and wanted to sleep but I didn’t since my phone rang. My head felt heavy. I had a hangover. I wanted to ignore the call but recalling that maybe my girl Hannah wants to talk to me maybe to tell me that she loves me, I walked back to the living room to get my phone. Instead of getting a call from Hannah, I saw a new number flushing on my screen. Since I was already here, I chose to pick up the phone. “Hello,” I chided. “Am I speaking to April Lancaster?” I was asked that question. “Yes, it is April, how can I help you?” I implored. “Congratulation Miss Lancaster, we hereby invite you to model in the Paris fashion week happening next week,” After she said this, I jumped up in excitement. “Are you for real?” I asked, I didn’t know that I would be a big model yet I just started a full time modelling last year. “Yes, I will email you to share more details. Have a nice day Miss April,” She said before hanging up. “Yes!” I bubbled up with excitement. Finally, I was going to start a new life in Paris.